Haywired and spiraling through the days
Bringing me here today
Feeling like its been a decade
Changing
Maturing
Growing
Releasing the woman that has been locked away
Breaking out now
Venturing out now
Seeing so crisp what’s in front now
Feeling the good from the bad now
Painful endings have brought me to this beginning
Seemingly unbearable pain is what shoved me forward through every ending
But here I am now
Slowly, spiraling down to a landing now
No longer haywired
Just wired, to a semi fix now
Enjoying every moment now
As I smile
Knowing everything has brought me here
Its all clear
There’s no gain without pain
I’m holding a steadiness to push back now
Only roots spiraling now
Digging deep, digging deep
Will continue to grow
Mature
And only change by force of the seasons
Standing now
Out in the open
Never again to be locked away

The tortured heart and soul do not drive these words anymore
Instead, it’s the delightful lovely thoughts of what the heart and soul has the opportunity to feel
Delightful lovely thoughts that drives and create these new words
Thoughts of a new embrace
New lips
Thoughts of a touch from new hands
Hands to let caress me
Hands that try to find where my skin ends
Tracing my curves
Getting lost as they move in
So many thoughts of where a simple “Hello” can lead
A simple flirty hello that spreads...a smile on my face
Lovely lovely thoughts bounce through this free spirited mind
Lovely lovely things that could become real after a glass of wine
How freeing it is! ...to say all of these things!
I’ve written these words from a depth of sincere happiness
A free soul
No more binding emotional ties that hinder the smile I now like to share all the time
A smile that comes from the bright spirit I now hold
A freeing smile that invites the opportunity of new chances
New chances!
I never thought I would say those words
Lovely thoughts
Lovely things
I’m exited for what they will manifest and bring

Thoughts of you running your fingers down my spine
As if you were unzipping my flesh to find your way inside
As the tip of your…fingers…reach the dip, of the small of my back
I shutter
I smile
I tremble, letting out a sigh
Letting out a small giggle as I feel the hairs all over my body rise
All these thoughts of you consume and occupy my mind
Thoughts of such a glorious night
A night when no one else existed
Those thoughts will remain with me forever
Thoughts of how everything felt so right, but knowing it really wasn’t our time
Memories of how you stared into my eyes
You stared intensely
I stared intently
You gripped the back of my neck, pulling my hair just slightly and roughly enough to make me pulsate even further into your arms,
Your embrace
Pulling me close enough to feel the blood pulsate in your bottom lip
Making me speed up the rhythm of the continuous sway in my hips
Its just a memory now
Of that night
A night I looked into your eyes and saw that you could get lost in mine
And you did
You got lost in me
On me,
In, between me
Between my heated thighs
I felt you fire up
Felt your finger tips burn and steam away my moisture into the late hours of the night
And into the early hours right before the sunrise
I kissed the tip of your nose
Slid my hand slightly over your neck to your chest to your belly
As if I were unzipping you open so I could see what passion looks like from the inside
And I saw it
Through imaginary lines
Passion flowing through a caged soul
A fiery heart
Just enough passion for our one night

Canela
Savor dulce, picoso
Sweet and spicy at the same time
Piel color de canela
Ojos, pedasitos de chocolate
Morenita
Canelita
You always make me your dessert
Always served up at the end
After your done with your main course, or courses
You say how sweet I look
How sweet I’ll taste
But only for the moment of dessert
And I already know this
And I submit
Because I enjoy the words
The sound of them
The look of your lips as “canela” slides down that little curve on the bottom one
And I give you mis pedasitos de chocolate
Si
Tu morenita
Tu canelita

Words that balance
Words of fairness
Truthfulness
Words as powerful as the thought
Thoughts holding even a greater strength
For it’s the thought that drives the words we speak
It’s the words we speak that can make a person weak
Weak in the heart from words that can tear us apart
Weak in the arms and knees from the words that make the heart pulsate so fast and hard we take a deep breath…..
Just to continue...to hold on
Because the words say…”You mean everything to me...you are my world.”
Words
Words
These pages continue to be fed with words
To let the words breathe
Breathe to give life
Breathe just to die
Line after line
Words of truth
Words that aren’t always so fair
Life isn’t fair
Love isn’t fair
But the words…
They balance
They balance the thoughts
The thoughts holding the strength in every word we speak

A transformation has taken place
Constant transformations
Changes
It can happen from one day to the next
Changes of the heart
Changes of ideals
Changes that create new directions to follow
Leaving past destinations as visited terrain
Some visits of beauty and relaxation
Some visits of tragedies and turmoil
Stopping in
Trying not to get ****** in
Making it out to find a new place
Places to rest
Places to reflect
New destinations
New perceptions
Changes bringing about such depths
To explore
To venture and get lost into
Changes!
Changes that bring smiles
Huge grinning smiles
Bringing life to a heart that was at the brink of death
Revived
Survived
Transformed
This heart is reborn!!

Sleep is precious
4 hours on a good night…or morning
It all becomes the same
I should just refer to my sleep as naps
But never the less…
YOU KNOW…how precious my sleep is
And YOU…YOU…UGH…Come to me at 3:30 in the morning
Just as I’ve fallen 5 minutes into the deepest sleep I’ve had in a handful of days
You’ve come to BANG,
BANG and POUND…on my door?!
Waking me from my precious sleep
My precious nap
I think to myself, “NAH…it can’t be you…”
But yeah, its you
And instead of finding flattery in such a late night visit from you
I rage inside, ******* that you’ve jolted me from the depth of my nap
Jolted me from a real warm embrace
Yes I said embrace…And yeah he laughs…and says, “Go take care of your business.”
And I do
I go to the door and tell your drunkard, jagger *** to never, ever, come and bang…bang on my door
My sleep is too precious to look beyond the fact that you were thinking of me
The only thing going through my mind was how I wanted to make you disappear forever
And yeah, after that night
You never came again
Well at least…never came to me again
UGH…Just want to forget that night
Or morning
Or whatever
Looking forward to my maybe 4 hour nap tonight
But no
No embrace tonight
But that’s fine
At least I know I’ll sleep the full 4 hours