I used to write you
In my mind and in my thoughts
Somehow I'd hoped you'd receive them
And come running back to me
All those letters went unread

We had crumbled
Our souls became humbled
Distance became our common enemy

We could have crossed the broken road
But neither of us took that first step
We stood staring into opposite directions
And we walked away

I knew deep down
This day would come
It hit me too soon
I daydreamed for hours, this couldn't be true

For we shared more than a friendly kiss
I hoped for our future
But soon I no longer felt your fingertips
This was real
And you weren't here
So one last time I'll say
I love you

This is my lost letter

I locked you in a box
You sit at the top of my closet
Yet I see you everynight
You haunt me in my dreams
Your sweet lips full of lies
Your warming embrace
I can't be fooled once more
Death in disguise
I faintly remember those words you spoke..

I've lost you

Where is your hand to guide me?
The light has disappeared
I'm stuck in this moment
I feel you go by with the breeze
I see your eyes as I stare down this path
I can't seem to touch your face
My heart aches from the cold
Where are you.. I know you're waiting..
You're there..

I met a boy
And I fell in-love too quick
I loved him more than sunsets
More than when the leaves change colors
More than photographs and sappy lyrics
Cuddling on the couch
Or chocolate covered almonds
Oversized sweaters when I'm feeling lazy
And waiting for those three words of comfort

I came to love everything
He was and everything
I had made him into

My heart swelled as months passed
As I was so full of love
For him and for hope
I forgot to do the thing
That so many forget to do

I forgot to leave room to love myself

I still shed a tear every once in a while
Most things still remind me of you
Some of the silly faces you'd make have rubbed off on me
I can't listen to your favorite song without breaking down
I enclosed the physical memories in a box in my closet
Though you still cross my mind every night
Some of the memories make me smile
I'm grateful to have enjoyed them with you
Others make me weep
Like the time you opened your heart and let me in
Most days I miss you
But I've learned what it means to keep going
I am moving on

One moment I'm fine
The next I find myself on the floor soaked in tears
You pick the time when you want me to notice you
I was doing just fine until I saw your eyes
It's been months without your touch
It's been hell, but I've been tough
I know there's a reason
For every little thing
I just want to know what happened to you and me

That feeling is gone
The one I'd look forward to every time your fingertips touched my flesh
Laying on your couch

It wasn't the same

All that time I spent wondering where you were
Secretly longing to hear your laugh in the front seat of your car
I was haunted by those words you rarely spoke
Like a secret begging to flee from your mouth
"I love you"

That feeling is gone
That one I'd get by the taste of your lips
It would linger on me for days
You were all I could taste

That feeling of joy I'd get because you were so sweet
That feeling is gone
You were frightened I'd find the truth
Two years down our path I did
Now you trace my face with your gentle hands

It wasn't the same

That feeling I'd get when you look me in the eyes
Like we could live in that moment forver
That feeling is gone

I used to make you laugh
That familiar laugh that would play in my head for days
I imagine the past, then the future

It wasn't the same

I jump up whispering goodbye
As you drive away with that sorrowful sigh
I don't want to look back
All that time ago
On your comfy couch, somewhere lost in love

It isn't the same