In the blink of an eye, all was lost
I've burned every bridge I've come across
Dancing in the flames stand those I'm forced to forget
Their once loving faces fade further into silhouette
Chest pains on par with cardiac arrest
Reminiscing of a time I was once at my best
Only wishing my shoulders would not succumb
To the weight of the world of the man I've become
But the values which make a man have long ago frayed
Empathy and understanding and caring decayed
It rings true that "The past should stay dead"
Well how many bullets are needed to get it out of my head?
How many more tears will need to be shed?
How many words that can't be unsaid?
Left alone with only my thoughts to dwell,
I suppose this is the definition of a living hell

Just when I thought the pain had gone
I get a text and it's about my ex
The girl My Heart's not over yet
The one I swore I'd never forget
Just months after our years, she goes and gets pregnant
And I knew it'd only happen to me

I hope you found your 'perfect love'
I hope you found your 'perfect love'

Ha! Oh God! The irony!
I hope it was all in spite of me!
For all the times you've ******* about your chastity
For every lie you told
to keep that ring on your finger reading "purity"
For every minute you held my hand and whispered three false words
This irony is ******* and you can save it for the birds

I knew we'd never work it all out
but that's not what this is all about
After all the memories made in adoration and devotion
Of course I will lash out with such emotion
Try to tell me I'm wrong for feeling such a way
I'd confront you now but I don't care what you have to say

Ha! Oh God! The irony!
I hope it was all in spite of me!
For all the times you've ******* about your chastity
For every lie you told
to keep that ring on your finger reading "purity"
For every minute you held my hand and whispered three false words
This irony is ******* and you can save it for the birds

And I could only laugh and cry at the irony
and remember all the times I've felt your body
But now I see, I see with such clarity
You and I could never be more than a hilarity
Oh the compromises and contradictons you've made! Deep down I had wished you stayed!
But that was long ago and now this love has decayed!

Ha! Oh God! The irony!
I hope it was all in spite of me!
For all the times you've ******* about your chastity
For every lie you told
to keep that ring on your finger reading "purity"
For every minute you held my hand and whispered three false words
This irony is ******* and you can save it for the birds

Oh how ironic, I could laugh.
What's done is done
It's in the past

So this is love to you?
How can that be true so soon?
This lust is a cruel thing baby
And you're mistaking it for love little lady.
You don't know about commitment
It's a lot harder than it looks isn't it?
I swear this isn't what it looks like darling
Its not just something you can say
Don't go opening your mouth with no intent to stay
One day you'll know how it feels to bleed
Bleed for the only person you felt you'd need
No such thing that's worth it
No such thing as perfect
We've had so many firsts
Lately, too many lasts
My heart now hurts
From dwelling on the past
Whatever you do, don't forget me
My love for you was always true
Maybe one day you'll stop and see
Nobody will know you like I do.
You've slipped my mind a thousand times
But you still linger in my head
I can't imagine your pretty face without wishing I were dead
For a bitter year I've been asleep
Dreaming of reasons
to quit rolling in the deep
What we've had and what we've lost
The past should stay gone
But when I see your smile....
Where did I go wrong?
Did it satisfy you?
Giving in to lust?
Opening up like it's nothing?
Breaking my trust?
Did you know what you were doing?
You should've killed me when you had the chance
Slit my throat while in your trance
This bottle is getting lighter in my hand
And the carpet underneath is being torn out from under me
It's always 1 step forward 2 steps back
Can you promise me I'm on the right track?
It should make you cringe, the sight of my demise
But don't sympathize for me, I'm right where you want me to be
With a gun in my hand, I'm down on my knees
I squeeze real tight and pray I'll be alright

I've kept your head above water from atop my shoulders
Never once bothered to look down to see if I'd drowned
I couldn't breathe around you anyway
For the air in my lungs was lost the day that you were found

I walk amongst the living
Without fear of the dead
Feeding the hate of the unforgiving
Who whisper sweet nothings inside my head
Souls of the loving made peace with themselves
And the evils are thrashing sending items off the shelves
Demons and spectres so wrought with malice
Snarling with anger for their energy's unbalanced
Bringing mayhem and grief to a space once called home
Each step taken, is not taken alone

Should there ever be a rhyme
That could bend the fabric of time,
I'd recite it to you
So I could remind you that nothing's changed for me
This love is true
And oh, quite bold
This love is new
But somehow so cold
It pains me to know
Your heart beats slow
And your imagination runs wildly
This pen could write forever
Yet, it will never bring you back
Is it out of line to say what I'm thinking?
Indeed, I'm childish by nature
However, wise beyond my years
No amount of wisdom helped fight back the tears
From you I could never sever
I know what it means to be forever
All that's heard is never
The sun's dropped and my heart's stopped
To you my love is endowed
For me, you are too proud
The words I used to whisper in your ear
Will never be spoken aloud to anyone else my dear
Drink up the courage to find another
I dare you
Remember alcohol tastes better with regret

The revelation of my ways lead me back
But that wall, it never crumbles
If we forget and forgive how long
Till we relive all our fouls and fumbles?

Carry me back to that time at the water
And your skin never looked so good
Your lack of persistence I never understood
And where are you now?
Where are you now that I'm gone?
Do you feel wronged
Or regret that I had to write you this song?

It was never gonna work
You told me last
Did you even bother to look through our past?
Who called it bad?
The only thing you told those faces is why you're so sad
But why not me? I was always open to suggestions
My bones could break from the weight I carried for you
And you can't turn away and act like it's not true
Stop this front, it's getting old
You always do what your music told
Wanna hear some romantic ****?
Take a seat and let us handle it
Us, not the voices in your ears
The ones who don't know the good in our years

Carry me back to that time at the water
And your skin never looked so good
Your lack of persistence I never understood
And where are you now?
Where are you now that I'm gone?
Do you feel wronged
Or regret that I had to write you this song?

I'm not sounding desperate
In saying we need to fix this
I know it, you know it,
Always swing and a miss
How hard can it be for you to forget everything that I miss.....

If I tell you I love you, believe me.
If I tell you I need you, don't leave me.
If I say that I want you, don't tease me.
But don't abandon your morals to please me.
When I say to trust me, do it.
My love will help you through it.
But you won't allow me the space to prove it.
You need to be wiser
Stop treating me like some womanizer
You're not the only one upset
I have feelings too don't forget

Nothing's scarier than knowing the heart is just a muscle
That true love doens't exist in the body
And it was foolish to give you the essence of my being and to
Expect you to pay me back with anything less than your own heart
This is where trust gets me?
I've never felt more solitary in my life
Why spill my guts if you're just gonna eat em?
Enjoy the fact you're an animal
A cannibal
A mother-******* monster
Tear me to shreds
I dare you
You've got what it takes
I never thought you'd do it
**** me now and get it over with
Play me like a game
Ditch me like a body
You'll be the one to blame
You're the one being naughty
Run and tell them all what you did
Confess, repent, repeat
It won't bring back to life that twisted, maliced, stone heart

These sails are torn to rags
The churning waves toss me
Water's in my eyes and my feet long for solid ground
Seems this storm will never cease
And I'm about as lost at sea as one can be
Poseidon wants me dead, or so it appears
**** sirens won't stop screaming in my ears
All I'm sure of is who I am and where I want to be
Home
A place for my body to rest
Where my heart will no longer strain
Home
My head can dream peacefully
But for now this nightmare of a tempest rages around me
What use is a bag of winds
When a gale is already whipping at my face?
Just how long can a single man be at war with the sea?
Where are the men who started this journey with me?
Who will come help me now?
Why am I blessed with such misfortune?
When will my odyssey end?
Or rather, when will it begin?

Take all that you are and show it to me
For your heart is something I'd love to see
Now allow me your hand and I'll hold it forever
And feed me your brain for it is quite clever
You are what I want and I want it all
So lend me an ear whenever I might call
Your voice is music, which I love to hear
Share with me your thoughts to make mine clear
I'll steal your eyes, more valuable than jewels
To keep them away from the ordinary fool
Give me your love, and I'll give you mine
What we share is something divine
This world we live in needs to improve
But with you by my side, we will make mountains move

Maybe I'll live to be ninety five
Maybe I'll die next year
Maybe I don't know how to be alive
Maybe death isn't something to fear

Maybe I'll find the thing that gives my life meaning
Maybe I never will
Maybe one day I'll stop dreaming
Because all that I dreamt of is real
Maybe one day I'll be popular with the ladies
Maybe I'll be popular to one
Maybe I'll marry and have babies
Maybe one girl and maybe one son

Maybe I'll get wealthy and buy my mom a home
Maybe she won't have to worry about bills
Maybe someday I can send her to Rome
Maybe she'll finally be a housewife of Beverly Hills :p
Maybe she'll find love
The kind she **** well deserves
Maybe that guy will come from above
And father my siblings (who sometimes get on my nerves)
Maybe I'll build my dad an empire
Because my God he rules
He's been there for me when it came down to the wire
He always gives me the right tools
Maybe one day Cancer will just be a sign
And my Nana will win once and for all
For what she's fighting is far from benign
And for decades more she can enjoy my phone calls

Maybe I'll repay all that I owe
Because I know I finally can
Maybe I'll quit my job and go
Because I don't like being a pizza-man
Maybe I'll make money doing what I like
Helping people enjoy their life
Anything from teaching a kid to ride a bike
To someday ending the world's strife

Maybe these words mean nothing
And maybe IS just a word
But I'm making it big, not even bluffing
Maybe I'm just being absurd
Is it selfish for me to want for the sake of others?
(Maybe it is, hopefully it's not)
To take what I have and give it to another?
I don't believe this selfishness will make me rot

Maybe I doubt myself too much
Perhaps it's just a phase
I might not have the magic touch
But I'll try for the rest of my days

Maybe it'll all happen
Maybe it won't

Tell me, why is it that I'm all alone?
An outcast in this world that I live in?
Would anyone miss me if I were gone?
Friends aplenty, to theirs' I am hidden
Nothing am I but a tool for misuse
Whose kindness is borrowed without repay
Am I the problem? Or the “friends” I choose?
Nobody knows, not even I can say
But all is not well with my fake smile on
Don't worry about me, I'll be just fine
My true emotions flow from dusk till dawn
Each day I choose where to draw the thin line
The thin line that plenty of people cross
They get to be happy, but at my cost

Ignorant Creator. What is this life void of love?
It's not a life at all
Ignorant Master. Why do you detest me so?
The fruit of your unholy labors
Ignorant Father. Whose love do I deserve?
Surely I cannot obtain your own
Ignorant Human
You made me!
A beautiful abomination
A precious plague
Doomed to oblivion
Blessed with solitude
I live with no purpose but to die

Ignorance is bliss
Uncertainty is hope
The things I'll never miss
Are what I need to cope
Don't say the things I dread
I'd much rather not know
They'll forever be in my head
And the pain will never show
I've no walls
But rather a moat
Should you fall
Hope that you can float
The only way out
Is to never have gone in

Everyone has a dark side
But there's no shadow without light
With you, the shadows of my heart subside
I wish to once more hold you tight
To again witness the beauty of your eyes
Eyes I could lose myself in, if time allowed
Eyes so blue, they rival the open skies
When I catch your gaze I'm instantly wowed
When I'm with you, pure ecstasy surges through my veins
Unsure if I'm dead or alive, in heaven or just dreaming
For the tenderness of your touch alleviates my pains
Your touch that tickles so much I feel like screaming!
At last, when it's time to part our ways
I hold your hand for as long as possible
Because the euphoria will soon die and leave me in a haze
If only I could defeat time, the unbeatable obstacle
So that our joy will never have to cease
However, all good things must come to an end
I know I can't stay, I need to release
And pray for a chance that I might see you again

You know what you do, no need to fake it
It pains me so, my ****** heart can't take it
They say love is a two way street
But when I look at you our eyes never meet
I've gone out on a limb, and you left me hanging
Now the drum in my chest is no longer banging
Like the way it did just a few weeks back
I'm losing this battle, without your attack
There's more I could say but you won't listen
My eyes tell stories with the way they glisten
So the least you could do is look at me
Maybe then your wandering eyes will see
That the one you've always wanted will forever be gone
It's sad and it's true, but life will go on
Patience is a virtue, I'm tired of waiting
My emotions ran dry, no need for debating
Any longer, You've got your priorities set high
You said I was one of them, but that was a lie