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Tenshi Jul 2015
I lied.
It was all just a facade.  
My cover was exposed the time our eyes met again.
My heart was a mess.
I am so much in love with you more than ever before.
To the point where I would rather be alone than live without.
What have you done to me?
I am totally ruined.
You were not even there to fix my broken edges.
Why do I love to be in a helpless state?
I could just live in security in the love of another;
yet my heart won't abide to anyone but you.
My heart cannot find rest whenever I see you.
What have I let myself into?
Why did we have to meet?
Why do you have to be there at that exact moment?
Why do we always end up being in the same place?
I want to know the reasons.
I want to understand.
How could we both just happen to be at that exact time?
How could we both just happen to have nothing to do at the same time?
How could we both just happen to end up always at the same circle?
I wanna know.
I wanna know.
I wanna know.
Are we supposed to be together?
Are you the one whom I have been waiting for?
Are we gonna see each other at the end of the aisle?
Are you gonna be there to hold me?
I wanna know.
I wanna know.
I wanna know.
Tenshi Jan 2015
It was in some distant memory.
I saw your face and it's hardly believable.
It had been a long time, it was actually the first time
That I did try to think of you again.
Nothing was changed with the features of your face.
The lines in your eyes and creases in your forehead.
It was all intact and the same.
Your smile that was majestic and bright.
Your eyes ever twinkling like the night.
How I love it as I caress your silky hair.


The short grim days were nowhere to be seen
But instead all I can remember was how wonderful you were.
How have you been?
I guess you would never exchange where you are to be with us again.
I would love it that way too.
Please just stay where you are and be happy.
Indeed it had been a long time since I reached out and pictured your face again.
There had never been a day that you're not missed.
See you soon amazing woman.
Tenshi Dec 2014
I am feeling this numbness again.
I can feel it lurking.
It hides through the shadows,
it seeps into my memories.
My box was shaking
and the locks were cutting loose.
I don't want to feel it anymore.
Please don't come near me.
I don't want no blood to run in heart.
I wanna feel, laugh and love.
Don't make me lock my heart again.
Tenshi Dec 2014
Why.
Your eyes had pierced me.
Thoughts of you haunts me.
Please, no don't **** me once more.
You had murdered me the moment our glances met.
Don't let me die a second time.
The next time I caught your eyes ...
I will make you liable for my demise.
Tenshi Dec 2014
Choosing to love rather than hate, how ideal yet so cunning.
How can one really truly love when the world has nothing but to hate.
The truth was that, it isn't surprising.
World was made to love itself and nothing else.
It has a lot to offer but none of them was love nor life.
It woos us into selfish gain and greed.
Hatred is what it wants to all who breathes above.
Death is what awaits to those who were ensnared.
This world boasts nothing but fear.
Why live once to for a life of loathe and fear?

Then why do we exists in this world of hate.
The answer is simple but difficult to fathom.
We live once to love not hate
Tenshi Dec 2014
Love's lost in time and space
It will send you to an endless solace
How can one forget thine
It's as if nothing happened and it's fine
Seasons passed and changes
why is my heart not going through phases
Waiting for forever
It froze in the time of us together
Everything is in vain
For I know that nothing will be the same
If I look in your eyes
I hope that it is where my future lies
But no, because I know
That this love that I have is just for naught
Now is not our moment
It lapsed and I'll eternally lament
For being a coward
And not having courage to move forward
Let my heart be at ease
May you love someone else and be at peace
This way I will be free
And thus these feelings will finally flee
Tenshi Jun 2014
Taken for granted is that what I'll always be.
Understanding and independent that's me,
Yet somehow at time I can no longer understand.
Then people around me call me with a brand
When people never do their promises its disappointing
What more if they always keep you waiting

I am fed up with this cycle
Sometimes I'd rather be single
I don't want to expect no longer
I don't want to be quiet and be a loner
I also desire to be understood and to depend
But a person like that there's none
Yes no one; not even one

Is this what it always be
Me being left let alone and just me
What I wanted is for someone to understand
And not judge and give me a brand
I promise that I will never act disappointing
And for sure I will not keep him waiting

Yet there's none not even one
Who have thought that maybe she's also a woman
Everyone thinks that I am more like a super human
I also desire for petty things
And wanted to feel cheesy flings
Am I that stiff like a stick
That won't bend in a flick
And what if I am is that a crime
To be strong, isn't that sublime
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