words can't show
the scars i have
for hating what I've done to you.
words can't show the
smile lines that you helped me
laugh into existence.
words can't show
the way i uncontrollably crave to
hold your hand
and feel your touch every moment.
words can't show
the times our pinkies have promised
forever.
words can't show
the infinite number of reasons
that i am irreversibly in
love with you.

but ill write you a love letter
everyday
for the rest of my life
if you would believe me
when i say

i love you.

I'm sorry i started crying.
i swear it was the alcohol
poisoning my words
and twisting my emotions.
and the tears were supposed to
tell you i love you
not make you afraid
for the future.
i meant to say i miss you
not that i hate you
but i think the words
just got confused in my mind.
I'm sorry for the mix up
its just that love
and hate seem to really
correlate in my drunken state
of reality.
lets pretend everything i
said was the perfect cocktail
of lovely seduction
convincing you, coaxing you
to reconsider my disastrous being,
take me back tonight
won't you please?
I've waited
and waited
years it seems for this
moment to come and make me
happy, alive, perfect.
you and me.
together.
love or hate
i don't know
or care
all that matters
is that its you
and me
again.

together.

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