-my last breath
put that noose around my neck
then i slit my fckin wrists
then i jump off of the ledge of the motherfckin bridge, uh
i just want to die, i’m engulfed in suicide,
i just want to die, i just want to die
always hated my life, think i’ll take it tonight
i’m gon fight wit my demons after i get high
no better feelin than that numbness you get
from the endorphins released with each slit
the blood runs fast and thick down my arm
the blade lied when it said it wouldn’t harm
a friend indeed the blade promised me
a friend indeed my demons made me be
my heart flutters and kicks at the thought of dying
my mind is riddled with the urge to keep fighting
so hard to decide on life or death
swear i’ll be the reason why i take my last breath
                                                                          -t.h.

bruised.     -t.h.
knuckles bruised and bleeding
he’s starting to lose all feeling
fueled with rage and sadness
he rampages through the madness
thinking he had it made
she quickly put him in his place
ending the happiness before it started
she cut ties with him, leaving him broken-hearted
confused and startled he doesn’t know to cry or scream
so to numb the pain inside he punches and throws things
the pain outside doesn’t hurt as much as the inside
she left him feeling useless, as she said she’d found someone better this time
moving on will take all the strength he can muster
he feels so stupid because, though she’s moved on, he still deeply loves her.
                                                       bruised.     -t.h.

slip away.      ~t.h.
He slashed his wrists, then slit his throat
He laid down quietly, dying all alone.
As the tears built up and streamed down his face
He smiled brightly and was content with this final mistake.
Knowing that soon he would lose his consciousness
He thought one final prayer with absolute confidence.
“Forgive me, Father; i know I’ve wandered away
“But please, if you’re real, don’t let me stay.”
As his view became darkness and he felt himself slip away,
He realized he’d finally found the numbness he’d wished would’ve replaced the pain.

                                             slip away.      ~t.h.

stay.             -t.h.
holding her close he slipped away
stuck in the moment hoping to stay
no greater feeling he thought
for she was his jackpot
so happy they were at that time
being so intimately intertwined
this is it, she’s the one for me
he thought to himself so merrily
but little did he know she didn’t feel right
and to make it through this would take all his might
as quickly as the happiness came it met its end
soon he’d have to leave so he wouldn’t have to pretend
he’s not okay but now she’s happy with someone else
that’s what matters to him nevertheless
killing him inside he wishes her the best
not realizing she’s leaving him a mess
she carries on reaching pure joy
he lingers behind, destroyed.
                                                     stay.             -t.h.
                                               November 26, 2018
                                                                   at 18:43