I cant help it.
being short of breath
Being light headed
Haveing my hands shake so much I need to hold on to
any surface I can reach.

I can't help it
Getting confused
Getting jittery
If I dont get my daily dose of you.

I stutter or mumble if someone asks me about you
I constantly day dream of you.
of every thing you've said to me
Everything we've done together

I cant help feeling
like my souls found its better half.
like ive found my better half

I cant help
anticipating what comes next
Because I know you will be there next to me.

This feels different
More intense
More strong
More real

I've felt this before
The sweety hands
The butterflies
The vivid dreams
But this feels more

This time its more
This time you long for me as much as I long for you
This time your thinking of me as much as I'm thinking of you
And this time
Your loving me as much as I love you.

Its slow and its painful
But its happening
I feel it slowly faiding
I feel it drip out of me little by little
And I cant stop it
I feel you slipping away

Your less in my dreams
Less in my thoughts
Less in my plans for my future
Your less to me

But I don't want to lose you
I don't want to stop dreaming of you
Or stop thinking about you every second of every day
Or stop making plans that I will be with you forever.

How do I stop you from slipping from me.

I'm happy with this
With you
Doing what we do
It might not make sense
But I don't care
I'm having fun
And I know you are too
Just remember all good things
come to an end
So
Just let it be good until it ends.

Do you know this feeling,
It starts in your heart then travels to your mind,
It takes control of every emotion,
Makes you lose all common sense
It makes you heart race but still you feel you could die.

Do you know this feeling,
It leavetou stunned without words but you feel you could scream out loud
Where your heart feels like it being crushed
By your ribs and the harder you try
The less you can breath

Do you know this feeling
it takes control of all your thoughts
Making all the good memories feel like lies
And the more you try to put the pieces together
The more you see they don't belong

Do you know this feeling
It makes your mind scattered,
uncontrolled, obsessed,
Trying to figure out where it all went wrong
Trying to make sense out of it all

Do you know this feeling
It leaves you heart broken,
Your body aching and your soul begging
For everything to stop
Begging your eyes to stop crying
Your mind to stop thinking
And life to stop ending

Do you know this feeling?

I write this book of poems
An expression of feelings,
Only words can explain,
I let out my emotions, completly let go,
Screaming silently, writing violently,
Showing nothing but telling everything.

I write these poems,
A story of my life, of my trails and battles,
A war of a life,

I write to express,
To show, to tell of a life so
important to many yet
Important to none,

I live to write
I write to live.

Would it be weird if I said I would be yours forever.
All you need to do is ask.
I would forget all my dreams and hopes,
Change them for yours.

Would it be wrong if I said I would give my life for you.
I would gladly take a knife to the heart,
It if ment saving yours.

Would it be sad if I told you I long for you,
I vision you here with me
But then reality takes over and you dissapear.

Would it be the end of me,
The end of who I am if I gave my all to you,
Would I vanish if I lived to be with you
Melting into your life.

Would it be true
If I said all I do is for you.