You were my everything
now i'm your nothing
you loved me once
you never will again
not only were you my lover
you were my best friend
whether or not
you're in the arms of another
it doesn't matter
i'll never hold you in mine
i'll never forget our days together
not until the end of time
because that's when you said
that you would stop loving me
now i have to live in this reality
a hell you said would never be

I talked to you every day
for one year and two months and three weeks and four days
funny how that works out to be one two three four
but hey we were a phenomenon full of coincidences
and exceptions
but everything particular must decay
and when we finally broke apart
and you decided to leave
the blast lasted 6 seconds
and sounded at the frequencies:
61.74Hz for 1s
82.41Hz for 1s
65.41Hz for 2s
55.00Hz for 1s
and though these frequencies are low enough to bury me underground
the amplitude at which my heart broke
allowed your name to be heard the whole world round
funny how the first time I was able to emote
in so long
was when my heart broke
and you were gone

You told me you loved me so much
no matter what you felt or where you were
you told me you would be my lovepug
my birdie, my lemur
and now seem to have no hesitation to leave

I still can't find the pieces of my heart you broke last week
I let you hold it as yours for so long and now it's missing
do you maybe still have a few pieces?
I can't seem to find it
would you wanna meet for coffee to trade pieces
and maybe make some peace and
maybe share some memories?
or do you think it's too soon to meet

Your face is displayed on the walls of my mind
clear and plain as day
and sacred as our bodies intertwined in the winter night
the only challenge of my life
is I wish there was a way to express this
this feeling of joy
this feeling of explicit and exclusive bliss
that spreads up throughout my body
like the mist which rolled through the field
that one chilly night in fall
where we finally said what we'd felt all along

I get that I'm a **** up
I get that I'll never be good enough
I get that no matter how hard I try
you'll always be there to criticize

My feet planted to the ground
but my consciousness in the sky
my senses are on fire, so are my eyes
I want to tell you something
tell the world something but I can't spit it out
I hope I never come down
the ceiling is singing, my ears are ringing
and I hope I never exist
I hope there's nothing I miss
an elevated shoulder of bliss
which will not deny me the right
to slowly die