Do you ever wish you could just fly away?
I get that feeling every day.
The darkness overcomes me, traps me inside
I struggle and run, but from my thoughts I cannot hide.
This monster keeps me trapped, seperated from the world
Inside a prison I have been hurled.
But there is no escape from this overwhelming pain
It's all my own fault, all in my brain.

My thoughtful being wonders, ponders still
stuck, darkness. Questions, why do I exist?
I'm monstrous, worthless, one pathetic mist
of human. Truly undeserving, nil.
Alone, left crying, why would someone drill
through my shield, deeper. People know the tryst
invented by by me, for me. My own wrist
conveys the story. People say I'm ill.

Yet, hiding inside darkness, I find light.
There's people loving me, relentless, my
fate still engraved upon their hearts. The pain
held always in abandoned souls isn't right.
I fight for family, friends, for being high
off love, I can continue staying sane.

And here I sit,
Broken and Bitter
Cursing the world
I used to love.

The way you make me feel
is remarkable.
Your smile,
Your laugh,
Your touch.
You don't even have to try
One little gesture,
Sends me off the edge.
Falling so fast
and I'm loving the rush.
It's all because of you.

Decisions
They're always yours to make
But,
Should you make them by yourself?
Should I stand idly by,
as you make the wrong choice?
All that matters,
the only priority in my heart,
is You.

Don't forget,
That I was there when you fell
and needed help rising off the ground.
I was there
when your heart was broken.
And I was there
when you believed all hope to be lost.
I stood by your side every time,
And I always will.

What do you see
when you look into my eyes?
Do you see what I see?
I see a beautiful light,
A spark,
that I want to reach out and grab.
I want to make it mine,
Make it ours.
Do you see it too?

All this time I missed
Our talks about life, feelings
I missed my best friend.

There's always tomorrow
to think about actions
to worry about making
the right decision.

Today is for doing
Doing whatever gives you joy
and gets you through the day.
Today is about living.

My life finally seems to be reaching equilibrium.
All the forces on me are slowly decreasing,
And I hope that soon
They will be zero.
My friends help to lessen the force
They are the ropes, always pulling
Helping me lift the heavy weight on my shoulders.
I keep my velocity constant
Careful to keep going in the right direction
And not to move too fast
Or else the weight may come crashing down.
Most importantly,
I never forget that in finding the answer
I must consider all the components.
All the little factors in my life,
That lead me to the right decision.

You do not know me
The mask I wear when I'm with
you is an image.

His eyes are beautiful
Always twinkling,
like stars in the night sky.
I loved the way
He shared his whole heart in those eyes.

They're the color of warm chocolate
Gorgeous.
I will never forget
The soul in those eyes
When he said he loved me
Or exactly how it looked
The day the light in those eyes died out.

Letting go is not
forgetting what happened it
is moving past it.

I must escape the
darkness before it swallows
my body and soul.

I wish
I could wipe my mind
of him.
A blank slate
So I could start over new
with someone else.
And I try
to forget him
But I see his beautiful face
And it all comes rushing back.
How I gave him everything I had
And in return, I recieved only
a small piece of him.

I remember this
and the sadness is gone
Replaced
with anger.
How dare he
Never give me all of his love,
Stab me in the heart
time and time again
And then just move on,
like I was nothing.
Just a cloud of dust
in his rearview mirror
as he drives away at top speed.

But in the end,
I am left alone.
Longing for a love
That never existed.

The hole in my heart
That remained after he left
Can never be filled

The world is filled
With hate
With anger
With jealousy
that consumes the soul.
Evil
Creatures so hideous,
That we attempt to trap them inside.
But within,
There is a spark
of hope.
We must endure
And continue to feed the flame
Before it goes out
Forever.

I regret the day
I looked into your eyes and
Said it was goodbye

I miss you
Every day
I try so hard to forget you
But my feelings won't go away.

Why is it so hard
To move on with my life?
I say I'm just fine
But every moment without you
Causes me strife.

Maybe I'm not good enough
To deserve your love
But it's all I truly want
We fit together perfectly
Hand into glove.

As I sit alone on this day
My thoughts remain with you
You can have them all
And my heart too.

When someone
comes into your life
And fills your dreary days
with joy
How do you let them go?

When they made you so happy
Every moment
Of every day.
You fell apart
And they pieced you back together
How do you forget that?

They gave your life meaning
You woke up every day
with a purpose
To love them.
You fell so hard,
and now they're gone.
How do you say that you miss them?
How?

My life
Is a mess right now.
And I'm doing my best
To sort it all out.
I'm sorry if I hurt you
Along the way.
I'm just trying
To take it day by day.
Whatever happens
I want you to know.
I love you
Even if I don't
Always let it show.