Life is hard.
I don't know why more people don't admit it.
The hardest about life is the fact that it is, in essence, life.
But there are those who can't take it.
And we call this the coward's way out.
But why?
At multiple times in my life I have been suicidal.
But I'm here.
Why?
Because I'm a coward.
How the **** is gathering up the courage to end your life
When death is one of the scariest things we face
Possibly the coward's way out?
People say I had the strength to live
But I didn't have the strength to die.
If we're being perfectly honest,
People call me brave for not killing myself.
The only reason I didn't,
Is because living is the coward's way out.

We dreamed of stars adrift in galaxies hundreds of lightyears away
We gazed at the infinite heavens, thanking it for every day.
We forgave each others' sins, We embraced each others' selves,
We dreamed of a world as kind to us as we were to ourselves.
We dreamed of distant systems full of new and different things
We gazed straight into heaven, ignoring all it brings.
We forgave each others' sins, but with disdain for each others' selves,
We dreamed of a world as far away as we were from ourselves.
We dreamed of a paradise, and yet, we left the one we made.
We gazed into the heavens, wishing things were still the same.
We forgave each others' sins, but there was one thing we could not
We could not forgive ourselves for what we did to what we bought.
We dreamed of once again feeling good and feeling whole,
We gazed into the heavens, wishing they contained our souls.
We forgave ourselves for everything,
Because we knew that time would bring
Our souls back home, where they belonged.
In a distant tune, a distant song.
One we had written in a time long gone.
One you and I would sing along,
Healing pain we thought would be lifelong...
We dreamed of each other, all along.

For seven billion years,
I waited for someone like you
For seven billion years,
My heart began to die
For seven billion years,
I told myself "Soon."
For seven billion years,
I never allowed myself to cry
But the countless years are over,
And I let loose billions of tears.
And I will never forget you, at least not
For seven billion years.