Instead of staying
inside
my apartment all
day
I should've gone
outside
to the gym
so
I could work
out;

exercise is self
care.

There is one person
in my life,
I wish I could say
these words to:
"Anything in the world
you need
come to me,
and I'll make sure
that you not go
unheard,
but promise
you'll never let
me
spend another night
alone."

Sitting alone in the
bookshop
while the outside rain
falls
being the only customer
in
the store as the
sound
of downpour soothes me
while
reading a good book
amounts
to the perfect dreary
day.

You don't miss me yet,
That's OK,
You haven't thought of me since,
Well that's OK too,
Your name is written on my heart,
That's OK,
You won't read it now,
Well that's OK too,
You once held my hand,
That's OK,
You held it os-so tight,
Well that's OK too.

Your love is always, always, always,
Ok.

When I saw
her
icy bleach blond
hair
I fell for
Kaitlyn
right then and
there.

Standing in line
at McDonald's,
and I can't
relax.
I know this is
bad for me,
but I put in my order
anyway.
I swallow down my burger
with self-loathing,
it's delicious,
and disgusting.
I walked out
feeling the fat
dissolving into my
soul.

I didn't reject
Angie
because there was
anything
wrong with her
rather
I was afraid
to
fall in love
again.

I got back to my cabin
it was late,
but I put in my earbuds
listening to a song,
like magic, I heard this song
as if for the first time,
the melody and lyrics calming
my restless mind.
These moments
I can count on one hand
and I was glad to be
alive,
music has the power
unlike anything else
to bring healing to
the wounded.

There is nothing
that
I can do
about
my broken heart
but
sit and wait
for
this pain to
dissipate.

All these flower petals
may
have fallen for the
rest
of this winter, though
deep
within the buds will
be
ready to bloom come
spring,

you feel sad this
time
of the season but
reach
next, equinox, then you'll
be
prepared for happiness once
again.

I couldn't
perceive  
he was
joking
with me,
but
now I
understand
he's kidding
around
because we're
friends;

humor is
endearing.

I was sitting on the bus
minding my business
when she got on,
and I froze.

I thought to myself:
If I don't talk to her
I'm antisocial.
Then if I do she might
find out how weird
I am.

So I just sat back
and got off the bus.
Nobody is worth
this torture.

Following a daily
routine
is extremely comforting,
for
an autistic human
being
because it gives
us
the feeling of
reliability.

I call
him
my big
brother
though we
aren't
related by
blood.

Someday I want to die.
Not as a suicide, but
when I'm old and weak.
Letting the world slip
from my fingertips,
as I breathe a sigh of relief;
finally at peace.
That's what I call
the American dream.
A nice quiet death.

My Grandma said
that,
"Life is hard
enough
without beating ourselves
up."

I need someone
who
will tell me,
"It's
going to be
ok."
Even when it's
not.

Today we
drove
around town
as
one family
enjoying
the daylight
and
each other's
company;

we had
fun
in the
sun.

Sometimes no one
else
can help you
feel okay again
except for
yourself.

Periodically rest has
nothing
to do with
relaxation
sometimes it's an
act
of surrendering
to a situation
which you can
do so little
about.

This new
year
I resolve
to
poise myself
by
learning the
ancient
rituals of
shamans
to help
balance
my state
of
mind and
heart.

My life
feels
like a
dream
that I
can’t
wake up
from.

Why can't I come up with
the words?
Where have they gone?
I need to write them.
If I don't write
the words
then who will?
Is it my fault
I've come up
empty?

Has anyone ever apologized to you
and made it seem like it was your fault?
I hate when that happens.
Just as I feel things are ok,
suddenly it's my fault again.
I'm only human after all
and prone to errors.
Can I be forgiven
please?

Have I done well yet?
Has my work reached its peak?
Are my golden years behind me?
What will I do next?
These questions come every day.
The writer knows them well.
What's next?
That I never know.
I bang my fingers on a keyboard
until they create sweet art,
but it's never enough.
You're only as good as your next idea.
Whatever will I do?

I've got to break the
bad habit of eating each
time I'm feeling bored.

I thought when you
left
I'd surely forget that
you
were here, but rather
absence
made my heart grow
fonder.

The Crux
of all poetry
is that it be
honest.
Don't waste your time
with fancy words,
long speeches,
or gaudy phrases.
Just be honest
about what
moves you
and the words
will come.

Remember this whenever
it feels like all your efforts
are for nothing:
No matter what happens
all you can do is
try your best.
That's it.
Just try.
You'll fail sometimes,
succeeded otherwise.
As long as you try your best
you'll have no regrets.

Rubbing my body
underneath the soft fabric
makes me feel pretty.

Tonight I just
need
to lie in
bed
listening to the
sound
of this rain
falling.

Somewhere,
someone knows you.
Somewhere,
someone likes you.
Somewhere,
someone needs you.
Somewhere,
someone loves you.

I can feel
wind
pass through the
top
of my head
because
I've gotten all
of
my hairs cut
short.

Saying, "Life is complicated."
doesn't begin to describe
how painful it is
to be an imperfect person
in an imperfect world.
Oh, how many words could I write
about the suffering of humanity?

I'm glad to
live
an unconventional life
because
while others are
reaching
for their goals
I'll
chase after my
dreams.

I’ve lost weight
by
exercising at the
gym
and because of
that
I’ll renew my
membership
so I keep
losing.

Please just let
me
reassure you that
even
while wearing a
hairnet
on top your
head;

you're still the
prettiest
girl in my
eyes.

I send my work
resume
into the job market
hoping
I'll be hired once
again.

I've made a
date
with someone by
accident
and now I
can't
cancel this because
It'll
seem like I'm
being
a **** to
her.

At work every day
ridding
the clock with you
helps
make the time move
faster
and before I know
it
I'm ready to go
home.

Tonight we fell
asleep
with our legs
wrapped
around each other;
we
didn't toss and
turn
in bed all
night.

I've cared
way
too much
about
other people's
opinions
of me
rather
than my
own.

Mom didn't just
treat
me to frozen
yogurt
she took me
out
to breathe some
fresh
air in my
lungs.

You didn't
appreciate
my sincere
apology
so I'm
withdrawing
all my
guilt,

you won't
forgive me
and I
don't care
anymore.

Tidying up my
house
isn't just a
chore
it's a weekly
ritual
to cleanse my
home
of the negative
energy.

I may sound harsh
but
I don't say anything
about
other people that I
wouldn't
speak directly to their
faces;

I'm not behind anyone's
back.

I'm the guardian
angel put in charge of souls
with broken halos.

From the
moment
I walked
into
the examining
room
and saw
all
the metal
implements
on a
tray,

my phobia
of
the dentist
took
over my
brain.

I first dreamt of you
when I was nine years old.
You looked at me
and I gave you my heart.
It was confusing,
but now I understand.
A wish upon a shooting star
doesn't always come true.
There isn't a *** of gold
at the end of every rainbow.
Santa Claus doesn't bring gifts
for all the boys and girls.
Sometimes people don't love you
the way we dreamt they should.