i think about death a lot
more than I've ever thought about living
for, i hold fear of hell and it's punishments
it scares me to think about what follows after death.
where do i go?
i am not good with directions.
will my mother be holding my hands?
for, i am scared and want my mother
i cannot bear the heat in the scorching summer
yet, what if i burn for my sins?
if i ask god to forgive me,
would he give me a chance?

and is it truly fair to have to repent?
when our sole purpose is to learn.
will our change not suffice?

for everyone makes mistakes,
for we are only humans,
for we are meant to make mistakes
and for we are to learn.

but is that our mere purpose?
to learn from our mistakes?
if such is the truth, the greatest sinners would be the most educated.