You have no idea how badly I want to find you
The you, the phantom dream I write about
Its so important that I find you, whoever you are
Because I want to fall in love so so hard that I’ll be forever bruised
You are special and I love you so entirely way too much
No more sitting around all alone in my own worthless book because I turned the page and
Tada
You were there and now the series is us and we’re equal
You’ve showed me everything I’ve ever wanted
That everyone I love will understand who I am and trust and forgive me
That you would never want to give up on me for my own flaws and mistakes
That you accept who my family is and promise to give me a better one
That you see past all my idiotic thoughts and crazy talk and love me anyway because making me happy is so much more important to you
That you trust me and want to be close to me
That you need me
God please say that you need me
That I am the girl you thought could never exist
That we are one.
One flesh. One heart. One life.
That you’d choose us even when things are terrible
I hope you catch me taking a picture with my friend and your heart catches on something when you notice my right eyebrow raises higher than my left when I smile
Because I’d do the same for you. If you really wanted me too.