#tellme
This moment,
when all the song lyrics direct
my thoughts towards you.
All the lyrics that are supposed
to remind me of someone dear
Is this how love feels?
Overwhelming yet never enough
the catharsis of felicities one could feel
the avalanche of gratitude felt.
When all the movie scenes make a picture of you
when all the characters of books are me and you.
Is this how love feels?
How I'd give anything for those lips of
yours to curve into a playful smile.
For that smile of yours to reach all the way
to your squinting eyes.
To wish all the happiness to this boy.
This boy I'd never let escape from my heart.
and when he holds my cheeks in his hands,
looks me directly in my eyes.
As if they could be read.
As if there are mountains and skies beyond them.
As if there's a desire to decipher all of me.
But,
Is this how love feels?
This boy,
no matter how hard I try,
I wont be enough for.
This boy,
who deserves so much more.
who means the world to me.
But,
Is this how love feels?
Painful that I'll be never enough
trying to be a better fit.
No, the best fit.
Trying to see myself through his eyes.
While he tells me that he loves me
just the way I am..
Oct 25, 2025
Oct 25, 2025 at 1:48 PM UTC
O tunnel of firs,
tied with rain,
were you watching too,
when my parapet
ate a hock of indigo
at seven, and, still hungry,
gobbled a dull star?
Were you watching
from cold roots,
little grove, when
something unfaithful
happened? A curling lip
received a sacrament
of apple cider vinegar
under clouds of hospital gauze.
O firs, you never tell me anything,
too proud by half in your
gowns of needles.
That's alright - I'll lay until
the night slips over the line,
and imagine a kind of morning
where I have nothing to tell you either.
Jan 19, 2021
Jan 19, 2021 at 9:04 AM UTC
I want to know why.
I want to know how.
I want to know what's on your mind right now.
I want to know what you've seen.
I want to know your pain
So maybe someday I can relieve
Some of the pressure
That suffocates your brain.
Dec 22, 2019
Dec 22, 2019 at 8:50 PM UTC
"I'm too afraid to die but in too much pain to want to live.
So tell me, what do you do when you've given all you feel you have to give?
"Just live."
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 7:22 PM UTC
tell me
who crosses
your mind
when you are
laying awake
listening to
your favorite songs?
whose smile
flashes before
your eyes?
and
whose eyes
meet you
in your dreams?
Mar 3, 2020
Mar 3, 2020 at 5:21 PM UTC
what must I do
what can I say
how should I approach you
what would be the outcome
for I desire you in my life
I want to you I want you
but I cant have you
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 12:03 PM UTC
Tell me you don't love me
Tell me that you're ashamed
Tell me the things I need
To make me walk away
Even if you want me
Even if I may
Don't take my hand
And beg me to stay
Because I will
Forever remain
Oct 20, 2019
Oct 20, 2019 at 8:12 PM UTC
Tell me what to do
So I can do the opposite
Tell me what I want
So I know I don’t want it
Tell me what to say
I’ll find my voice another way
Tell me what’s right for me
I’ll find out what left for me
I don’t know what I like
Until I know what I don’t like
Tell me what to think
What to drink, what to wear
Tell me that I don't care,
That I can’t spare the time
Tell me what I don’t need
And where not to go
Tell me what I don’t want -
I really need to know
NCL September 2019
Sep 14, 2019
Sep 14, 2019 at 5:07 PM UTC
I liked that night, we were flying
As the black cloaked your stars, you had your eyes closed
Sleep-deprived and half dead I thought of loving you
It seemed foolish
On the ground, it felt dizzy
like you spun me around
Friendly smiles were small
Everything was so dead I didn’t think of you
I don’t know the day where I thought of it as more
It wasn’t a day but a memory, a rememory
The buttons were pushed before I was ready
Anxiously I worked and worked and acted like your honey didn’t matter to me
It didn’t, I convince myself even now
But the moment came in capitals
You thought I was unattainable
The breaks were pressed by those closest
Of course they were, it’s what they’re there for
I waited and waited and waited and I got tiny answers
I got fragments, particles, portions
I never got it all
I still don’t have it all
Is this you
Is this my body?
Worse, is it my mind
Tell me now, if I ask too much
Tell me now, if communication won’t be our thing
Tell me now If we won’t be our own thing
But just tell me
Tell me anything
Because I need to be told
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 8:43 PM UTC
You see, I tried to tell him
about that night
"No" I say, "he didn't hurt me"
and no I didn't say no
but I said things like
"That's enough" and "I don't like that"
And yes at first I had wanted to
And no I wasn't so drunk I couldn't consent
But I turned my legs and offered something else
he didn't want that...
I faked it to make it stop because I didn't know what to else to say
I laughed about it with my friends because I was trying to get
another reaction.
I was trying to ask someone if it was ok...
I told my priest and he said I was asking for it
I told a pastor and she said "we all make mistakes"
I told him because I wanted to explain...why I didn't like that one thing...
I never told myself. Because I didn't want to hear what I had to say.
and that
that
is
the
problem
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 2:56 PM UTC
Why are you keeping secrets from me?
Wasn't i the person you could trust?
What is going so wrong that you don't wanna tell me?
I am so confused
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 5:24 AM UTC
Don’t tell me
You are late
Tell me, I will wait
Don’t tell me
In next life
Tell me, forever
Don’t tell me
If, but, almost
Tell me, whatsoever
Don't tell me
I will stay silent
Tell me, how is this whisper
Don’t tell me
Good bye
Tell me, let’s get blessed
Don't tell me
I'm sorry
Tell me, that's great
Dec 19, 2018
Dec 19, 2018 at 12:34 PM UTC
"are you really in love with me?"
"of course, I really really love you, babe."
then, why doesn't it seem like you do?
because no—not really. you're just in love with the way I always make you feel. like you're the Sirius among my constellation of stars.
because you are.
you just.. you just love my words. you love the way I pour my feelings for you through my poems. you love the way I arrange words and phrases to cheer you up on your hard times. you love the way I appreciate everything you do.
you love the fact that you're special to someone—to me. but you neither give me a feedback nor treat me the way I treat you because you know that I'll always be there for you, whatever it takes.
— of course you are my Sirius,
but darling you're shining too bright,
and I'm burned.
Jul 11, 2018
Jul 11, 2018 at 7:49 AM UTC
#
Its been
Days, weeks, months
Since you left me behind
Left me head over heels in "love" with you
You had me thinking that i knew you so well
That I was the best thing in your life
That I was the only thing that you trusted
You had me thinking that you loved me
that you truly did care for me
that our countless messages meant something
that our phone calls every night weren't just out of boredom
You had me thinking that I was worth something
that for once I could be somebodies that person
that every time you walked me to class
and every time you waited for me at the end of the day was because you needed me
I want to scream that you used me
that you lied and it all meant nothing
that you manipulated and stayed cause I was the only one there
that I wasn't the one who made myself believe something that isin't even there
Its been so long since we talked or seen each other
All the reality and words of what people say all start to make sense
I trusted you with everything, took your word above all
But I wonder if that was the right choice to make
If I should have trusted my other friends after all
But your gone now, Theres no need to stress
All the words and things no longer hold any meaning
You don't care about me, You don't even bother to text
My hollowed out heart doesn't bother anymore
Not after its been broken to it's very core
Sometimes I close my eyes at night
All I can see is your cheerful face
Grinning and laughing, as you did when we were friends
The memories we shared, things like watching our show together, falling asleep in the middays sun and playing video games till we finally won.
And I know that in these moments I was truly happy
I was content, in love and I wished for nothing more.
But as I lay awake I can't help but wonder
Did you really not love me, did you find me a bore?
Was it all really a lie?
Did you truly not care?
Was I nothing more than just a person who happened to be there?
Cause I loved you, loved you so much that it ******* hurt
I blindly gave you everything till I was completely stripped bare
So do enlighten me
Do tell me blunt and clear
Tell me your true feelings
For the whole world to hear
I've been suffering in silence
Not allowing myself to shed a tear
I refused to believe that my love meant nothing
The very thought fills my soul with fear
Tell me so I can cry
Tell me so I can finally move on
Tell me the truth behind it all
Tell me so that I can stop loving you
Cause in my heart you are still
My beloved pedestal boy
#
May 30, 2018
May 30, 2018 at 8:52 AM UTC
What is it between us?
Is there a spark we don't see?
Can it really be there if
Neither one of us wants to see?
When I look at you
I see nothing but star,
And endless possibilities.
Your smile brings me joy
Your presence makes me happy,
All I want to do is be near you
Can it be love?
Something so simple as this
Is it really this easy
To feel for something this way?
Being around yo makes my heart happy,
Skipping an extra beat as I dream about you.
I want to see where this goes,
Why don't you just tell me how you feel?
Are we on the same page?
Do you think about me,
Even on the coldest of nights?
Do you wish you were with me,
When times get rough?
I want nothing more,
Than to be in your arms,
Take in your scent,
And feel your heart.
One day I hope you tell me how you feel.
Just don't take too long...
I'll wait if I have to,
It'll teach me patience...
By remember I can't wait forever
You are what I want,
But I hope I am for you
Someday soon... Someday maybe,
You'll build up the courage,
And just tell me
Apr 14, 2018
Apr 14, 2018 at 4:40 AM UTC
Tell me that you need me
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you want me
Tell me that you miss me
Don't tell me that I'm useless
Don't tell me that you hate me
Don't tell me that to leave
Don't tell me that you don't think of me
Please tell me to stay
Jan 8, 2018
Jan 8, 2018 at 7:51 AM UTC
*Tell me
The first time you met
How your stomach spinned
How the butterflies danced
Tell me
The first time you talked
How you fidgeted on your own
How you stuttered with every word
Tell me
The first time you touched
How your senses aroused
How your heart wanting to burst
Tell me
The first time you dated
How the billion of stars aligned
How the lovely moon smiled
Tell me
The first time you kissed
How time momentarily stopped
How magical, ephemeral it felt
Tell me
The first time he forgot
How betrayed you felt
How petty it seemed
Tell me
The first drop of tear
How you tried to wipe it away
How you acted okay
Tell me
The first time he lied
How hard you cried all night
How you forgave the next light
Tell me
The first time you fight
How he screamed so loud
How you hide like a child
Tell me
The first time he tried to break up
How your heart almost stopped
How you shamelessly begged
Tell me
The first time he walked away
How you cried in despair
How heart broken you've been
Tell me
The first sign of fading away
How the fire slowly loses it’s spark
How the story unfolds a twisted plot
Now tell me
How nights were so long, sleepless
How tears were almost blood
How dumb and numb and doomed it felt
Now tell me
How you handled the pain
How you remain “in-sane”
How you stitched every broken part
Now tell me
How time has nothing to do with it
How moving on was so hard
A state of mind, a choice
Now tell me
The moment you let go
The moment you forgive
The moment you walked away
-of memories
-the people specially him
-from the past, the pain
Now tell me
How freeing it felt
How the burden was lifted
How the heart was relieved
Now tell me
The moment you smiled again
The wicked grin “i’m over it”
The moment you’re living again
Now tell me, after him
The first smile
The first life
Ahh, much sweeter, better, genuine
Now tell me
That you learned a great deal
That you are stronger than before
That “first love” will always be special
Now that you’ve told me your story
I know, i know, you’re over it..*
Nov 21, 2017
Nov 21, 2017 at 12:51 AM UTC
Are you fatigued?
Do you have irritable bowel syndrome?
Are there irreconcilable differences in your life?
Are you Homophobic...
"I climb 1,576 stairs"
"But I have a lot of gay friends"
once we've reached the top,
there are no two quarters for the lens.
What's driving us, this feeling, this wander?
Could you imagine,
If kind was ****** compassion.
Could you imagine,
If kind has no reaction.
What a day, what a day, what a day, what a day;
it will be.
Like children lost in corn mazes.......
filled with glee.
Hollow are those shallow times,
don't you
forget
about me.
What a day, what a day, what a day, what a day;
it will be.
Luckily those prickly vines, are fading fantastically.
_TRF
sometimebforehalloween_
Oct 12, 2017
Oct 12, 2017 at 11:09 PM UTC
Hey, can you do me a favor?
Let me know once it stopped, okay?
Tell me.
Tell me no matter how much it may hurt me,
tell me once you stop being in love with me.
Let me know when your heart no longer whispers my name.
Tell it to my face,
that it’s over.
I don’t want to hear it from someone else,
please at least have the guts to tell me
that you don’t love me anymore.
I know it sounds pessimistic,
but can you blame me?
We live in a very unpredictable world;
one thing can turn to another within a span of a second.
I don’t want to deal with a heartbreak because I ended up believing that love is all about hearts and flowers. And that love can withstand anything. I don’t believe in forever.
I believe in the now.
See, I can’t promise you these superficial things and vague whatnots.
I can only give you what I have now.
And I don’t expect you to promise me the stars and the moon,
no, don’t give me forever.
Don’t give me something you don’t have.
I don’t want to hope for something that may end up nothing.
Save me from the heartache of believing in love too much.
The sad thing is that we can’t even promise our tomorrow.
We don’t hold the universe in our hands,
we don’t know what will happen next,
we are no seer.
So, here I am, promising you my now
and only asking you the same.
So tell me when you don’t love me anymore.
I want to hear it from your lips with your own voice.
I want to hear the same voice that told me iloveyous,
telling me the idontloveyouanymore.
Tell me once you are slipping away,
but I won’t promise that I will not try to keep you,
because I will,
I am only a human too.
Promise me that no matter how broken I become,
you will walk away,
because you don’t love me anymore.
I don’t want you staying because of pity,
you can walk away with the memories:
I’ll keep what I need,
and you walk away with yours.
I won’t blame you, no, I really won’t.
I will cry, but all the same,
don’t comfort me.
Let me mourn the death of a love I once had.
So,
If ever this shall end…
Please tell me and have the decency to
break my heart properly.
Jan 28, 2017
Jan 28, 2017 at 8:15 AM UTC
tell me im crazy
tell me im just jealous
tell me i dont deserve him
tell me hes not my type
tell me im not his type
tell me tell me
tell me anything
except for "you love him"
Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 7:53 PM UTC
Can you tell me how it feels
To not care about a thing anymore?
Can you tell me how it is
That you seem so confident and not so insecure?
Can you tell me how to live
Without negativity by being positive?
Cause I can't see
The same light that you seem to see~
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 11:04 PM UTC
How could I keep myself away from admiring you so deeply, when the breathe of my heart is dying to know you deeply?
How could I run away from this disturbed emotion, when you to me is a beautiful distraction?
How could I make myself believe that I am only daydreaming, when every words you say my heart is pounding?
How could I end this reverie?
From your beautiful soul, I cannot flee.
-Steph Dionisio, October 08, 2015
Oct 8, 2015
Oct 8, 2015 at 5:44 AM UTC
*But if you don't want me anymore
If your plans doesn't include me, no more
Please leave a word,
Don't keep me guessing
It hurts so much,
I need your touch.*
Sep 26, 2015
Sep 26, 2015 at 12:39 PM UTC