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Nov 2012 · 2.3k
Equilibrium
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
Four white walls adorned with posters.
Jimi Hendrix, Pink Floyd and an odd cluster
of animals and dinosaurs.
and a strange man relaxing his pores.

I could learn something from this

The wall space around Van Gogh
is lined with empty cigarette boxes.
A constant reminder of life shortening though
they encircle the skull like rabid foxes.

I've lost count of how many I've smoked

The carpet is littered with stains.
A reminder of past strains.
Even industrial shampoo
will not fade the marks scarred into.

I've been here too long

The drawers are a symbol of a cluttered mind.
Nothing is organized. but anything is an easy find.
Random thoughts make the air stale.
Only freshened by the 3pm arrival.

Its just junk and coupons

Its difficult to balance all these things out
without a feminine touch to soothe.
A soft laughter to rile the doubts.
Another pair to line with my shoes.

*I'll be with you one day Caroline
Caroline, you like I, must have an equilibrium between your mind and the world.
© November 26th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 541
Point Break
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
Repetition of
definition
dilutes conviction
in my mission.
Rinse and repeat.
© November 25th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 1.6k
Bull
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
Silhouettes of perfection
mirrored in the moon's reflection
As they dance across the plain.

Sheets of grass are crisp with dew
From the condensation
caused by the concentration
of their gaze.

Blind to the life they draw
they are stopped only by thunderous applause
from the voyeurs of their strain

Horns shattering the silence of an intimate exchange.
Excited by the very motion of the living.
The color of their exsistance change.
Any misgiving and the other will find where fury preys.
© November 24th, 2012 by Timothy R brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 1.4k
Diamonds
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
You and I are cut from the same stone.
Diamond.
The extreme pressure we face gives us our shape
our sparkle
our shine
And our formation
reduces the common denomination
of things that can affect us.
The things that do penetrate
within us, permeate.
Revolve around our universe,
Dictating our hue.
We may appear blue
or red or yellow but deep down
Our own imperfections define us,
which is why we are Brown.
While we have different varieties
Only one thing can destroy us
decisively.
Diamond.
Caroline. You, like I, are your own greatest enemy.
© November 23rd, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 692
Caroline (1)
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
You and I are cut from the same stone
Diamond
We can see the full spectrum but red doesn't show our anger.
Bull.
It is the motion that incites our movement.
Equilibrium
We can only rest when we know our limitations.
© November 22nd, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 1.0k
Too sick to think
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
Bed-ridden
with a grotesque taste
of mucus in my mouth.
Head hidden
beneath a wall of tissue.
I can't seem to clear my nose.
Aspirin given
in increments of 2x4.
My head is still pounding.
Fresh air forbidden.
I'm too weak to stand.
I'm too sick to think.
© November 21st, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 958
common cold
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
I have the sniffles
Because i didn't take precaution.
I have several sweaters
But they didn't sell in auction.
So I ventured outside
into the frost an'
got the sniffles
because i didn't take precaution.
© November 20th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 433
Something simple
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
I spent a day counting the tiles
on the roof and floor.
On the windows and doors
I kept counting as I walked miles.

On each slab of concrete.
In the lines of the faces of people I meet.
On turtle shells.
and the sides of wells

I count tiles on doors
and the door itself too
I separate them by colors
like green and blue.

Why do I count tiles you ask?
It could be said
that its a sign of a problem in my head.
To me, its something simple to help the time pass.
© November 19th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 2.4k
Pathelogical liar
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
I awoke alone,
after a horrid dream.
I turned to your face
to feel something comforting.
In the spot that graced your silhouette
were sheets weighted with regret.
My misdirected inflection
coupled with the misconception,
that 1+1=1 not 2 you see,
when the correct formula
is 1+1≥3


Fact is I lied.
When I pronounced "love"
with greater strength than "as long"
Fact is I lied.
When i said unconditional.
It is the beauty in song.

My regret lies in lack of earlier cognition.
This is not the first time this has happened.
Which means I never learned a lesson
inferring  to my lack of a mission
or understanding,
in a man's mind muddled.
I took the position
of sitting down in the struggle.
My body fatigued, eyes bloodshot and wary
I refused to see your definition
of affection realized in the lines of the abstract.

Fact is I lied.
When I said forever;
Knowing I am temporary.
Fact is I lied.
I never finished my sentence.
A more complete thought is "one of many"


The complete truth is my love was uniform.
Designed to let any woman fill the mold.
I lacked passion.
Which gives direction in a sandstorm.
I gave up my attempts to understand why water is wet.
Returned to my dreadful fantasy
wherein my heart would contort and deform.
As I told the truth to you
in a Scarlett and Rhett fashion;
We caressed in a snowstorm.
The message cut deeper than I could ever myself.

Fact is I lied.
When I said I would be fine,smiled
and drank in the last light you would reflect.
Fact is I lied.
When I said it was me
It was the both of us I wished to confect.
Part 2 of the Kutisha series "mwongo
© November 18th, 2012, by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 4.8k
Spa, get it?
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
I like to eat spaghetti with my face.
I like to throw it like confetti
or wear it on my waist.
Whether it be freshly made
or reheated after 12 days.
I use the noddles as a short blade.
I like to hear them crack and crunch like a bag of lays.
© November 17th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 3.6k
Definitions
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
My:
Belonging to or being associated with the speaker
Love:
An intense feeling of romance or ****** attraction towards an object.
Of:
Expressing the relationship between a part and a whole
Life:
A condition that distinguishes the active and self-sustaining.
Is:
Exist
Defined:
To state or describe the exact nature of an object
By:
Identifying the agent performing the action
Moments:
A very brief measure of time.
Of:
Expressing the relationship between a part and a whole
Happiness**:
A state of being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.
a brief record of facts, topics or thoughts, written down as an aid to memory
© November 14th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 4.7k
Bloodshot
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
Sitting up late at night
with smoke seen through the t.v light.
I don't rest 'cause bed bugs bite
It's like I'm my own parasite.
Not symbiotic
nor chronic,
just nicotine and glowing screens.
Bloodshot eyes even though I'm clean.
A high intake of caffeine,
keeps away my lucid dreams
or nightmares.
It's called despair.
To  dwell on a concept,
reliving the consequence.
The past is no investment.
The future is a slight nuance
Its here that matters.
Eat not of a tin platter
This letter is self addressed
When your up at night and your mind won't rest
Can't figure out if your cursed or blessed
It's the present that grades your test.
© November 14th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 1.3k
No! Stop!
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
I
No! stop! don't do this please!
I'll give you whatever you want! just don't do this!
Anything you ask anything! Just stop right now!
You can smoke! You can drink! Drive recklessly! Whatever you please!
Love
There is no going back from this! Remember your pain?
Remember the torment you faced? that intestine prying emptiness?
The mind searing fact that you faced?
Remember how good it felt when you finally let go?
You don't need this! You are better off without it!
You
They say its better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all. I'd rather just not have known what I was missing.
© November 12th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 2.4k
Lines
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
It's cold outside.
I found a box
to hold within complacent thoughts,
outrages and jealousies.
Firewood to keep me warm.
Labels on the things I sought.
I'm seeking
the definition of what
why and how words are wrought
My raddled mind
latches on
to the slightest runaway fantasy.
As if reality
is a scorned
lover who refuses to dance with me,
declining my apologies.
My dearest paramour
return to me.
© November 12th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 6.6k
Broken phone screen
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
Out of frustration
I broke my phone screen
who cares?
nobody is going to call me anyway.
Rather your not going to call me anyway
Months have passed
Seasons have changed
And on this day of rememberance
I took every picture of you from my broken phone
and placed it into my picture folder
As I peruse though the memories
and picture yesterday;
My phone screams out a sound i had not heard in quite awhile.
So loud my heart almost stopped and my brain ran wild
Your ringtone, on the very second i click ok to save,
alerted me that you sent a text message today.
a text message...of all things, a text message...
I laughed so hard after writing this i cried.
© November 12th,2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved
Nov 2012 · 4.0k
Fireplace
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
I can't help but wonder
how I have come to this place.
Held together by the past.
Rallied for the future
Accepting this present
It is a wonderful gift, I must say
Yet, I can't help but wonder
how I came to this place.
Did I come here to be safe?
Did I come here to be known?
Will I stay here?
Will I venture into the unknown?
No matter where my mind goes, I will always wonder
how I came to this place.
© November 11th by  Timothy R Brown.  All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 292
In here
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
In here the record scratches.
Anxiety is difficult to cope with.
© November 9th 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.
Nov 2012 · 3.8k
Trains & Sirens
Timothy Brown Nov 2012
Life does not walk these streets.
It rolls by in tin foil fleets.
Love does not fill the air.
It gazes from windows with forlorn stares
Liberty is merely bought.
Dollar bills and silver change give amount to the thought.
Dreams are what happens when you sleep.
A lie.
There are lessons to learn and rules to abide.
I
will not adhere to the word of the day.
My path deserves to be walked,
my dreams are not fall
acy.
My love is louder than the trains and sirens that permeate this city.
I will show liberty to all who seek.
Life is beautiful.
Even if the earth is bleak.
In Stockton,CA two sounds you can always count on in the day are the trains and the emergency vehicle sirens © November 9th, 2012 by Timothy R Brown. All rights reserved.

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