In another world, perhaps in another universe
I will be your always
your everyday
your home
your  safe zone.

Too bad that in this world
I was your yesterday
your past tense
your regret

Too bad that in this universe
I was the one before you met The One.

Searched for the clock and it says 7:04

Reminiscing memories I always ponder

Of the guy who made me feel I am the strongest

Then left me shattered,

now I’m on my weakest.

It’s the first time I saw you with her,

She seems so happy, smiling from ear to ear

Both of you are sweet as candy

And I’m here, bittersweet like brandy.

It’s the first time I saw you again after a year

I looked at you and said things in my head I need you to hear

But you only smiled, now I can see you near

How I miss you, and you make my heart beat fast, my dear.

You were the most painful almost

Who is alive but you left many of your ghost

Confused, scared, I knew I’m lost

But that was before, I’m okay I guess, I guess I deserve a toast.

I am more focused on your life than mine back then

Waiting every week to have a glimpse of you again

“It’s okay to wait”, my line every now and then

That’s what you do for love, wait ‘til you can.

What a shame to think it is

How you affect the quality of my life in a bliss

Trust me, you are a bad news with a good view

Yet, why am I always coming back to you?

Smiling while looking at a photograph of you and me

Somehow it feels nostalgic, felt like I’m home again

Tears fell, as the fire kiss our last memoir

Thinking this will be the last and the best, I hope.

“What if he come back?”

Kind of question, I know my answer will ****

All I know is you won’t take that path once more

But dear, if there is a sign, will you ignore?

It is the unbearable kind of pain

Of you who gave up and everyday is just so mundane

For you I’m an another nothing

But for me you’re one of a kind everything.

God knows how I tried

How I tried to save us, though from the start I already died

You know I already did saw  the ending

Of you, my love, just leaving me hanging.

How selfish you are for giving me unmended feelings

Your last words in my head no doubt they are ringing

Selfish enough to give me a proper goodbye

Selfish enough to keep me wondering why.

Nostalgia is running through me

It calls to my mind that once he was my sanctuary

In the back of my mind, I know his hands became my haven

Now I feel remorse for the feelings he has forsaken.

Those lips that I thought forever will crash mine

Those eyes that looks at me like I was the only person in the line

Those hands I crave to hold every time in a long run

And that heart, that once mine and now busy loving the new one.