Oh the joys of being positive

After enduring all your negative

The drama you created was stressful

Should've been an actor you'd be successful

Time for me to give you an earful

Because I'm no longer tearful

My enjoyment will be to watch you fail

Your new love now has a dominant male

No one's opinion is ever correct

You drive you're own point in every argument

If she is submissive you'll both get along

You overpower women that tend to be strong

You've moved her out and you moved her in

I see that you're starting all over again

It's hard to watch from across the street

To watch you start failing is a real treat

Your endless routine has become so clear

Destroyer of hearts has become your career

You praised me and thanked me for just being me

Then your pattern of behavior  devastates me

Your shallow ways turned around and betrayed

Our beautiful vows that we had made

You can't bring yourself to face your own demons

A condition you suffer that affects your demeanor

You build up a wall to keep us apart

Away from the pain in your own heart

You cheat you betray and you go astray

A predictable pattern of behavior you display

You've done it before you'll do it again

A pattern of behavior that will never end

I worked at the hospital but they laid us all off

Cut backs in health care it was just too much

We sat with the elderly to help keep them safe

Their confusion tends to make them unsafe

I've gone to college and learned a new trade

With my CNA training I can get back to aid

To work once again with the elderly and confused

I can still be around and keep them amused

You swore to love me for the rest of our life

In front of The Lord you made me your wife

We're separate because of your temperamental ways

You turned to the Lord to have better days

We talked about moving to start a new life

Seven years as your wife, I made a commitment for life

Your cruelty you show in the deed that you've done

You moved your girlfriend right into our home

An honorable man would be true to his word

A commitment destroyed made in front of The Lord

My mom was a wonderful person

Codependent on a horrible loser

My stepdad was terribly abusive

He'd sneak in my room and be intrusive

My brothers he beat with a belt

Until they all had big welts

We're young we can't see the loop

Soon in life we will follow suit

I married a man who's verbally abusive

To my daughter his moods were intrusive

Why do I feel so sad

When his behavior was so bad

He would yell and scream

But I held on to a dream

I could help him shine supreme

I found there was no solution

I had to leave his pollution

Time to make a new start

Away from this man with a cold heart

Time to find a man with courage

Who wants to love and encourage

Generosity his ultimate goal

To love straight from his soul

Who doesn't want to control

Knows how to be unconditional

I mourn the man from our beginning

And not the one that you kept hidden.

We came together to share a life forever.

We drifted apart with the temperament that you start.

The torment that you dished I will surely never miss.

I am finally free from your tyranny.

Our separation has become my salvation.

I needed to find inspiration

Freedom from your abomination

I have a smile of satisfaction

Saved myself from your castigation

I married you and thought I knew you quite well

But your temperament shown through and started to swell

I tried to honor the commitments we made

But you're difficult behavior made it all fade

I moved out once and you wanted me back

I came back but you stayed on the same track

I moved out again this time for two days

You said you recognized your irrational ways

I move out again next time for two weeks

You swore your irrationality you were going to tweak

I hoped the third time would be the charm

But you only got worse in my mental alarm

It's now the fourth time you think I would learn

This time for a year and on my own terms

We begin to date and things look better

We talked about buying a house together

I thought I could trust the man that I knew

You prove me wrong and moved her in out of the blue

She's there for a week you then moved her out

You say she's a roommate but I sure have my doubts

We date again and to my shock

You move her back in lock and stock

A month and a half later she's out again

What's wrong with this picture that you are in

You think I'm a yo-yo for your own pleasure

I don't seem to be anything that you treasure

How sad for you you're so miserable inside

I long for the man with that beautiful side

Was it all a façade you used to deceive

No faith in your heart you just don't believe

I loved you so much right from the start

You destroyed our love you tore us apart

Love with your partner should be give-and-take

You can't give your heart there's too much at stake

If your brand new yo-yo makes a return

Sad for her she'll be the one to get burned

Halloween is my favorite time of year

We threw a costume party it was full of cheer

Two nights later you flew into a rage

I felt like a bird trapped in a cage

You yelled and badgered me for  hours

In my face your mood completely sours

You finally burst into strange laughter

As if your personality began to fracture

I drop my daughter off to go trick-or-treating

She didn't need to see me get a verbal beating

Time to get my daughter from her night of fun

I find you in another room with your father's gun

I ask you what you think you're doing

A familiar hateful look stings me for asking

I warned you I could not do this anymore

I needed to leave to see what life has in store

No more drama because of your illness

My life is no longer filled with sadness

Hide your demons they'll haunt you forever

You can never escape them even if you're clever

You're trapped in the fears of your own mind

Maybe the condition you don't want anyone to find

You hide it from your family but you don't realize

They've known it for years to doubt this is unwise

Just remember your demons are there

I offered to help you but you didn't care

My heart went out to you in times of despair

Anger and denial displayed with your glare

You prefer to hide in your own pride

But your demons will never be on your side

You were my husband for seven years

You're terrible moods drove me to tears

I made my escape one year ago

I got away from your alter ego

I don't want to brag I don't want to ramble

But it does my heart good to see you unravel

I know that is selfish for me to feel

You dished such anger it was so hard to deal

You moved her out twice and back again

Who knows where this one is going end

She doesn't know the troubles I've seen

She'll have to survive her own bad dream

This critter comes but once a year

Flies through the June air to cause a little fear

My friend came to visit

Asked "What kind of bird is it"

With a great big chuckle

I had quite a laugh

For it's not a bird that flies in the air

But a great big Paloverde Bug looking to have an affair

She screams to him from the roots of the tree

Over here, over here, come see me

Happy to oblige cause when he's done

He can go in search of another one

Watched Bones the other day

It helped my sorrow just this way

Daisy had a broken heart

She broke up with her Lancelot

Dr. Saroyan put it this way

Trying to save Daisy's day

Morn the man that broke your heart

Then forge on and make a new start

I tried to warn you but you wouldn't listen

Your emotional issues are starting to glisten

Your anger's so obvious to everyone you know

They're aware of your issues hidden deep down below

Your insecurities show in your demeanor

You'll never admit your underlying demons

You have a new love and she's not aware

Of the tortures I went thru while under your care

She'll soon see the monster that's hidden within

Your smooth side conceals it until we've moved in

I tried to warn you but you wouldn't listen

You'll never admit your secret condition

You broke my heart you created a hole

You're alone again you're out-of-control

I wanted to help but you decided to cheat

You brought in a new one to keep your deceit

Did she figure it out is she gone from your house

Looks like she left as quiet as a mouse

You keep your heart hidden you think it's sublime

Alone again was not your design

I can drive now with ease
All the way into town
Without being jeopardized
By some slow moving clown

My car's in the parking lot
Close to the market
And I don't walk miles
After I park it

The isles are clear
The checkouts are open
Blessed relief
Till October I'm hoping

Each year they come
And each year they go
But they're hazardous to your health
Cause they drive too **** slow

When you least expect it
They pull out in front of you
Just gawking and talking
Enjoying the view

A car, an RV
Or a trailer that's towed
To them it seems
They're alone on the road

Sometimes I wonder
And that's no jive
Just how in the hell
They got here alive

By my father Robert Bennett

I loved you so much I loved you so dearly

With your promise of love I believed you sincerely

My oblivious mind made me blind to my find

As your mood swings were scary and made me quite wary

Time now to celebrate the escape that I've made

I thank your new love for the distraction she gave

Her oblivious mind thinks she has a great find

Now it's her time to deal with a trap that is real

I wrote him a letter and asked him to see.

How his mood swings affects his commitment with me

He pulled a 180 in spite of me he had her move in to replace me

His wallet was bare he needs someone with spare

His finances are atrocious because he cannot focus

In time she will see the lies he told of me

Will eventually be the lies he says of she

You spoke to my dad and asked for my hand

You said the right things I thought it was grand

You swore to love me for the rest of our life

You asked me to marry and made me your wife

Frustration and anger took over your soul

You've blinded your heart to our ultimate goal

Wife number four is out the door

Wife number five has come into sight

It's sad you think so little of love

Each wife fits you just like a glove

They pay your bills and when you're done

You just move onto another one

Can you help some one who's ill

When you know it's not physical

It hides in his oblivious mind

Cleverness making it hard to find

I tried to confront it he won't admit

He knows how to hide behind all his wit

Family and friends don't know how to deal

As his frustrating anger is so hard to feel

Enabled because they cannot cope

He intimidates their need for hope

He has no courage within his own heart

Denial keeps him from falling apart

Unable to admit a possible weakness

It's buried within his own sneakiness

When in reality if he could only see

The more courageous he would be

To face his fears and set himself free

I Love poetry

It has become my therapy

I write my thoughts down

It helps to stop a frown

You caused me such stress

I became a horrible mess

I woke up to the fact

You put on quite an act

Your horrible stressful ways

Will now cause her bad days

I'm very happy now

You no longer bring me down

I'm free of all your drama

You've created real bad karma

Gray is now covering the top of my head

But I prefer to keep it a nice shade of red

You'd think my age would make me quite smart

But the gray fogs my brain I'm no longer alert

I made a bad choice to let you into my life

You broke my heart and caused me great strife

I can't stop the love that I'm feeling for you

But I choose not to like you as you are quite cruel

The lies told of me threw me into despair

With your faith in me I felt lighter than air

You said have no fear to always be brave

To speak my mind and not take it to my grave

You have no idea how much I appreciate

Your faith in me has opened new gates

I will never betray the friendship brought my way

You brighten my life today is a new day

I start a new life

I'm no longer a wife

He said I can't communicate

My feelings he would terminate

If I said how I feel

His anger was too real

He will never face

His own angry pace

He blames it on me

When in reality it's he

That blows up at me

You think he's a treasure just wait and see

Hook line and sinker you fell just like me

True colors shine through you'll discover it all

So sad to see you'll be the next one to fall

We're just a notch on his belt he can hang on his wall

He's out for himself he won't care at all

Autumn colors dance in my mind
As I take my brush in hand
And desperately try to re-create
The beauty God placed on this land

Trees sway gently grass bends low
Caressed by the morning breeze
Can I capture this flood of emotion
And display it before me with ease

My heart is trembling within me
As I labor with deft bold strokes
I must seize this desperate moment
My consuming passion invokes

I feel that God placed this beauty
For me and only for me
To re-create in his image
For all of the world to see

Written by my father
Robert Bennett

You came back and wanted to end a feud

But you're such a manipulating dude

You said you wanted to come back to our life

It's too late I'm no longer your wife

My heart told me not to be scared

This time I was totally prepared

Speaking in half truths just to build an ego

Is a clever way to lie to hide a false bravado

He invades my Facebook with pleasure

His intrusion is nothing I treasure

I blocked him from my space

He put his friend in his place

To go through and read my post

Reports back to him what I wrote

Stay off my Facebook forever

My life is no longer your venture

So have fun reading this poem

Maybe now you'll leave me alone

It's hard to realize when things are done

When you thought that he was the one

It's time to go forward and start a new life

As a single person and not as a wife

Take care of your daughter she deserves better

He treated her wrong he just didn't get her

One more thing that you need to do

Go to college and learn something new

You ranted and raved and made her feel bad

She's the best part of me and it made me feel sad

Your self-centered ways wants attention on you

No one else in my life is allowed to shine thru

I made the choice and I left you for her

As her choice was no longer to stay on this earth

You'll never understand the negative I see

My daughter's more important than you'll ever be

Denial, denial you won't say it's so

A condition you suffer buried deep down below

It affects who you date and who you marry

They don't stay too long they see you as scary

They just gave up but I tried to hang in

You blew up in my face again and again

Can't you see what it is that you do

You hurt the ones that want love you