Choosing to love rather than hate, how ideal yet so cunning.
How can one really truly love when the world has nothing but to hate.
The truth was that, it isn't surprising.
World was made to love itself and nothing else.
It has a lot to offer but none of them was love nor life.
It woos us into selfish gain and greed.
Hatred is what it wants to all who breathes above.
Death is what awaits to those who were ensnared.
This world boasts nothing but fear.
Why live once to for a life of loathe and fear?

Then why do we exists in this world of hate.
The answer is simple but difficult to fathom.
We live once to love not hate

Why.
Your eyes had pierced me.
Thoughts of you haunts me.
Please, no don't **** me once more.
You had murdered me the moment our glances met.
Don't let me die a second time.
The next time I caught your eyes ...
I will make you liable for my demise.

I am feeling this numbness again.
I can feel it lurking.
It hides through the shadows,
it seeps into my memories.
My box was shaking
and the locks were cutting loose.
I don't want to feel it anymore.
Please don't come near me.
I don't want no blood to run in heart.
I wanna feel, laugh and love.
Don't make me lock my heart again.

October 7, 2009 at 9:49pm
I am touched of how each day passed
knowing that you will be there...
I love you...
hope you know it...
though i am not able to tell it to you...
thanks...
never will i expect anything back...
for love freely gives...
and waits nothing in return...
I love you just like this...
and will continue to love you like this...
till you find it out...
then my feelings for you will be long gone then...

April 22, 2014

The feelings had indeed been long gone.
I now have found a person called home.
I have never thought that it wouldn't be you,
But I still wonder what if you knew.
What would have happened if we ended to be,
To be people and share a title called 'we'
It must have been really exciting,
Spending each day with a love story so inspiring.
Then again, maybe it's not really meant,
Yet being a fool for you isn't something I lament.
Perhaps, possibly, uncertainly this love is not for this moment,
Maybe it was just another passing endearment
In which the both of us may have felt but never enacted.

I felt that my heart silently broke into a million pieces.
I smiled.
I smiled like I never smiled before.
It's finally broken.
There's nothing else that can hurt me because I'm not in pain anymore.
I am shattered into an unrecognizable me.
I'm now at peace with the version I've longed to be, a dead me.

I woke up late today with nothing but ordinary.
The sun was high and the people were just passing by.
The commute was also nothing special really.
Then I descended down the stairs
and saw you coming through the door.
It was magical.
You were already staring and I was just there standing.
Your eyes forced their way into my mind.
I just can't look at you cause I'm afraid to melt.
Your voice echoed through the walls and it was calming.
I knew but I refused to discover what your stare beholds.
For my heart was no longer mine but to a man it belongs.
What could it be, I asked if I was free and smiled.
Will our encounter be more than just an after sigh.
I still do wonder till now on why...
I just can't forget the stranger from a distance I admired.

Ang langit at kalupaan
Sinuong ang walang hanggan
Nasan aking mahal
Ang pangako na sabi'y d wawakasan

Naglaho sa alapaap
Itinago sa mga tala
pag-ibig na laan lamang
Sa taong lumisan na lang

Ang pait ng tagpo
Mga ngiting nanibugho
Saya na hindi nabuo
Pagkat ako ay iniwan mo

Ang mga tala ay nagdiwang
Ikaw narito na aking mahal
Ako ay hinagkan
Pangakong hindi na iiwan

Ang mundo ay naniwala
Mga puso'y nagtiwala
Sa pag-ibig na nilaan
Para sayo lamang hirang

Ang mga labi na rosas
Mga mga mata **** abo
Ang mga sulyap mo
Nagbibigay galak sa puso ko

I lied.
It was all just a facade.  
My cover was exposed the time our eyes met again.
My heart was a mess.
I am so much in love with you more than ever before.
To the point where I would rather be alone than live without.
What have you done to me?
I am totally ruined.
You were not even there to fix my broken edges.
Why do I love to be in a helpless state?
I could just live in security in the love of another;
yet my heart won't abide to anyone but you.
My heart cannot find rest whenever I see you.
What have I let myself into?
Why did we have to meet?
Why do you have to be there at that exact moment?
Why do we always end up being in the same place?
I want to know the reasons.
I want to understand.
How could we both just happen to be at that exact time?
How could we both just happen to have nothing to do at the same time?
How could we both just happen to end up always at the same circle?
I wanna know.
I wanna know.
I wanna know.
Are we supposed to be together?
Are you the one whom I have been waiting for?
Are we gonna see each other at the end of the aisle?
Are you gonna be there to hold me?
I wanna know.
I wanna know.
I wanna know.

Nabalot ang langit ng pighati
Lulan na ng ulan ang mga ngiti
Natunaw tila nyebe ang saya
Ngayon ako'y muling naiwang mag-isa

The meadow sang in harmony
As our hearts synced in melody
They stopped their agony
When we met finally

My soul longed for such caress
You have never cared less
In your arms I want to rest
You're the peace in my chest

The glimpse of you
It restores my hope anew
Your presence is like the dew
How pure and so true

Taken for granted is that what I'll always be.
Understanding and independent that's me,
Yet somehow at time I can no longer understand.
Then people around me call me with a brand
When people never do their promises its disappointing
What more if they always keep you waiting

I am fed up with this cycle
Sometimes I'd rather be single
I don't want to expect no longer
I don't want to be quiet and be a loner
I also desire to be understood and to depend
But a person like that there's none
Yes no one; not even one

Is this what it always be
Me being left let alone and just me
What I wanted is for someone to understand
And not judge and give me a brand
I promise that I will never act disappointing
And for sure I will not keep him waiting

Yet there's none not even one
Who have thought that maybe she's also a woman
Everyone thinks that I am more like a super human
I also desire for petty things
And wanted to feel cheesy flings
Am I that stiff like a stick
That won't bend in a flick
And what if I am is that a crime
To be strong, isn't that sublime

Walang kanta, kwento, salita o wika,
Pawang mga ngiti lamang ay sapat na.
Mga matang nababalot ng ligaya.
Ang piling ng isa't isa'y mahigit pa sa sapat na.

Love's lost in time and space
It will send you to an endless solace
How can one forget thine
It's as if nothing happened and it's fine
Seasons passed and changes
why is my heart not going through phases
Waiting for forever
It froze in the time of us together
Everything is in vain
For I know that nothing will be the same
If I look in your eyes
I hope that it is where my future lies
But no, because I know
That this love that I have is just for naught
Now is not our moment
It lapsed and I'll eternally lament
For being a coward
And not having courage to move forward
Let my heart be at ease
May you love someone else and be at peace
This way I will be free
And thus these feelings will finally flee

February 6, 2011 at 10:09pm

Why I just don't like thee..

I don't like thee's annoying messy hair
               that flips through the air...
I don't like thee's funny and low voice
               that I have to listen with no choice...
I don't like thee's huge and chubby body
              he looks more like a bunny...
I don't like thee's smile and crazy looks
              it just make me bow and read my book...
I don't like thee's weird and mysterious glances...
             it pounds my heart to dance...
I don't like thee's soft and gentle light..
            he makes me feel weak inside...
I don't like thee's warm and cuddling arms
           he's like a hunter that senses harm...
I don't like thee's way of saying my name
           because he says it not just as same...
I don't like thee's being right all the time..
           for when he opens his mouth I'm silenced...
I just don't like thee at all....

For it is not just liking thee that make me feel this way
          an incomparable joy that takes my blues away..

FOR I DO LOVE THEE..

I love  his hair
          as it plays into the air
I love as he speaks in funny and low voice
          that makes me listen as the only choice
I love his huge and chubby body
          he's actually cuter than a bunny
I love how he smile and his crazy looks
          I just blush and pretends to read my book
I love the weirdness and the mystery of his glances
          it make my heart to gracefully dance
I love his soft and gentle light
          Iit weakens my soul inside
I love the warmth of his cuddling arms
          I know it can protect me from any harm
I love the way he says my name
          there's no one who can say it as same
I love it when he is always right all the time
          Iin my amazement I am silenced...

**I JUST DO LOVE THEE..
WITH GREATER REASONS SAID ABOVE...
WITH REASONS THAT MY MIND CANNOT EVEN UNDERSTAND...
I JUST LOVE YOU
NO MATTER HOW MY LIPS CRITICIZE AND DENY
MY HEART BEATS THIS ONE LINE...
I LOVE YOU
AND I HOPE YOU DO KNOW...

It was in some distant memory.
I saw your face and it's hardly believable.
It had been a long time, it was actually the first time
That I did try to think of you again.
Nothing was changed with the features of your face.
The lines in your eyes and creases in your forehead.
It was all intact and the same.
Your smile that was majestic and bright.
Your eyes ever twinkling like the night.
How I love it as I caress your silky hair.


The short grim days were nowhere to be seen
But instead all I can remember was how wonderful you were.
How have you been?
I guess you would never exchange where you are to be with us again.
I would love it that way too.
Please just stay where you are and be happy.
Indeed it had been a long time since I reached out and pictured your face again.
There had never been a day that you're not missed.
See you soon amazing woman.