It always starts out as a question
"Can I do this alone?"
That's how it begins.
You'll start out as strong as you can
Putting all your effort into whatever you're doing
And then your strength begins to dwindle
You tell yourself "I've made it this far I can keep going".
(Motivation always helps.
Even If you feel like it isn't.
You always last that extra minute
That you needed.)
When you feel like giving up the first time,
That's when your palms become clammy
Your heart starts to pound
And your brain runs wild
"What if I can't keep going?
What if I need to stop?"
That person you saw giving in the other day
Is now becoming you.
Oh God, now you're that person
And that pushes you even harder
(Who knew you still had something left?)
And when you crash
You don't realize what'***** you.
"But I was doing fine! I don't know what happened to me!"
And then the tears flow.
And you begin to
f
a
l
l
What are you falling into?
It could be anything actually
Depression
Anxiety
Your self-esteem could crash
And then come those thoughts
(How far could you drop down?
Far enough)
Those thoughts that eat away at your being
And your mind
And your body
And your soul
And everything you thought couldn't be touched
Now your tears are flowing freely
And you're eating yourself alive
There is something wrong with this picture
You are alone.
Completely, utterly, alone.
Where is that person, dog, cat etc..
That is supposed to be there
Comforting and caring for you
When you drop so low
Are they dead?
Did you push them away?
Did they push you away?
Whatever the circumstance maybe
You are alone.
The right thing to do now
Is go look for that person, dog, cat etc..
And convince them (if they aren't convinced enough as they see the bags under your eyes and the way you've lost the pep in your stride)
Once you've got that down
Pour it out
All of it
Let it go
(Like the song)
And pray they are the person you think they are
And comfort you the way you think they should
You'll feel better afterwards
You'll pick up all your pieces.
But them in jar
Carry that jar with you
And hope
You never, ever have to endure that
Ever again
You'll regain that pep in your stride
And with that person, dog, cat etc..
You think to yourself
'I'm not alone in this fight'
(Unless you push this certain person, dog, cat etc.. away and that is when you fall into the vicious cycle of learning, forgetting and learning again the hard way.)
It's a long one, guys