All these flower petals
may
have fallen for the
rest
of this winter, though
deep
within the buds will
be
ready to bloom come
spring,

you feel sad this
time
of the season but
reach
next, equinox, then you'll
be
prepared for happiness once
again.

Remember this whenever
it feels like all your efforts
are for nothing:
No matter what happens
all you can do is
try your best.
That's it.
Just try.
You'll fail sometimes,
succeeded otherwise.
As long as you try your best
you'll have no regrets.

My mother told me
that I deserve someone who
is better than you.

Has anyone ever apologized to you
and made it seem like it was your fault?
I hate when that happens.
Just as I feel things are ok,
suddenly it's my fault again.
I'm only human after all
and prone to errors.
Can I be forgiven
please?

When strangers
reach out
to me
on the internet
and try acting
like we’re so
familiar
with each other,
I feel
goosebumps.

Instead of staying
inside
my apartment all
day
I should've gone
outside
to the gym
so
I could work
out;

exercise is self
care.

Following a daily
routine
is extremely comforting,
for
an autistic human
being
because it gives
us
the feeling of
reliability.

I’ve lost weight
by
exercising at the
gym
and because of
that
I’ll renew my
membership
so I keep
losing.

I was sleeping,
but
you woke me
up
early in the
morning
to deliver my
breakfast;

what a nice
way
to start my
day.

I thought when you
left
I'd surely forget that
you
were here, but rather
absence
made my heart grow
fonder.

Today I missed
going
out to eat
after
Sunday morning
church service
because that's when
I felt like a
member
of the
congregation.

We may not
speak
to each other
every
day of our
lives,
but when we
do
I make sure
to
say, "I love
you."

Today my boss felt
so easy going she let
me off work early.

Sometimes no one
else
can help you
feel okay again
except for
yourself.

I call
him
my big
brother
though we
aren't
related by
blood.

I've got to break the
bad habit of eating each
time I'm feeling bored.

Is there any drug
in the entire world
more satisfying
than music?

It means so
much
that you took
time
out of your
day
to check-in on
me
because in most
times
I'm merely an
afterthought
in other people's
minds.

The groundskeepers
are
making so
much
racket outside
tending
to my
lawn
that I
can't
hear myself
think;

they're not
being
rude to
me
I just
can't
stand the
sound
of power
tools.

I send my work
resume
into the job market
hoping
I'll be hired once
again.

Purchasing new
things
will only
buy
you temporary
happiness,
while also
emptying
your bank
account;

keep the
money
and be
satisfied
with your
savings.

A random girl
approached
me and complimented
the
t-shirt I was
wearing;

it's not every
day
someone appreciates my
style.

Art isn't about
perfection
it's all about
expression.

Mom didn't just
treat
me to frozen
yogurt
she took me
out
to breathe some
fresh
air in my
lungs.

Have I done well yet?
Has my work reached its peak?
Are my golden years behind me?
What will I do next?
These questions come every day.
The writer knows them well.
What's next?
That I never know.
I bang my fingers on a keyboard
until they create sweet art,
but it's never enough.
You're only as good as your next idea.
Whatever will I do?

I first dreamt of you
when I was nine years old.
You looked at me
and I gave you my heart.
It was confusing,
but now I understand.
A wish upon a shooting star
doesn't always come true.
There isn't a *** of gold
at the end of every rainbow.
Santa Claus doesn't bring gifts
for all the boys and girls.
Sometimes people don't love you
the way we dreamt they should.

Early this
morning
I stood
under
the rising
sun
absorbing it's
light.

Even if we
aren't
certain where we're
going
I don't feel
lost
when I'm beside
you.

He may be
hundreds
of miles
away,
but when
I talk
to him
over the
phone
it's like
he never
left.

I'm not a
pet
hamster who keeps
on
running himself ragged
inside
of the spinning
wheel
that leads to
nowhere;

never stopping to
rest.

I didn't
mean
to take
out
my frustrations
on
you, but
I
just needed
someone
to vent
towards;

only you
would
listen to
me.

I hate long summer nights.
As crickets chirp aloud,
my friends are away.
I watch TV
bored out of my mind.
What is there to do?
Except for count
seconds, minutes, and hours
till the black-hole is full.
So my life can begin again.

This new
year
I resolve
to
poise myself
by
learning the
ancient
rituals of
shamans
to help
balance
my state
of
mind and
heart.

Please just let
me
reassure you that
even
while wearing a
hairnet
on top your
head;

you're still the
prettiest
girl in my
eyes.

I’m going to
mop
the ***** cooler
floor
so that you
won’t
have to pick
up
the slack for
me.

I'm the guardian
angel put in charge of souls
with broken halos.

I've been an impostor
for so long
I forgot who I am.
When I walk down the street
a shadow follows me
I wonder whose it might be.
Missed the days
when I was honest
and had nothing to hide.
Now I'm just a wilting flower
blowing in the breeze,
soon I'll be swept away.

Periodically rest has
nothing
to do with
relaxation
sometimes it's an
act
of surrendering
to a situation
which you can
do so little
about.

A lone wolf
doesn't
howl at the
moon
because he's killed
prey
instead, the wolf
cries
out for his
pack
to return to
him.

From the
moment
I walked
into
the examining
room
and saw
all
the metal
implements
on a
tray,

my phobia
of
the dentist
took
over my
brain.

A real hero wears his scars on his sleeve.
Like a rockstar for all the world to see.
Even though I seem fine,
I'm crying all the time.

Instead of
taking
the short
cut
Mom drove
me
the long
way
back home
because
I needed
time
out the
house.

I was
happy
to pay
for
our lunch
because
the food
tastes
better with
you.

He just came along
in
my hour of need
to
be an angel investor
in
the stock titled my
life;

saving me with financial
assistance.

As you
ran your
fingers in
my hair
I nearly
forgot who
you were,
cause I
thought only
my Mom
could rub
my head
as smooth
as you
did.

Yesterday my neighbors gave
me
two free barbeque sandwiches,
because
I live on the
same
street as they do;
Jesus
called this loving thy
neighbor.

I never
feel
more pristine
than
when I
walk
barefoot across
my
kitchen floor
after
having just
scrubbed
it squeaky
clean.

You didn't
appreciate
my sincere
apology
so I'm
withdrawing
all my
guilt,

you won't
forgive me
and I
don't care
anymore.

Tonight we fell
asleep
with our legs
wrapped
around each other;
we
didn't toss and
turn
in bed all
night.

Tidying up my
house
isn't just a
chore
it's a weekly
ritual
to cleanse my
home
of the negative
energy.