I chose you to be part of my life, engraved deep into my soul, blood assaulting my every vein unconscious from that revered dream, each morning to wake up haunted back by reality. Existence kills me as it devotes you, different worlds – what fate ordained us to be, still I try each day to be a life you’d notice one day.

Lay on the bed
Body wholly covered with bed sheet
Poor pillow
w'screaming
from that tight embrace
Eyes voluntarily closed
Then
unexpectedly
that moment
just when you closed your eyes
unaware
so sudden
teardrops fell
down that bony cheeks
Lazy to wipe dry face
you just let it flow
You tried to smile
You did it
averted from crying
But deep within
you knew
it's not working
And that's when you realized
nothing's alright
not a thing
The next day you woke up
cheeks'r already dry
eyes refreshed
it's another day
same old noise from outside
the sun shines again
the earth continues its course
And then it dawn on you
so it never did before?
you are
unnoticed.

Nakita kita kanina. Nadaanan ka lang
ng dyip na sinasakyan ko. Ewan
baka nakita mo rin ako.
Kung napansin mo ko, yun ang hindi ko alam.
Malamang hindi.

Ganun ka pa rin, ganun ka palagi.
Magkasalubong na mga kilay,
nakakunot na noo. Siguro
dahil sa init. Ayun, kahit
mag-isa lang sa dyip, di
ko napiglan, napangiti na lang ako.

Nainis naman ako nung
isang beses, biglang
sinabi ng kaibigan ko, hindi raw
maganda yung ginawa **** artikulo. Ipagtatanggol
sana kita pero anong masasabi ko, eh
wala naman akong alam tungkol sa'yo.

Kaya eto pagdating ng bahay, binuksan
ko agad at binasa. Baka sakali
sa paraang ito maging close tayo.

At sa bawat salita, sinusubukang
intindihan ang ginawa mo. Pero ang totoo,
pinipilit intindihin ka. Baka
kasi dito, makilala kita.

Isang araw dati, lumabas ako
kasama ang isang kaibigan. 'Ah ok' na lang ang
nasabi ko, nang malaman kong
ang ex niya,
ay siya ring ex mo. Anliit
talaga ng mundo, noh?

Naalala ko tuloy nung hindi
mo kami tinulungan, kasi
busy ka, busy ka para sa bayan. Ayan,
lalo tuloy kitang nagustuhan.

Naisip ko nun, kahit
kelan hindi ako magiging bida
sa hawak **** kamera, kasi,
ang bayan mo, ang bayan ko, ang lagi **** inuuna.

Oo kahit ako natatawa, kasi
sobrang layo talaga ng
distansya nating dalawa. Mula
sa paniniwala hanggang sa mga ginagawa, hindi
kayang sukatin kahit ilang
ruler pa gamitin.

Hindi naman ako naghahangad
ng kahit ano. Ang makita ka nang di inaasahan,
sapat na yun. Ang mabasa
ka, okay na para isiping
kilala nga kita.

Makita lang ulit ang mga mata mo, maisip
o maalala lahat ng ito, okay na.
Pero sana alam mo,
may isang tao dito, napapangiti
dahil sa'yo.

Once.
It was only one time.
Yet,
I keep coming back,
to that place.

Tried to pretend
its over.
Told myself
I won't linger.
I was denied.
Cos i keep,
i keep coming back,
to that place.

If twice is too much
then
maybe it really is.
Its never
a crossroad
since then,
though i keep
coming back,
to that place.

I keep coming back,
i keep coming back,
to that place,
that is already
dead.