I know that I loved you too much, and showed you it too little. I always tried to give you everything, but I never stopped and asked if you wanted it. Taking you for granted was not something I meant to do, but it happened anyway and it took me losing you to realize what I had done. It took only one conversation, that only Fate could have managed to spark, to lead to me giving you the key to my heart, and I remember it like it was yesterday. By the end of the weekend I allowed you in and gave you free roam inside it. It was messy back then, I was young and you, you are so beautiful, and it had been a long time since I allowed anyone in there and it was the first time I let anyone roam free. No matter what you say I will always blame myself at least a little, even on good days, for everything that happened. When I listed off the things that I knew when my world had been shaken up and turned upside down I let one thing off, and that was you, that I still wanted you. As the old saying goes, absence makes the heart grow fonder, from me to you that is true, I just hope that from you to me it is too. For now you will do you, and I will do me. In the moments that you are gone, I have to learn to live without you again. I’m going to try and become a better person, learn from my mistakes so I can become a better friend and lover. If somewhere down the road we get back together that would be magnificent, beyond that if in the end we end up together that too would be beautiful. Just don't forget I let you keep that key for a reason, and if you think you lost or misplaced it don't worry, I left it unlocked for you. I will be there to greet you with open arms.