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Nov 2014 · 450
I'm All I've Got
Tiberius Thomas Nov 2014
Waiting for the one I'll love
having faith in those above
lonely days, empty nights
why bother putting up a fight

Abandoned in a crowded room
eyes wrinkled with gloom
attention given but not received
smiles shown but not believed

Alone among friends and peers
body in flow, full of drear
careless with lonesome desire
warmth of love I cant acquire

why bother putting up a fight
lonely days, empty nights
having faith in those above
waiting for the one I'll love
Jul 2014 · 1.9k
mood swings
Tiberius Thomas Jul 2014
eyes wide open
limbs hot to cold
blood slowing
unbreakable focus
tears flowing
consciousness lost
panic ensues
fighting for control
pulse increases
mind self aware
reality in grasp
Tiberius Thomas Jun 2014
sitting in pity and self loathing
pondering what i am proposing
anguish increasingly near
questioning what was clear

things that used to make me smile
dancing in my brain, staying awhile
tears about to burst i give in
back to the past with a grin

young in love, cuddling my girl
"ill never leave you" we concur
skin tingles i feel her touch
nothing but warmth in my clutch

satisfied my brain evens keel
enough to allow me to deal
alone again cursing cupid
how could i have been so stupid?
Apr 2014 · 436
happiness that kills you
Tiberius Thomas Apr 2014
your attention, so euphoric
i want to run and hide
moments of pure happiness
i squeeze my head under a pillow
a smile that melts my being
eyes closed my anxiety vibrates
she walks away and the world glows
pain so happy as it comes and goes
Apr 2014 · 1.0k
Time Traveling Opiate
Tiberius Thomas Apr 2014
a body laid flat over an unmade bed
nothing budges but whats in his head
muscles relaxed he stares at the ceiling
the only thing alive is his being

the sun crosses through the sky
suddenly coming down from a high
euphoria exits leaving holes
memories and yearning for past souls

the end of a journey his eyelids close
rushed back to the world he knows
reality of what wasn't meant to be
chained to the past he'll never come free
Tiberius Thomas Feb 2014
engulf me in a haze of black
veins turn hard, vision blurs
world so distant and forgotten
childhood i yearn to go back

no more than seconds time
mind alters with desolation
alone with no relation
dead, buried and back alive

reality swarms in a gasp
eyes soaking in light
fighting the evil within
sanity back in clasp
Feb 2014 · 560
time stands still
Tiberius Thomas Feb 2014
eyes gaze, a hypnotic stare
transient energy i'm unaware
ocean blue spheres engulf my brain
without a word she drives me insane

shoulders brushed by red hair
smile gleeful without care
walking closer, feeling numb
breathing deep squeezing my thumb

my body turns to butter
"hello", a word i cant utter
greeting each other with a nod
an encounter already flawed

her boyfriend comes by
greeting us both with a "hi"
a mutual friend and great man
happiness over before it began

painful reality rips my heart
love like this isnt smart
walking away in disgust
dreams shattered and crushed
Jan 2014 · 1.2k
Insomnia
Tiberius Thomas Jan 2014
Body still, thoughts wander
Many things left to ponder
Early morning coffee pours
Sleepless nights i do abhor

Day goes by in a trance
Stimulants cant enhance
Space consumed with no soul
Passage of time beyond control

Communication with a nod
No existence just facade
Zombies walking, slowly passed
Hallucinations will outlast

Sleep is distant and crude
Mind and body in a feud
Neither living nor dead
Just a mind full of dread
Jan 2014 · 1.0k
blissful confusion
Tiberius Thomas Jan 2014
walking down a street
pitch black, not a soul lurks
houses quiet and unassuming
feet pound to a beat

dizzy, i stumble
mind wanders aimlessly
raindrops graze my face
in distress, i tumble

where could i be
such a lovely place
peace transient but unwavering
a light i begin to see

blocks go by
puddles pool deep
time stands still
my body rises high

fingers tingle with bliss
home stares me down
truth within a myth
reality never as good as this

lost but cant lament
i am finally here
journey long and painful
confused but content
May 2013 · 613
the world in my eyes
Tiberius Thomas May 2013
the world hits like a train
obliteration and pain
an unstoppable force
no alternative course

the world has no care
emotionless and unfair
eyes only to ****
apathetic of gods will

the world tells jokes
they're mostly a hoax
raising hopes high
hanging you in the sky

the world is sympathetic
in a fools aesthetic
it allows you to live
with nothing left to give
Feb 2013 · 620
Hanging for Humanity
Tiberius Thomas Feb 2013
from these lofty heights i hang
cawing crows, a bell tower clangs
neighbors crowd, eyes still dry
sunrise, I hold my head high

confusion spreading, there is a panic
a quiet town turning manic
searching for answers or a cause
some good news? there is a pause

a man named frank had found a clue
something small but something new
a small box covered in verses
perhaps from the bible, maybe curses

frank opened the small box with care
his skin froze, lungs gasping for air
time was still, frank couldn't move
a voice cried out with something to prove

the world is beautiful i yelled
hatred and loathing should be expelled
love those that you hold dearest
or the pain you feel will be severest

learn from what i cannot change
right actions seem somewhat strange
i judged and mocked, crippled and pummeled
in the end only i was disgruntled

find happiness in what you live for
forget the things you wish to abhor
in a whirlwind of emotion the voice fades
franks skin returns to its shade

here i hang, a symbol of hope
for all those who sit and mope
head still high i feel the breeze
finally at peace i sleep with ease
Jan 2013 · 715
losing it
Tiberius Thomas Jan 2013
i want to scream
a chimney pouring steam
anger boils over my veins
stings and stabs a liar couldn't feign
breathing heavily thoughts too thick
mind making accusations that don't stick
frustration building i try to let go
stagnant in malice my anger wont flow
here i sit on my throne of vexation
forced to live through internal damnation
Dec 2012 · 750
Polar Hearts
Tiberius Thomas Dec 2012
we can have everything or nothing
something blissful or something crushing
opportunities lost to remain loyal
celebrated like a hero i remain joyful

now all is lost and there's no one to call
i was so high never thought id fall
looking for someone to save me
a heart locked tight, you hold the key

why cant i find you, im in despair
im cold and bothered by this affair
something so easy to fix
im blind to what my life depicts
Dec 2012 · 617
Stuck in my head
Tiberius Thomas Dec 2012
i'm searching for answers
ill willed thoughts spread like cancer
overflowing with negative emotion
my minds on you with devotion

people come and go in my heart
all i do is fear they'll rip it apart
nothing about life is the same
i am pretend, existing with no aim

making promises to myself i cant keep
i've been swimming in a pool too deep
how much longer can i tread water
i cant swim, i'm not an otter

months go by like i'm asleep
overlooking benefits i could reap
i cannot escape this prison
maybe the chance hasn't arisen
Oct 2012 · 671
One Day
Tiberius Thomas Oct 2012
one day
i'll forget who you were
accept who you are
and i'll be **free
Sep 2012 · 1.2k
Time heals nothing
Tiberius Thomas Sep 2012
they said time heals emotions
but i don't get that notion
time passes by, im in a rut
stagnant pain, an unhealing cut

wait a bit longer they say
you'll for sure be ok
a doubtful smile
i'm in denial

future looking dimmer
letting my body simmer
drowning, a pool of shame
thoughts i cannot change

embarrassed and alone
my struggles now well known
time has passed
only depression has amassed

lost in rehabilitation
happiness, my deprivation
how do i rise above
when shame fits like a glove
Aug 2012 · 515
I'm gone
Tiberius Thomas Aug 2012
Where did I go?
You'll never know
I couldn't hold on
Didn't make it to dawn
Frowns replaced smiles
Anger stretching for miles
No surprise I'm bitter
Malice giving you jitters
I have vanished
You're souls been banished
From my heart
Jul 2012 · 693
What World
Tiberius Thomas Jul 2012
There’s something wrong with the world today
An abounding amount of social decay
Gone are the times of moral and manner
Enter an era of lust and clamor
I refuse to conform to this madness
I will not be overcome by your indefinite sadness
I soak in happiness through a puff of smoke
Because the world's too ****** not to roll and ****
Jul 2012 · 1.2k
Do you know the real me?
Tiberius Thomas Jul 2012
A person you see and hear
Personality exceeding fear
Who is this person you see?
I'm sorry to say it isn't me

To see me is to see obscurity
A steadfast mind full of purity
No interest in the future or present
I could be rich or I could be a peasant

What I want from life i cannot buy
I could be normal but I'd rather not try
You say you know the real me
But your words come out uncertainly
Jul 2012 · 1.0k
Attachment to the Old
Tiberius Thomas Jul 2012
A shadow of what I used to be
I live my life uncertainly
Alone in dense depression
Weight of loss in my possession
What was told to be mine forever
Gone faster than wind and a feather

Through my times of trouble
Memories surround me, in a bubble
My skin warms feeling your touch
Smiling as if I saw you blush
Your faint voice filled with love
Like a message from above

Breaking down, weak like a pawn
As soon as it came the feelings gone
Life lost in the flow of time
Theft of love, a horrid crime
My well being muddied and brown
Thoughts of you, bringing me down

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