tila mga ligaw na paru-parong
tinutunton ang halimuyak mo
matagal na palang lumipas
may iba nang namamalagi dito

malimit nang lumangoy sa dagat ng alaala
hindi na rin lumiliko sa maling kalsada
ngunit bakit tinatanong sa hangin kung nasaan ka?
madalas pa rin palang ikaw ang ninanais makita.

i don’t want to live in your world
anymore

i don’t want to fill in
the spaces

between your fingers
and your hands

knowing they used to hold
a different man

Ikaw ang mga tala

Hindi.

Ikaw ang bulalakaw

Hindi.

Hindi ako sigurado

Mahal, walang sigurado

Ikaw ba ang langit?

Ikaw ba ang kalangitan?

Kalawakan?

Ikaw ba ang buong kalawakan?

Kukubli ba sa hagkan **** maligamgam?

Ngingiti ba sa pagsambit ng iyong pangalan?

Mahal, ikaw.

Oo, ikaw.

Ikaw ang lahat.

At ang lahat ay ikaw.

Woke up in the middle of the night
Few more hours 'til the morning light
Legs are freezing it's just too cold
Blanket in my bed, I don't want to unfold

I wonder how pretty you are when you sleep
And how you snug at night pulling your sheets
Never knew someone this deserving to keep
You're my island of light, my lamp on the streets

Pink skies bring back summer nights
Should've given you a bloom that's fresh and white
The thought of you's a night and day fright
You make my eyes dilate, no need for penlights

The spaces between your fingers are called folds
I call them home
Whispered your name from a distance
I didn’t know you were alone

Hold out your hand for me to reach
Take me to you world of chaos and bliss
Pieces of the past turned into ashes
Look at me one last time, my beautiful mess

Tears stream down my face
Frightened it’s you I can’t embrace
Shared a love like the ocean and waves
It’s always there but it always fades.

Can I write you a love song
Or a poem that speaks love
When you can’t see your worth
Or when you’re under the sky alone

Can I fill your lungs with air that never expires
Or maybe tell you that your silence
Opens a portal to a vast ocean
Teeming with trinkets of you and I

Should’ve held your hand
And watched my heart fell
You are a feeling of a new home
Is it too soon to tell?

How are you my love?
How entropic is my life?
The world brings too much chaos
And nothing but utter confusions

How do you emit quick flashes of light
With your scintillating eyes?
How do you make this black and white world of mine
See colors when our fingers intertwine?

How cruel is the world
And the forces between planets
That we have fallen
And still drifted apart?

How I wish you came from a primordial ooze
Of what I can have and what I can’t lose
You stand between the line
Of being a priority and and a choice

No, it does not take a while
The softness of your voice
Was never a cloying sweetness
To my ears it was a morning boost.