So much now that could have helped myself but now I choose to help others
Only those with experience know the struggle of late knowledge
To many now would be better then and then would be better now
If you could send words of wisdom to you past self what would you sound?
You could solve a thousand problems with one simple solution
I've  lived, I've learned, I've lost, and still have so much to gain

A sleepless night turned to nights nocturnal
Eyes wide shut, confronting fears of the dark every second
Embracing light for security, it dwindles to nothing, a goodnight light
Taking steps with uncertainty, a blind man's game
I called his bluff, he took two steps forward and I back one
So sure of what cannot be seen will not hurt; confidence?
I have seen it all along, I was just seeing it again in a new *light

I couldn't wipe  the stain of her kiss from my lips
My breath was stolen with each embrace
Each mistake I felt no remorse
I only felt closer to wear I belonged
I shut doors behind me, I can never go back
I'm no longer in control, I've lost the keys
But the key was to keep you away from me
There always was a reason why we were never meant to be left alone
Each and every night I'm looking for a new home

I've made it but there is nothing left
To claim or to see
What once was a reward is dead to me
All this effort, all this pain?
Will victory ever feel as good as fame?
When do I shoot for the stars? Do I even take aim?
What once was my claim to fame is yet again another game...

Constantly getting back at each other but never giving
Some call it love but I call it selfish
We hold out our hands not to help but to receive it
How can we borrow so much and never return it?
Secondary actions never concerned with
How can we ask even when it's so empty?

In this cup was victory
A hard days work
A penny earned
Blanket of security
Camp fire type effect
Ready to rough it
Kick back an enjoy the sounds of nature

I've shook hands with those hell bound
I say cya later. I know I will
Hands on fire soul as black as night
The fire inside me burning like my new home
I been through hell and back when the heat is on
I fire back, where the good ones at?
This worlds come to a fiery end I tell them that