I feel as if I'm broken
I feel so scared to death
I wish that you could see
how I'll take my last breath

just make sure no ones home
make sure the doors are locked
I'll be up in my room
with all the windows blocked

I'll have my trusty side kick
a shiny silver blade
since no one can see me
I don't have to wait

just take that first step
just put it on your wrist
starting it off slowly
and ending with a twist

Stop it! that second guessing,
you know its what you want!
is what my mind is telling me
ignoring my whole heart

But then I hear a sound
I hear the front door open
I cut a little deeper
they don't know I'm here I'm hoping

they are on the stairs
with more feet than just two
then suddenly my door opens
though I can't make out a view

tears are falling down
and they take me in their arms
they say that its alright
'We love you with our hearts'

Now finally I realize
that its not worth the pain
I have those who need me
I will finally be happy again
. . . I promise

Every once in a while I think of us,
and what we used to be.
Since the day I met you our relationship has confused me.

I remember the excitement,
the warmth in our first kiss.
But I also remember the pain,
and how even when we were together I could feel the loneliness.

I try to dwell on the words you say to me,
the butterflies inside,
But I can't forget your absence,
and the painful tears I cried.

Though some time has past I still get jealous,
I still wish you were someone that your not.
Sometimes I wish I could forget,
and perhaps become less distraught.

But no matter how many times I feel my heart ache,
you will always be my first.
And no amount of time will change that,
or make the clock reverse.