If you talk to me for 5 minutes you can see I am a genius or an idiot
5 more to see if I'm an *** or considerate
Another 5 to double check number 1
5 more and you're having too much fun
5 turns to 10 oh where has the time gone
you found in me your time was well spent
All I wanted was this and nothing more
Could you spare another 5 minutes or...

Time is fast forwarding and I don't think I can keep up. My soul is darkening just like the bags under my eyes. I'm exhausted in every way possible. I'm a traveler stagnant and stuck bouncing from person to person to reach my destination. They all tell me that they can't help me unless I can help myself. Till I met you...  hopeful speck, brighten up. It seems like you're my partner on this journey, a soul fused to mine. "A best friend is just part of yourself in another body."  Everyday we talk about new destinations when I can only think of my own. Why would a god do this to a lonely traveler? Why would a God open up new routes when I was so close to the end..so I abandoned you..to continue my own journey..It grew dark again. I lost the moon while staring at the the stars. The light at the end of the tunnel seems to be a hopeful speck in the distance I may never reach, but I keep walking.

Voices full of choices but no way make
Chances we are given but do not take
Minds full of judgement and regret
Especially when the outcome is the opposite of what you expect
Irony is elusive, but not unreal
Sometimes it's better to expect than to just deal
With something you had some power over to stop
But now when it's too late all we want to do is talk
About what could have been instead of what will be
I'm an optimist that's the difference between you and me
No matter the outcome for better or worse
I will not allow my path to change its direction
The same goes for the mirror that portrays my reflection

Days go on and I just drone out
Zone out thinking what am I going to do about
This life I'm leading and this air I'm breathing
Which is better? Which is worse?
sometimes I feel cursed
To let history repeat itself until I end up in a hearse
Sometime you're not going to be able to blame someone else until all that's left is your own doing
Ask yourself when did you stop pursuing?
Those wild dreams and adventures you talked so vividly about?
You only fail, when you quit!
Success is inevitable so let me tell you quick
Take both hands and get a grip
Because it's your life to live and you're stuck with it

Worrying about the future, worry about the now.
Always wondering when but never how
Problems that haven't happened yet
All these "what ifs" and "oh I bets"
Past dues last tues for accumulated debts
The life of an adult isn't always glamor
It's just a take on how you use the hammer
To build your future piece by piece
Until you mind is at peace at least
You're able to eat
Don't think of the bad friend think of the good
Not the "can I?" But the "I could"
So take it easy, take a pill because in the future I know "I will"

There is nothing I can say that hasn't been said
Just a different way of making you see the bigger picture in your head
The imagery is more vibrant and memorable
Something held closer to your heart to spark the love you still hold inside
For those who have maid you wheep and cry
whether it was girls or a guys
The realest feelings are the ones coming from your eyes  
In disguise
Covered by a smile to no ones surprise

Our generation keeps saying live free or die young
before their living has even begun
It's hard to understand if I'm doing either at the moment
Seems like every moment I seize tends to freeze now I own it
My life's like muhammad ali with no feet
Just floating like a butterfly and stinging like a bee when I speak
Consider what you just heard to be an intro
To me coming as a poet with new flow