It might not carry much with it
But I still believe, I still feel "my heart to you"
And for me that will always carry a feeling
That night in the naked darkness of my room
Legs interlocked nothing else mattered but you an I
And not even the stars were as bright as your beautiful big brown eyes

The dagger you have left in my ****** broken heart
Has become the sword in the stone

In this all too small world of ours, some times two individuals as hard as they try
Are just not meant to be
In our situation this was the case
I truly felt like the odds were against us
I hate to admit it because in my sick mind I wanted it to work out so badly
But the sad truth is that it was beginning to become toxic
Toxic to the feel toxic to the touch toxic to even just the thought
We were drowning in our love sickness
I am still struggling to breathe even now
My **** heart is to big for my chest
It has since then become swollen with emotion
I am treading water in a pool of sorrow
I hate to play this broken hearted card
but this is the hand I have been dealt

She Doesnt see it but i hurt too
Everyday its a struggle to keep a fake smile plastered on my face
like "hey everything is okay"
When the truth is im breaking down on the inside trying to hide my tears and all my fears
Im broken and there isnt enough glue or bandages in the world to put me back together
She had become the mold that kept me all together

I felt my heart break into a million little pieces each one carrying a feeling a memory an emotion
I could not catch them quick enough
I felt a sucker punch to my stomach
I couldn't breathe I gasped for air yet I do not want to be alive
I felt my tears forming in my eyes
I felt them stream down my rosy cheeked face like a flowing river in the summer
I felt my body shake and crumble
I am no longer the brave person I once knew anymore I have become lost

I feel like death is standing over me
A half filled glass of tequila, the worse killer
I tried drowning out my sorrows
I took a dive in a half filled liquor bottle
The sounds the images the memories will not drown, they've learned to swim
I cant drink quick enough
I am like a fish out of water
I gasp for a drink as I struggle to swallow a fresh breath of air

A 2013

It makes my heart skip a beat every time were in the same room
Not a hi not a hey how you doing
Nothing but the shrug of a cold shoulder
She struts she taunts
She really must think she's hot stuff
All I want to do is **** on her already lit fire
How dare she say she misses me after she took it upon herself to simply nonchalantly dismiss me
I never meant a **** thing
She carries herself around like queen b
I must of never realized that I was just a mere peasant in her heart break kingdom
Never one to beg steal or borrow I thought I could do without

A 2013