i told you not to make
me the anchor that tames you down
whenever you feel like you're
drowning again;
you promised not to look at me
as if I'm the sun and you haven't
tasted the light in such a long
time inside all the frigid darkness
you’ve enveloped yourself in;
you said you won't cling on me
like the attachment a flame has
on all the cigarette sticks you perpetually have
between your lips, waiting, until each fire coughs up
its last smoke;
(it wasn't long before I
coughed mine.)
i told you, i told you, i told you,
the I wouldn't stay long—
that I wanted to lessen the damage
that I'll inflict on you; so I made you
promise and
you promised, you promised, you promised,
that you'll never depend on me
as if I'm the only person who can ignite your soul
but you didn't keep your words
and I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I kept mine
*—L.m
written on Sept. 10, 2014