i know now my day would not be complete without seeing your morning smile
that slight wrinkle in the corner of you eye, the raising of your cheek bones
the crinkle at the corner of your mouth, what man can resist the glow that surrounds you
the slight tilt of your head as you say hello, how are you, your hair dangling
care free off your shoulders your perfect teeth glistening in the light.
for that moment, i stand still, frozen, just taken your vision in my mind
and in a high pitch voice i say hello, i'm good.

your  memory comes to me time and time again
relentlessly bleeding the love for you from my heart
will you cup it in your hands and bathe yourself in it
deep in your pores, resisting all those who may wash it away
for they are not true to you,  they are only vampires in the night
seeking every droplet, ******* you dry, then moving on
but i am your sunrise and your sunset, and every moment in between
i am the constant that is your life

gently waves tickle the shores
like sirens fingers motioning
me to come join them

gentle breeze wraps around me
and holds me in a trance
my eyes staring at the horizon

oh those noisy seagulls
with their happy chatter
searching for what they desire

and what is my desire i ask
or am i like them, searching
the horzion again and again

perhaps i should get off this rock
and return to the world
and realize i am me

oh little baby, let me lay you down
                                              on you bed so soft and soothing
                                              comfort your cries, you no not why
                                              through the night, you calm and breathe with ease
                                              a little fidgeting here and there
                                              rolling over once or twice, a dad's concern
                                              as the morning sun rays
                                              filter through the shade's i check in on you
                                              and to my astonishment, a beautiful woman
                                              has emerged from the night
                                              so grown and independent, you walk past me
                                              kiss me on the cheek, and simply say
                                              thank you dad.      
                                                                        i love you

i think it would do you well, my dear
                       not to glance at me that way,my dear
                       for i am not what you percieve, my dear
                       i can't be your savior, my dear
                       i  can't even save myself, my dear

                       the softness of your body, my love
                       cushions my aching heart, my love
                       your warmth radiates my senses, my love
                       your scent surrounds my mind, my love

                       just holding you this way, my dear
                       knowing were not alone, my dear
                       creates an unwavering feeling, my dear
                       of love eternal, my love

the storm comes, natures wrath  
the meadow glistens, with waters life
drips on the soil, seeds to flowers
spread colors that flow to horizons
you and i frolick so free hand in hand
kiss me now before it ends

ok, i need to go in, i know he's there, let him not see me till i compose myself
ok i'm at my chair, working hard, oh no, he glides past me, concentrate i say
to late, his aura is to strong, need to look up, our eyes meet, smile you fool
watch him move by, heart racing, gaze trance fixed,concentratei say whew.

i can see that twinkle in your eye when i sweep your hair around your ear
your gaze is deep and uncertant wondering what you may be thinking
your arms wrap around my waist as mine are wraped around yours
the space between our faces so dangerously close oh so tempting
the heat given off by our bodies building to an unrelenting passion
trying not to submit, yet not wanting to be the one to let go first
holding on, holding on, until the fire is too much and we burn with
that intensity and just let our bodies melt into one and create a solar
flare that travels the speed of light and touches all the universe and
beyond .

i often wonder of the rituals of life, the awakenings, the motions, the bending to the masters
the never ending quest of what?
am i better for this, shall i trudge on, up stream, like the salmon, only to be eaten by the bear
do i dare change course, take that chance, do i have that adventerous d. n. a.
will the winds take me here, then there, and is there were i can settle my thoughts
take root, build something of my importance, would anyone care
i'm the top shelf looking down on all you creatons, laughing, smiling, beating my chest
daring you to join me, can you handle this. i'm the chosen one, or so it seems
but even up here the rituals start again, and i long for were i was, with all of you
not this false facade of power and glory, for i have found that quest of what
and it is with the love from my friends, forever

as i whisper in your ear, and tell you what i fear
i feel you holding me tighter, to wipe away my tear
the warmth on my neck, from your soothing breath
sends my mind to a place, your softness i can't regret
for you are with me now and always,and beyond forever
a cherished time, a whimsical jouney, a daydream awaken
I LOVE YOU

only in the quiet, when darkness creeps in on me
can i truly reflect, and let my mind wander so free
thoughts that come to me at the speed of light
so siffting through them is a peerless plight

each one tempting, saying, pick me, pick me
so i navigate the ones i truly beleave
and i try to put them in a coherant phrase
and trust in you to interperate your way

for these are not truthts or lies i spew on this page
only a starting point in hopes you'll engage
so there, i have given you everything you request
so its your turn to tell me, or forever let it rest

the most beautiful thing i ever created is all grown up now
                              her smile bend's men's knees and leave them in a child like state
                              her intellgence will overwhelm those who want to coverse
                               the glow of her being can lite the darkest nights
                              her voice can calm the hardeat amomg us, a true gift from above
                              and a unrelenting love to all mankind

so you ask me to dance,and i asked forever
                                    you replied, if you can handle me
                                    i asked do you have the stamina
                                    you laughed and said here we go
                                    fifty years later, we are still dancing
                                    together though our lives
                                                          i love you

the glow around you has turn cold as i approch you
       your eyes stare past me and i am confused
       i reach for you but i am blocked by some unseen force
       an emotion unfamiler to me. what is this i wonder
       i ponder is this love affair of the century over
       our years together just a lie,a deciet to **** time
       why you wait for something better to come along
       or will you discard me like an old pair of jeans
       that just don't fit right anymore.
       your silence does'nt help, perhaps my goodbye will

passion
                                                      the unrelenting cure of feelings
                                                           that torment my mind

oh my sweet reminece, how you are always in my mind
                   a steady friend, never to fail me when i come calling
                   a healthy dose of reminders, the good times, when
                   my life was more clear.
                   not to complain about the daily grind, for such is life
                   but to know i can visit you from time to time, makes me smile.

is it wrong of me
                                    to just sit on my favorite chair and
                                              let my mind wander
                             listen to the sounds around me and not react
                                              no thoughts just numbness
                             leave the days events in the hours that past
                                               no regrets, no emotions
                             think of all things and let them fade away
                                               my mind moves on
                              to no were in particular just wandering
                                                tired of rationalizing
                              catch the racoons shadow, still looking for food
                                               wish i could help
                              and you to will fade into the darkness
                                          not knowing i saw you
                             rise up from this chair, lay prone on the bed
                                          and close my eyes
                                   and dream of the ones you miss

sassy but sweet is what called you in our youth
sassy, with that certain look, sweet with that angelic voice
though years have past and times have changed
your being remains the same
why your still with me, i'm not quite sure
perhaps my years have past and my times have changed
and your always a constant , that straight line, never wavering
and always sassy but sweet

how dare you tell me that you are not worthy of my love
to insist this will not work out between us
or that you are inferior to me
am i the great messiah you seek
am i the aztec king so revered by his people
am i a quasar that outshines all the stars
no, for i am a mere human whose ego is on the negative side
i don't seek to defeat you or impose my will on you
you talk of not being worthy of me as if its some distant
emotional state drummed upagain in your minds past
so look up at me with those stunningeyes and listen
all i said was I LOVE YOU

silence is what i heard when you slid into our bed
coldness is what i felt when you kissed my head
the distance between us is no mistake as the pillows can atest
my head turned, looking at the wall, wondering
remember me when you lay in his arms
as the tears creep down your cheeks
the guilt is yours, not mine anymore
i have made my plea for forgivness to you
i guess revenge is not your style

its so interesting to see you again
standing behind me in the mirror
why have you appeared again
i thought you vanished forever
what's your ploy,what game do you play this time
do you miss me, miss us, or are you
happy tortureing me every once and a while
with those puppy eyes and teasing smile
i have moved on you know.just like you
so your perfect whisper won't work anymore
your siren voice is a mere echo of the past
as i wipe the steam away from this mirror

removed from the soil
tossed in a bin
washed in the devils sin
distributed to the masses
spewing his message
repeat when needed
or turn the page

oh you what can i say, you captured my heart and can never release it
the beauty of your soul, the way you move, i wont allow it
for i am gifted with an angel, or so it seems, your glow will guide me
on my journey to destenies unknown. if i falter will you be there
to lift me up and brush the soil of life off me so i may continue to
were i'm not sure, or will you release me and let me be a man.

eyes see
looks feel
hearts speed
skin reels
touch tingles
minds mingle
lips embrace
fingers trace
beds soft
spirits aloft
energy spent
dreams content

oh you my dear godess have left me a mere speck of dust
to blow in the wind to all corners of your love
take me now, do what you will. for i am powerless in your hands.
but be gentile, for the scars of many lovers still bite at my skin.
yet i feel your touch will heal my wounds awaken me to a new
sense of life i have yet to know. if i am worthy i will reciprocate to you
all that you deem of me.

he walks, he wiggles, on the ground
slowly but surely, without a sound.
his feet are a hundred, timely in beat
rhythm and rhyme, one, two, three.
the caterpillar is unique in his own way
nothing bothers him, he likes it that way
he comes and he goes up and down his tree
slowly but surely one, two, three.

since i can't hold you in my arms tonight,
i will hold you in my mind all night.
and in the morning feel the warmthof your smile'
and know i am loved by someone one more time.
your sweet voice carries me away to a place beyond
this hurtful and hateful world, a place were some may
say why bother and i say because i am hopeful that it does
exists, and it begins with you my friend

oh may i tell you one last time,of this far away place in my mind
where you and i can run, love and play, exclude the world and try to find
the truth in our hearts and be forever young.

the feeling as you touch me cripples my senses, if only for that moment
your breathe reawakens me to that everlasting sting of your siringe of love
if i can only pull that out of my body, and show you, you don't need to do it twice.

whisper me that thought again
of how we're meant to be
when you said let us not make this a fantasy
let's make it reality for eternity

i see them ,hand in hand , people with spirit of the season, with the spirit of their lives
joy in their hearts and joy in their minds but alway escaping me
trying to capture it but it always seems to elude me
as a child and adult never finding the wonderment that this seasons brings
I see the lights and look in my mind and hope that I will be one of them
the ones who smile, laugh and emjoy the moment but I do not find

empty hallways, forgotten voices
pictures hang, dusty and off balanced
cobwebs spread from door to mirror
a young rat scurries past the broken floor

his picture still hangs over the fireplace
a spider runs down his well-shaped nose
each brush stroke is thick and sculptured
the dust collects as sand dunes

the whole room seems mysterious
books of occult line the paint-chipped walls
the windows cracked the night air blows
dead trees peer down on slamming shutters

the old house creeks and cracks
howling doge are echos of past crickets sing songs of last dreams
this house, this ledgend infinte
captures one's mind as lonley and hideous
remembers it's myths fools false illusions
under the now dim light of the moon
spooks creep silent footsteps
his spirit surrounds the acre
truth and lies untested question
of how he lived alone from living

as the evening streches out across the sky
winds calm with the emerging stars
eyes of the night,i am alone.

sad retreats pass through my mind
emptyness drains from these hands that held you
i know you had to leave on that quiet night
but you could have stayed till the morning light

as i walked through this cold snowy field stumbled upon a patch of green
puzzeled, i touched the stem of one of god's wonderment not knowing what i found
caressed by the warmth of sol, emerged a being so full of beauty i stood in awe
gazing in her eyes transfix in sudden paralisis nothing to mumble so not to ***** her
her look of bewilderment gazed upon me she glided her hands softly, slowly up and down
my body, not knowing ,just a puzzled glance her petals engulfed me as if to say we are one

i saw you, you were standing, alone, where i once stood with you
you seemed so lost, not knowing which way to turn your sad eyes
they dont smile as you try and walk away.
my shadow, did you not sense it, did you not feel it tugging at you
to hold me once more the genius of your madness has left me sane with love
no longer do those voices inturupt the conversations in my head
i dont chase fantisies anymore i have a hard time catching reality
can you hear my breath whisper in you ear turn around i am here

and they were all there, the blond copier, the bill payer
the setter, the psyche, the keeper of the bell, the super sec
gathered together for the food of the day. the red headed one
screeched for there was no food. the earth shook, the skies
darken, the seas grew angry. but alas, the wise man appeared
bearing gifts of myrrh, gold and a big salad.the skies cleared,
the seas calmed, and peace was once again brought down upon the table.

and so they feasted on the bounty of the land with smiles abound
not a morsel was lost as their hunger subsided

they spoke of families and friends, and of enemies to be.of tales of lore
lies, and a raging banter that drove the men to the wine. in the background
was that irritating ring, on the other end was some mindless question bequeathed
upon the great table. yet no one missed a chance to sample the bounty

and the music, ah the music, it seems that only five songa were ever made in the history
of mankind. over and over it blared, relentless mind numbing, with the occasional
chorus of the red headed one.

and when you thought that they had their fill, the sweet nectar of the pastry appeared
they all stared in wonderment,tempted by their thoughts, only to be succumbed by
the sweetness of the snake.

and the meal ends and the jester starts, providing laughter to fill their bellies once more.
the satire continues until they can give no more.

and they prepared to exit from the great table with smiles chiseled on their faces and
thoughts of great friendships, and the anticipation of tomorrows leftovers.
                                                            BELCH

how intrusive it was for that evil feeling to inturupt our love affair
did it not understand the rules of human emotions
did it not know it needs to ask if its ok to intrude and get permision to do so
how dare it pick on the weakness instilled in all of us

when a whisper turns into a rumer none is safe
the essance of a battle can be found in the vortex of the combatants
if the mistakes you make are muliplied you can subtract each one by love and commitment
i heard you...i heard you... i heard you... what did you say
if you feel alone on this earth you won't alone you still have your ego

naked trees stand bent
old men lay down silent death
nature's way of life


springtime serenade
bluebirds chirp morning songs
nature awakins


the clouds roll slowly
crack to open their arms
the rain falls gently

see the hills gently roll,feelthe grass softly flow
beneath their roots, i am old
silent stories never told
ours is not to say, where we lay
He request us, His own way
we can ponder,come what may
till our thoughts subside, end of day

we were to like two ships on the open sea we drifted into each other's path the horizon grew bright, the sea calmed . my search for life had ended with you. when we came to meet your eyes met mine we sailed on the crest of the waves. the sun was warm, our spirts high, and the wind whispered in our ears.but like winds that blow in all directions we found ourselves on diferant courses. and with each turn of world we'll meet, to shar a moment of life.

i resolve to: understand me,understand you, understand us. each year is a short story, a comedy, a tradgedy, a magical experience. let us not mutate into tragic beings and hold despair in our hands, rather let us morph into the guiding lite that is in our souls and feel the joy in ours eyes and the warmth of our smiles for all mankind to see.

just a thought. when i lay with you i know im safe, and when you hold me i know i'm loved. when you breath on me i am alive,and you open eyes i'm heaven bound. come then, hold my hand and walk with me down this path of ectasy, to a place we both pine for. then i'll ask if i was yours and you were mine could we love for all of time or is it an illusion in our minds.