everything in my chest,
it's a million things not another mind could comprehend.
The illness was never physical.
I just became a captive to a common weakness.
Though I am never ashamed to scream it through words.
If only sharing emotion was more human.
But such a species is not strong, nor brave.
An open heart would not be acceptable.
Mine is always unlocked and set to enter.
and alas, if you were most daring enough,
to have a care for what lies in my chest,
You would be greeted by many a feeling.
For darkness tends to linger;
or at least until time fades memories.
And smiles can be saved in mental photographs.
Or maybe you'll come across a sword of anger,
stuck in the deepest stone of this beating *****.
twisted around me, is every emotion.
and when my heart takes the wheel,
It is fear that drives.
A soul that's once been broken takes longer to travel through the obstacles.
But it's mended.
once again it's taken.
I am loving deeper than ever.
The ache my head would feel if the end ever comes,
I push the thought from my mind.
My chest is ever so confusing.
Maybe it's best if you humans didn't enter.
For you're all so good at degrading.
or maybe you're just not smart enough to comprehend.
after all, I am not human, but something more.

The last place I want to be stuck;
Here in my head.
It's my own asylum.
I'm insane, but who said pyscho isn't normal?
I guess I'll never know.
The only friends I've made here,
In my little ward.
Fear himself was first to shake my hand.
Then came emptiness, loneliness not far off.
The closest one, the deepest demon,
the one and only darkness.
The sun wont shine behind my eyes.
Hurt and pain;
they steal the light
But who needs warmth to breathe?
Breathing isn't living.
My lips don't know who smile is.
They're only friends with frown.
My heart broke up with trust.
and left me scared of breaking.
Love knows my deepest mind.
Standing side by side with passion
what might I do with them?
The night is always my enemy.
At times it makes it so hard to see.
My vision clouds with uncertainty
I don't know the way to freedom
Ill just be stuck here in my head.

Pulling me by my feelings.
I'm just the writer.
Not the music player.
He's somewhere hiding in my heart.
And when I'm sleeping;
He awakens;
weeping.

In the willows, voices stray.
Dreams are when I hear them.
Speaking disasters in vibrant cadences.
Making time with tipping wine glasses.
Darkness, Depth, Where the flames from candles burn away.
Imagination is my castle upon a hill.
Though quickly walls can crumble down.
And I am left to walk with only stolen souls.
drowning slowly in their soul taker's last words;
Life is not kind to those with the brightest glow

I feel the fabric leave my skin,
and my mind is part of yours again.
Kissed upon my waiting lips,
bliss beneath my finger tips.

bittersweetly wrapped inside your soul
two hands together make one whole.
This urge is one too strong to fight,
The strings of our hearts, bound so tight.

Your eyes are magnets to my lashes,
a hidden feeling, so restlessly thrashes.
Wanting to stay in a moment so small,
We tried our best not to let ourselves fall.

You held me there for a second more,
and soon sleep took us through its door.
morning came to take me away,
I am harshly forbidden to stay...

Its a busting ***** that you cant see. The heart doesn't feel literally what the mind creates. But in this chest is something true and it can never be expressed. Stay in hiding worthless thoughts. Only meant to be felt in lonesome.
I will always wear my poker eyes.
Clever disguise, fairly transparent.
It would be best to hide my words somewhere in the waves.
The ocean never speaks my secrets.
She keeps them dear, she keeps them clear.
If i run away to forget it all. Return when life chooses to end me.
For it all will never matter then.
You will never know.
Oh red ***** about to bust,
I will throw this out before you rust.
Mind, be done creating. Because i wont feel it anyway.

I feel this ache, trying desperately to decay my hope, My happiness.
Uncertainty sparkles up at me from my finger.
Is your face supposed to be here
I know that mine does not cross your thoughts.
the winter likes to hold me close.
I get lost, I forget myself, for I second I'm just another no one.
But you're still a lovely someone.
Bouncing off of my sparkling uncertainty.
You could never fit into this awkward puzzle.
The pieces never seem to fit together.
Maybe they never will.
Tears are just another close friend.
But smiles are closer, along with laughter.
I'll just continue to sleep, to live in my colorful dreams.
When I see your face, I'll just remember,
puzzle pieces don't fit together.
If they did, what fun would life be?
I'll keep the jigsaws exclusive to my dreams.

Curious mind, I see my path in the reflection of the metal.
Arms wrapped around cylinder wood, a tree; I am free.
Cinnamon spice laced with the wind.
Imprinting with my nose.
The direction I should go?
Traipsing through wavering fields.
I See into the eyes of every blade of grass.
Beckoning to me, speaking to me.
twigs as fingers wrapped in mine,
and it feels so meant to be.
This is nature, and I shall stay here.

The waves were crashing; you were there.
Soaking feet, misted hair, a powerful dream.
No butterflies, they were switched out with eagles;
And we danced in the raging sea.
Grains of sand captured in the whirling wind.
Landing on our cheeks.
For a second or two I am almost weakened.
When your smile matches with the sun.
Our hearts will always beat as two,
But this beauty makes us one.

A breath of air should be more refreshing, less asphyxiating, a corridor tightening.
A chamber of secrets. Hopes, and truths untold.
My eyes would tell it best, if you could read the code.
It's all bubbling in my throat.
I'll keep these trembling lips closed.
Elusive to my dreams, exclusive to an untold tale,
It may be my sanity that holds my insanity close.
And i wont explode, if these pins keep my heart in tact.

Dear universe,
I wonder what you've got for me.
What words speak thy raging sea?
Setting soundly in my wake,
Listening to clouds as they break...
Water crystals caress the pane.
Open windows keep me sane.
Blades of grass befriend my shoe,
Embraced by sunlit skies of blue.
Branches, like arms, dancing wind.
Held by seasons, you never end.
Your voices tender in my ear,
I hear the message, spoken clear

A smile concealing a wound,
Bitten by an abstract hope's inevitable truth.
Chest full of a heart so good,
Mind waves, like tsunamis; a battle against a bleeding vessel.
And lifeless is a living soul, when trapped inside such belittling hell.
And I am no escape artist.

Fish net eyes see stars of green.
Minds of insanity survive on indescribable words.
remembering sweetly under this mother tree,
every memory that once embraced me.
Familiar blades of never changing grass.
Enchanting scent of evenings adieu.
Night brings in it's shallow dreams.
you wish for some kind of sanity,
It's not going to happen.
An artists mind is always and forever crooked.

Your eyes look towards mine,
but you're seeing past me.
My heart was yours when there were no clouds.
The sun shining down,
Why didn't I see through the rays?
Instead I only saw your face.
This darkness takes its shape.
Why does it look so much like you?
You belong to the night, and all of it's evil.
Taking over my days, and my brightness.
I can't see the sun, because your name is eclipse.
I am worthless to you; to the twilight.
Someday, I'll say adieu.

Towel falling to the floor, soaked in things we couldn't cure.
and the brightest room is dark around me,
I'm still stuck here, where you used to find me.
But my lining fades from silver to blue,
and these rain clouds never break on cue.
Love is broken in the middle,
Our hearts went naked into the puddle...
And into the deep, to quickly drown,
and to this dark, I am forever bound.
time can slow, but still it's changed,
And all remains, a towel stained...

Gas to my brain, your faces image,
an embrace I've been longing for,
eyes glued to my door,
where You will never walk through,
Im familiar with a dream of you.

Your hands caress my memories,
Your lips supress my deepest hope,
and with this distance, I must cope.
your voice paints my cheeks so red,
But this love is only in my head.

My ears are friends with forget.
You whisper your love from so far away,
because we know it's wrong to stay,
Waiting is our current game,
And on my tongue, is your beautiful name.

On a night of fate,
a celestial being manifested,
a set of golden optics,
Shared a moment with a set of blue.

Shaking metacarpus,
soft against an elated visage.
two minds, two bodies.
two souls, two mates.

Breaths of desperation,
words wrapped around a vascular piece,
Forcing them to stay,
not to say. No; never to say.

the stars are crossed,
a with held fate,
Forbidden to love,
a censored verse, a poet corraled.

Began a word of truth,
Hold it dear to our souls,
and letting go will never be,
on a night of fate.