Waiting for the one I'll love
having faith in those above
lonely days, empty nights
why bother putting up a fight

Abandoned in a crowded room
eyes wrinkled with gloom
attention given but not received
smiles shown but not believed

Alone among friends and peers
body in flow, full of drear
careless with lonesome desire
warmth of love I cant acquire

why bother putting up a fight
lonely days, empty nights
having faith in those above
waiting for the one I'll love

eyes wide open
limbs hot to cold
blood slowing
unbreakable focus
tears flowing
consciousness lost
panic ensues
fighting for control
pulse increases
mind self aware
reality in grasp

sitting in pity and self loathing
pondering what i am proposing
anguish increasingly near
questioning what was clear

things that used to make me smile
dancing in my brain, staying awhile
tears about to burst i give in
back to the past with a grin

young in love, cuddling my girl
"ill never leave you" we concur
skin tingles i feel her touch
nothing but warmth in my clutch

satisfied my brain evens keel
enough to allow me to deal
alone again cursing cupid
how could i have been so stupid?

your attention, so euphoric
i want to run and hide
moments of pure happiness
i squeeze my head under a pillow
a smile that melts my being
eyes closed my anxiety vibrates
she walks away and the world glows
pain so happy as it comes and goes

a body laid flat over an unmade bed
nothing budges but whats in his head
muscles relaxed he stares at the ceiling
the only thing alive is his being

the sun crosses through the sky
suddenly coming down from a high
euphoria exits leaving holes
memories and yearning for past souls

the end of a journey his eyelids close
rushed back to the world he knows
reality of what wasn't meant to be
chained to the past he'll never come free

engulf me in a haze of black
veins turn hard, vision blurs
world so distant and forgotten
childhood i yearn to go back

no more than seconds time
mind alters with desolation
alone with no relation
dead, buried and back alive

reality swarms in a gasp
eyes soaking in light
fighting the evil within
sanity back in clasp

eyes gaze, a hypnotic stare
transient energy i'm unaware
ocean blue spheres engulf my brain
without a word she drives me insane

shoulders brushed by red hair
smile gleeful without care
walking closer, feeling numb
breathing deep squeezing my thumb

my body turns to butter
"hello", a word i cant utter
greeting each other with a nod
an encounter already flawed

her boyfriend comes by
greeting us both with a "hi"
a mutual friend and great man
happiness over before it began

painful reality rips my heart
love like this isnt smart
walking away in disgust
dreams shattered and crushed