The melodies play over and over in my head
The sound resounding within the souls of many
The light still almost as little as infant hands
My own inner self takes apart the little purity
Where have you gone, My love?

I just simply wanted to love you.
The thousand lunar light beams
Won’t allow me to break through
I remember your twisted smile as I screamed your name
It is then I realized, You

You will never return your love to me
For loneliness devours me and takes hold
Of my only dream, My only escape
The storm slowly rolls in as I begin to shed
Over a million tears

Never again will I want to be remembered
By the man that claimed to love me
Only to leave me behind in agonizing heart break
Broken souls leave room for reality
Reality is merely a lie

For my only standing ovation takes it lead
While I watch away in the back ground
Waiting for the day that death calls to me
I only wished that this weren’t true
That you could actually love me…

At the same time, I know this could never be
I wonder every single day of my life
Why is it that I fathom reality and yet
I still wonder…
And wonder…
And I still wonder

Why Can’t I Even Dream?

The curse The gift
This tainted little soul
Has yet to live
And wants nothing more

How in the world
Could the cold rapture
The only thing that beats
The lifeless mind

Turns morbid
In defeat the girl fights
The oceans craving
the drowning mind

Over taken by thoughts
consumed by it all
The only thing left is to switch off
Unplug these hands

And let go

A thousand sounds
Crashing into my ears
A million voices
Burning Fear

Desires shattered
Thoughts fragmented
Lifeless limbs turn into
Defiance

Constantly adrift
My soul is aching
My mind is gone
The doubt forsakes me

Forsaken Night
Forbidden Heart
Rising delicacy breaking apart
Her wrist pulsate

The pain redefined
The constant reminders
Of the poor and the fine
Two million tears

Well up in the eyes
Of a little girl
Hopeless and cries
Constantly on watch

The guards are close
The thousandth time
And just like that
The world was stuck

All in time
Your mind
Your soul
all Gone

This is what I have created
My world is extended beyond beauties
This world full of wander & wonder
The thousand lullabies of breathe taking
Purple skies

Leaving me at a lost abyss in the ocean
The lighting strikes as the clock stroke 12
The endangering life styles of a night walker
Which lead us in a unbinding circle
Golden Butterflies

One we all cherish so deeply
The land of treason
The land of the forbidden
The land of loners
This is the way that life has faltered
and offered me

For one cannot explain such horrific life styles
This is one of many but no different
This is life and a battle of good and evil
Love?
Is also like a war

One far to many are familiar of this feeling
Thus leaving me in this position
I am like a solider
On a field fighting for my life
and love

A solider of love and life
Fighting a war
of both
fatal and incredible
things...

I am tempted but also forsaken
With all the words I write I feel
Intense

I constantly imagine myself
Fighting for this light
Struggling

I dream hoping I will
Finally take my first breath
Inhale

The essence of your soul
Drives me over the brinks
Insanity

The only way I have you
Is my only escape
Your Light

Is my Sanity

*You

Slowly eating me
Inside
Outside

My soul gone
Danger
Beastly

I fear the worse
Rage
Hungry

The hunger is unbearable
Laughter
Smirking

I can't see
Growling
Alone

The beast has awoken

The little days pick up with wonder
The heart felt touch is my longing desire
If I ever so much as to loose anything
My love shall be shattered

With such thoughts I'd rather push away
I indulge in sweet passionate sensations
Kiss
Just like that

All my thoughts are wrapped in infinity
My soul adrift, in sweet empowering, Devotedness
The fragile mind is simply a place
For thoughts and she has my mind

Placed in her desires and compassionate heart
For this is truly the place I yearn for
For it is Love

Calling