#shocked
a dry leaf on a cemented ground, me chasing you all around, is really everything fine?
Shocked to the core
i want it, i need it, it’s not
come and go
come and go
come and go
come and go,
it’s
stay.
entangled legs and intertwined fingers, velvet sheets and sweet lies
searching for you between atoms and skin cracks, you were here, right here, right now, where did you go?
white noise, the crackle of static, rain on me, Joji, the ocean between us, darkness surrounds u-- me.
Sep 3, 2020
Sep 3, 2020 at 1:16 PM UTC
I love you more than hate myself
The worst thing is you do too
Don't know what you see in me
I am so shocked that you do
Jan 26, 2020
Jan 26, 2020 at 6:09 AM UTC
I had a conversation with my mom last night. Grandpa is not well, she told me. He's dying, is what I heard.
So am I, I thought.
I ate dinner with my friends and their kids tonight. I needed 2 years to heal from one of my first break-ups, she told me.
So do I, I thought.
I screamed at God or you or maybe both tonight. You're an ***** I yelled until my sobs cut my screams off.
So am I, I thought.
I wept in a friend's bed tonight. He's not making healthy choices, she told me.
So am I, I thought.
I watched the stars and sat outside while I cussed out God and you both tonight. You lied to me and I needed you, I sobbed.
So do I.
May 29, 2019
May 29, 2019 at 1:35 AM UTC
We were across the room, but our eyes found each other.
You said hello, and then I shivered.
I danced through the night with your arms around me.
Fingers entwined like you want to keep me.
With your warm hands, you gave my cheek a gentle caress.
As I feel the music within my body, I closed my eyes while we locked lips.
This is the feeling that I've been longing for.
The feeling that makes my heart tremble.
How can you feel so loved with a guy you just met?
From a guy whom you know you will never see again?
May 25, 2019
May 25, 2019 at 1:44 PM UTC
Yesterday I felt good about myself
I thought I looked good in that dress
Today I saw a video of me
And my self esteem went down, I'm down on my knee
I'm working so hard to maintain,
A good physic my self to entertain
My self to be proud of
My self to not be worn off
I count calories every day
A limit I set to always obey
A workout regim to never look pass
Only walking, not taking the bus
I find my legs so thick why?
I find my arms so flabby, No I deny
I'm gonna try to push some more forward
To not give up on this trip, only onward
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 4:30 AM UTC
They say three can keep a secret, if two of them are dead
Secrets could be simple, if they weren't the type worth being spread
You can bury secrets, I'm sure you're shocked to hear it's true.
But dont dream you'll finish digging, until they first have buried you.
Oct 27, 2018
Oct 27, 2018 at 5:48 PM UTC
New place,
New pace.
I'm now ready to face
My new race.
Now I've set my game
I don't care about fame
I wont let anything stop me
I will be who I want to be.
The atmosphere suddenly changed...
The air feels strange....
My heart starts to beat fast
I can't believe this, I saw you at last.
I didn't saw that one comming...
About you, I know nothing...
Meeting you again was unexpected,
Being in the same school was not intended...
Time has passed...
But my feelings still last,
I promise I never felt lust
I can assure you, you can give me your trust.
This is so stupid!!
With you, I got hit hard by cupid...
I don't think this is puppy love...
I guess to you, I truly am inlove.
Im sorry,
There is nothing to worry.
Just stay off my sight,
For you, my feelings, I will stop it and fight.
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 10:27 AM UTC
if something feels wrong
then it is wrong
you & me
never felt wrong
Feb 23, 2018
Feb 23, 2018 at 4:32 PM UTC
Shocked
By the passing’s of perfume on a winters day
Wow, not why
Because you used to wear that scent
Nov 27, 2017
Nov 27, 2017 at 12:30 PM UTC
a
chap
at
a
poetry
site
asked
a
poetess
to
send
him
her
silk
*******
well
his
request
didn't
go
down
too
well
she
was
shocked
by
the
audaciousness
of
him
wanting
her
tail
coverings
the
thought
did
cross
her
mind
that
he
was
of
the
cross-dressing
kind
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 6:14 AM UTC
I am shocked, shocked I tell you
Stunned is what I am!
I can't complete a sentence
Without a stutter or a stumble
My hand is shaking
There's tears in my eyes
I can't stop thinking in my mind
So many words are cluttered
In my brain
In my heart and soul
I want to let those words out
Cry them, scream them
But I can't
I can't without the hate
I can't do without the opposition
I can't without the homophobia
And the words I cannot repeat
To the ears of the youth
The result of that is sadness
Sadness for me
For my spirit and my sanity
They think I'm crazy
Nutty, mad, bananas
But I'm not alone
I'm sure others are mad
Maybe madder than me
Probably sipping tea
Coffee, water or milk
Maybe eating what I eat
Maybe saying what I say
I'm only able to express them
Explain them all here
No one hates
No one fights
No one laughs
No one taunts
We cry the same tears
We speak with the same voice
We have different opinions
And express them differently
But we have similar thoughts....
Oh!
There goes my wondering mind
Shocked again by what I thought
Stunned, yes that's what I am
Oct 12, 2017
Oct 12, 2017 at 4:10 AM UTC
Just yesterday you were a 17 year old girl,
with brown eyes and a smile that could light up a room.
You were beautiful.
You had so much potential.
Now you are a memory.
You're parents' hearts shattered,
your whole family is wondering why,
your friends are in tears,
and your boyfriend is left in pieces...
I don't think you intended to cause so much pain.
What were you thinking,
when you decided to leave it all behind.
Did you think you wouldn't be missed?
Did you think no one would notice or care?
Beautiful girl,
people who you never even met are crying for you.
So many hearts are shattered.
The little town you lived in is in complete shock.
You were so young.
You were so bright.
No one understands why you did this.
Everyone's broken.
No one knows how to handle this.
I know you didn't mean to break the hearts of those closest to you,
but did you not realize how loved you were?
Did you not think of that,
before you decided to end your life?
Feb 1, 2017
Feb 1, 2017 at 1:05 PM UTC
And I stood there
Surprised, at what he had just said.
He had failed to remember...
The Promise of fulfilling other promises.
Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 9:47 AM UTC
I come to thee in a time of need
Asking to help make the darkness flee
God forbid if we will be
I know my wrongs but you chose not to see
At your boiling point you would say
All I asked was for you to show me the way
Leave the darkness and wishes will come as it may
Now i might not have another day
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 11:35 PM UTC
How much you hurt
How hard you cry
There will always be people
Who are not on your side
They will hate and blame
They don't understand
What it feels like to let go
Of another dead hand
And when you step out
To breathe for awhile
Wipe your mascara
And put on a smile
People like that
Never will they know
How much it stings
To have to let go...
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 4:58 PM UTC
Have you ever been in a bad situation?
Where you are stuck with indecision?
It’s not because of fear of the situation
You are actually shocked at what just happened
Nov 27, 2014
Nov 27, 2014 at 10:51 AM UTC
A stunned silence
One small gasp breaks the quiet
Tears trace all faces
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 1:42 PM UTC
You've watched her crumble
Gradually, and then
It was like a downpour
Of pain and confusion
You've seen her drown
Her sorrows in alcohol
Blood thickening with the heat of it all
Thinning with each drink
You've let her fall
From heights you never reached
Her soul crushed
Her heartbeat fleeting
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 5:02 PM UTC