I am a mystery of the earth
Created by the imagination of children
and yet I am real
The world teaches me to be questioned
by those who don't believe
turtles show me wisdom
sharks, survival
I hide like an octopus, blending into my surroundings
to keep me out of the naked eye
***** teach me how to defend myself
and whales teach me patiences
I travel with dolphins, and have fun on the beach
I appear to humans rarely, but only for their minds to wonder what they have seen
I live at ease but often in fear, because the world has changed through out the years
I don't know where Im going, but I know I am the only Mermaid left to keep the world wondering.

Junior High
The worst and the best years of my life
we laughed, we cried, we were connected, we were one
you *helped me

Seventh Grade
she was there
the girl everyone loved
the girl everyone wanted to be
I devoted my life to her
made her feel better about herself
risked everything to make her happy
my grades,
my family,
my dignity
all because of her
my so called "Best Friend"

I did everything I could to be like her
I stopped eating
I stopped listening to my parents
I stopped caring

everything was for her

Then...

She ruined me

"YOU *****! DONT EVER TALK TO ME!" were the last things she said to me

I died inside
I was finished

She told everyone lies about me
made up stories about me

Id walk down the halls and everyone would step aside as if I was crap
****
Id ask a simple question
only to be responded with eyes filled with hate
disgust

those eyes haunted me

Id cry myself to sleep

I shut everything off
my mom
my dad
my brothers
my sister

my self

I was an empty body with no soul
like a pen with no ink
useless and unwanted

but you...

you saw through the lies
you didn't see the girl that was unwanted
you saw a girl that was lonely
a girl that was troubled
a girl who needed a friend

you were there for me

I showed you my internal scars
you showed me yours

across your wrist

how could someone so beautiful do that to herself?
the pain you must of felt
you told me your story
I told you mine

you defended me
you were there for me

YOU HELPED ME
and I will never forget that

we know each other inside out
we know each others secrets
HELL! we wrote fan fiction together!

I want that again

we are learning how to live without each other
cause you'll be leaving me soon
and it hurts every time I think about it

But for now I just want to be with you
I want to laugh like before
I want to have our inside jokes be ours again
I want you to be honest
I want you to tell me when I **** up

Because your my best friend

my comadre

you saved me....

The stage is bright like a candle
people cheering, screaming their name
my friend and I squeeze our way through
once we get a decent view of the side of the stage
we dance without a care
as I twirl
a boy
taking pictures of the Marley brothers
catches my eye
he looked majestic just standing there
I could feel my heart pounding
my friend grabs my hand to move closer to the stage
...to him...
we're standing right next to him
"Do you guys want to stand in front of me" he says followed by the most beautiful smile I've ever seen
"If you don't mind"
"Not at all beautiful"
I blush and move
Music blasting everywhere
I feel free...
the lady next to me trips and falls, causing me to bump him
his warm hands wrap around my waist perfectly
"you ok?" he says to me
"yeah I'm fine, thank you for catching me"
"Anytime"
as I looked at him, his eye's, so blue like summer skies, everything disappeared.
"come on lets dance!" my friend yells, unaware of whats going on.
he smiles and lets go
as I danced with her, I found myself turning to look at him again
his eyes closed, letting the music flow through him
"Should I dance with him? or Should I just forget about it?"
Suddenly a huge wave of bravery runs through my body
**** IT!
I grab his hands and pull them towards me, he didn't hesitate as he wrapped his arms around me once more
and we danced
I then knew that this was the boy who had stolen my heart, the boy I wanted to be with right then and there
it was perfect
he was perfect
"what your name?" I ask
"Jake"....
Jake, even his name was perfect
"whats yours?"
"Maggie"
"its beautiful, your beautiful"
butterflies were flying in my stomach
after several songs my friend tells me we had to go
I look at Jake, "I need to go"
we stand still, he holds me tighter, not wanting to let go
"come on, we need to go"
"Will I ever see you again?" he says,
I could see it in his eyes that he was hurting inside
"I don't know, maybe"
he takes a deep breath, and slowly lets go of me
I hold his hand "Ill never forget about you"
as I start to walk away, his pulls me in and kisses me
and in that moment I knew this wouldn't be the last time Id see him
we stop and embrace each other
as I slowly pulled myself away, our hands still holding on to whats left of us
I finally let go, and walk away........


I lost a piece of my heart that day, and never got it back
but I can feel it beating when I think of *HIM

you were supposed be my distraction from reality

not the reason to question my morality

you have me looking back and forth

making me question what it's worth

you make it hard for me to think

I can't even put this on ink

"Oh baby I want to make you mine"

sending shivers up my spine

you don't know how much

I've been craving your touch

kisses on my neck

even if it's just a peck

smiling, with that twinkle in your eye

and in my head I'm thinking "why?"

why me?

how could someone as amazing as he

could see, well me?

all I know is that I don't want this to end

because I don't want to pretend

like I never pressed **send