The window creaked. I heard the breeze

My mind was what I must gently ease



I grabbed a pen, trying to write something worthwhile

I turned on the radio, and cracked a smile



I sat at my desk, thinking of themes

But I drifted off as I wrote, sweet dreams



I went to a land of magic and splendor

Though part of me says I'm just a pretender



It's Spring and I can feel the sun

I can see a swingset, and a child having fun



It got brighter, and the heat rose fast

I wondered how much time had passed



I watched this boy as I sat under a tree

Recalling the way things used to be



I sat for hours until I finally noticed something strange

The season, it began to change



I saw leaves of orange and grass of yellow

But near the tree, just like the other, I saw this fellow



He sits and reads about the future

Feeling the wounds he must one day suture



Finding things he must one day revive

And dying, just to feel alive



I walked up to pat his shoulder

Winter's coming kid, and it will be much colder



And I left the boy with that simple quote

And, before I left, as well, my coat



So I walked as the breeze continued to blow

But soon the leaves turned into snow



The ground turned as white as the sky

When I turned my head and heard a cry



And snow like tears to the earth would douse

And I looked up, and saw a house



I floated to the window and I saw a shadow of someone sleeping

It was a boy, not much older, in his pillow, weeping.



I watched him lay there, feeling dead

I slowly moved and approached his bed



On his table I placed my ring

And told him to hold on until it was Spring



And I whispered everything will be alright

And I gently kissed his head goodnight

The wind is breathing past my cheek

Walking the road, feeling meek



Ignoring beds of stress I could not lay

Pondering life along the way



Looking for purpose, looking for rhyme

It was just then I heard a chime



Turned around, I saw a sight

Memories recalled along with fright



A man, lonely, sitting in his car

A man who's life has traveled far



His head lain down, trying to feel

His hands firmly against the wheel



Paralyzed, unwilling to move

Thinking the fears he must disprove



His life in shards, but to what length

The absence of what we called strength



I've seen this man times before

It must have been ten years or more



And then it hit me, like a spell

I knew this man, knew him very well



I knew him, the blood pounding in my heart

The man who raised me from the start



Ten years ago, the same old man

A healthy family, that was the plan



The man of the family had all the power

It didn't take long, it all went sour



The foundation crumbled, fell to pieces

Life changed, for kids, nephews, and nieces



So I'm looking at this old man now

No body learned, I'm wondering how



I felt the anger, rising in me

But also, I felt the sympathy



Thinking it was all over, way back then

I truly never wanted to see this again



So go inside the house, and tell your kids goodbye

Silently, I turned my head to cry



Hoping that you'll one day learn

If you can't, this world will burn

The feelings that I cannot find



As I sit and try to unwind



Somehow I can see the time



Passing through my open mind



And everything I see is fine



And I pray for some kind of sign



As I now sit in the sunshine



For some reason it makes me rhyme



And now I see just what's in line



And I'm so glad to call you mine



And even though we are apart



We both still know you have my heart

I can't believe my eyes again

It happened all too fast

It's becoming just another joke

Just the same as all the past



It started with this feeling

I'd never felt such joy

I was just looking for a girl

Who was looking for a boy



I saw you standing there

Of course I had some doubt

I just wanted to say something

But the words would not come out



The time went by so quickly

You got to know me well

Sitting in class I'd check my phone

Every time I heard the bell



I didn't know the feeling then

Though it seemed to some renowned

You showed me even in darkness

That every color can be found



The sensation grew so fast

Seeing nothing but romance

It started getting stronger

I thought I saw my chance



With great speed I took it

I offered little clues

I got the answer Id always wanted

By god she liked me too



Still surprised by the response

It seemed it went quite well

I'm finally on my feet again

Waking up I heard the bell

I'm falling back asleep again

Dreaming of the greenest grass

Violently I'm woken up

I realize that I'm still in class



I'm wondering what I'm doing here

As I'm staring at the clock

The hostility seems to grow

With every tick and tock



As I'm walking through the hallway

I hear a little cough

"That shirt don't say Badin kid

You'll have to take it off"



Then I see a balding man

The source of my despair

"It can't be in the middle kid

You'll have to change your hair"



"And what's that writing on your arm

No, that just won't do

Go over there and wash it off

And also change your shoes"



My creativeness is leaving me

It's coming out as drool

"But Open House is coming up

You must promote our school"



My hair is almost all gone now

You can't recognize my face

Why'd they make me do this

I think I hate this place



I'm waking up from class again

The teacher calls my name

But he's looking at a different kid

We all look the same



What have they done to me

I wonder as I hear the bell

I'm not an individual

This place might just be hell

What are these words?

What do they say?

Can they tell me if I'll make it through

Just one more day?



But what are all these words about?

They make me scream.

They make me shout.



Some say they're an outlet for the soul.

They're such meaningful words, they say.

But they're taking their toll.



Can you help me?



And then she came.

The world was new.

I thought she could help me,

And so did you.



The time was now.

The sky was blue.

But I really wasn't sure just what to do.



I hesitated.

I lost my mind.

I guess I let her slip away this time.



And now I know what those words were about.

Words all with hope.

Words with no doubt.



I guess they just weren't written for me.

That was very easy to see.



But today I heard a beautiful sound.

I guess I was proven wrong.

I felt as if my life turned around.



So I walked and walked.

Until I found a mirror.

And wondered what it was doing here.



Then I knew to turn around.

All I saw was a fiery den.

I realized it was all just a trick,

I had to start all over again.



I felt like a fool being toyed with from above.

But sometimes, I guess that's love.

Standing here in the grass

It's still black, but I have no fear

Wondering how slow the time will pass

The light is finally getting here



So long ago it came it seems

Since I've been graced with a single ray

Something I can't find in a dream

Something for which I can only pray



I guess my dreams don't mean that much

But my prayers are coming true

I've never seen beauty as such

This feeling's completely new



And now it seems the dark is done

I only wish to see the sun.

I'm laying in this bed alone at night



My mind drifting off, not like during day



I don't know where I am. It brings me fright



What this is, I cannot say



It's so real. I want to believe it so



I want to run through it. My feet stay still



"Where could I be?" I desire to know



I feel I've been put here against my will



Although I'm frightful, I am excited



This feeling I have is quite extreme



My imagination is ignited



I know I must be in a dream

It was always an argument

My childhood was rough

And after seven long hard years

I knew they’d had enough



What made it so much worse

Was where to place the blame

Because with all six kids involved

No story was the same



I used to sit in bed at night

Hearing all the things they say

But I sat there and I wondered

Will things always be this way



I know it’s not their problem now

The papers all went through

But where am I involved in this

What am I to do



It seemed to me they didn’t care

Everything they put us through

And I know I wasn’t the only one

The others felt it too



I’m living all the hatred

But what am I to say

Sometimes I just can’t help but feel

I can’t last another day



I wish I knew the good times

But I was very young

The only things I can remember

Are not what you’d call fun



I know it’s not my fault

But thinking back this day

I wonder what could happen

If things went a different way