She walked toward the sun.. knees caving in

her eyes were as large as the moon..

she dragged her feet along the sand.. held out her heart in her hand

the blood trail was thick and pure. The sky darkened and birds flew away.

soon as her toes hit the water they sunk so deep, she kept walking

to the falling sun, trying to forget the one she loved. Her heart floated away..

in the open hole he had left the ice-cold water poured in and held her at the

bottom. the currents tossed her like she was not there.. after years of  pain,

she finally hit her head upon a rock. Her body floated to the top.

And the one who she thought she knew was walking to the ocean too

to forget the things he did do, now he is floating, he's floating to.

do you know what its like to look at him every night
yea you love him, and yea you still bleed
the biggest mistake, its taken you deep.

you can no longer breath, your eyes start to swell.
do u know what its like to be living in hell? no way
around the pain,

'deal with it babe, i got you, you cant
ever get away, because im not letting go no matter how bad
you hurt.'

and the pain oh yes the blame, the shame..
and you get so close every time, to think that you have your life all back inline.. then u think, of what the f*er did to you
now all you want is to die in his arms, let the blood flow
and pool in his palm.

(this is a very old writing from me, when i was just starting grade 9)  

i wish this boat was going faster; faster
i wish you would have gone, faster; faster
and now im here, in this disaster
that we have made, u left me astray
and im sitting wondering why;
wont you speek?
did i do wrong...
my enemy's  have forgiven me, and
you cant even talk.
i see the pain that you did feel, i know its real,
but nothing compared to mine.
you had trust in her; well i had trust in you.
i look out at the water, and i see you dying too.
at one point i wanted to die with you.
i hate the choice that you did chose.
you say SHE WAS EVERYTHING, but i thought
i was too, i know now i mean nothing, nothing to you.

i had a dream
that i was falling out of time.
the crisp cold night crawled across my face.

it was almost like i could catch the moon and save myself
from this place, the moon shined through my fingers
like lasers to my eyes.
my twisting curls enveloped my face, like sinking down in water.
i shut my eyes and thought of you, thats when i awoke.
to see your bare shoulder, and large powerful back facing me.

i ran my fingers down slowly, starting from your ear.
like a cat, looking for its pray, i slid my
hand to your stomach and pulled you closer.
i feel us falling out of time.

you stole my love, from my shredded heart.
you always loved me from the start.
once, while walking in the night you held my waist
tight, the street light made your face a shadow, yet
i saw your eyes gleam.
the hand you had pressed on my lower backs
hold grew firmer, while the other hand slowly
grazed my cheeks.
i was confused and intrigued, and oh so excited.
then the lips that i always used to watch, gently
pressed against mine, i swear you could see me glow.
the little bit of stubble you left on your face tickled my soul
and brought hot excitement across my face.
when we kiss now, it still feels like im flying, like my soul
has never been tied down by chains of sorrow
you make me feel perfect.
i must be to have you.