I'm in pain and nobody can help
I lost myself when society judged me
In the darkness I always dwelt
And never really knew how to be free.
Inside me there's a shade of black
A shade of black that will forever defy me
Everyday I count, so as not to lose track
Lose track of the insults they throw just for glee.
They don't know how much it hurts
The feeling of being degraded when you're already at the bottom
I stay awake and listen to the owl's hoots
And hear their voices in my head, oh-so-blithesome.
I refer to myself as an outcast
For their words make me lose my sanity
The deep cuts I may surpass
But not all of their profanity.
They said "Be yourself"
But their actions don't support their idea
And judge people like me out of the shelf
Then leave me lying there, astray.

I crossed the line tonight,
To all, I'm already out of sight.
Unexpectedly, people started to cry,
But I had to rest; I was tired.

I silently watched
As blood continuously gushed.
I'm an immaterial essence,
But you may still feel my presence.

I beg you to not blame me,
For I have left cause of decreasing vitality.
I know, I have acted weak,
So feel free to call me a stupid freak.