#realtionship
I am sitting in a waiting room,
waiting with a heavy heart,
ready to explode.
I am sitting in a waiting room
with misty eyes,
staring at a door
yet to be opened.
All my rise and downfall,
my happiness and sorrow,
depend on that person,
a stranger, yet somehow.
A single word from them
becomes a gamble, a bet:
an angel or a demon
deciding my fate.
At last, the door opens.
I see a shadow
walking toward me…
But in that very moment,
another dark shadow
pulls me away
before I can see.
Now I see my body
lying on the floor,
while my beloved waits for me,
a goodbye I can’t give anymore.
Apr 8
Apr 8, 2026 at 10:09 AM UTC
Boy was he oblivious.
Sure, I was dense,
but at least I could admit it.
I could also admit that
I was a little hurt
each time he
seemingly
chose to ignore my pokes and prods.
I get to listen to him go on and on about this one girl-
who I don’t even care that much about-
and he gets to go on and on about her.
Obviously, I’ve got to be there for him.
Everyone should be there for the ones they love. But ****
does it hurt when the ones you love
jab
at the heart that throbs for them.
I refused to let the ride home be silent.
“Did you want some ice cream or something to make you feel better?”
A groan of a reply.
I didn’t bother to give him a glance.
I squeezed the steering wheel and kept my eyes glued to the road,
though I’d rather they be glued to him.
“You should come over,”
I spoke, though it was almost
drowned out by the whiny screech of my brakes.
I took the opportunity to look at him.
He did not meet my eyes.
Instead, his arms were over his chest and he stared at the window at some old car wash
on the right side of my Toyota.
“*I think you could benefit from a break
thinking*
about that girl.”
“I don’t know, man,”
a sentence at last.
“I have homework probably.”
The car ****** forward as the light turned green, breaking my companion’s eye contact with
the gas station extension.
My eyes lingered on him for a moment before
I scratched the back of my neck.
“C’mon, it’s Friday,”
I urged.
“You deserve a chance to take your mind off
that girl.”
He threw his arms out.
“She’s not just some girl!
She’s an absolute beauty who
barely knows I exist! Like I said,
angel fish,”
he gestured to the air to the right of him,
“Sea urchin,”
the same hand now met his chest on the “sea”.
“I,”
I shook my head.
“I think you give that
b#tch
too much credit, you know?
She called you slurs…”
I brought the car to a cruising speed when I noticed we were alone on the road.
“And, ‘cause, y’know. I think sea urchins are pretty f#cking awesome.”
I snuck a glance at him.
He was staring at his lap;
his brows were knitted and his eyes looked as if they would fall out of the sockets.
“…I think I’m a sea urchin as well.”
He snorted and sat up straight to look at me. “Really?”
He smiled,
dimples showing.
Good.
“You can’t be a sea urchin too;
you’re too perfect to be one.”
His head of brown hair shook and
one of his matching brows raised.
“Perfect?”
I grinned.
“This guy?”
I brought a hand off the steering wheel and ****** a thumb towards my chest.
I was a careful enough driver to
still be focused on the road.
At first glance you might think I’m some sort of reckless delinquent
who only cares about
getting girls and
getting drunk.
That couldn’t be further from the truth.
“Well, maybe not perfect,”
he smiled towards me, rolling his eyes.
I let my gaze meet his before snapping back to the street.
“But definitely perfect enough..”
“So,”
I mumbled and scratched the back of my neck,
“Ice cream?”
Feb 14, 2025
Feb 14, 2025 at 8:53 AM UTC
you took the
easy route with
her
instead
of the long
way home
with me
Jul 23, 2023
Jul 23, 2023 at 11:47 AM UTC
Our egos were bigger than our hearts. Our pride bigger than our minds. We couldnt take a loss yet neither of us won. Trust became an issue but only after i was honest with you. Fighting caused so many problems only because we couldnt solve them. At a loss not knowing what else to do. I ran away hoping to get through to you. I never wanted to be away this long. I just wanted you to say you need me and to come back home. But like i said once before, our egos are to big and we let our pride take all control. Afraid to lose we couldnt give in. But you tell me is this realy a win?
Nov 12, 2022
Nov 12, 2022 at 5:47 AM UTC
Closer to you, than at a distance
Familiar attraction, with no resistance
Close yet away, and come what may
Believe this LOVE, with ever-persistence
Intamacy unknown, with pure anticipation
Hyper-lustful cravings, wild temptation
A realm alone, and all our own
Transcending the most exalted imagination!
Playful affection, young love to renew
Such rejuvenating feeling, pure and true
Happy with our choice, and to hear it in your voice
Makes me feel like a love-bird, "coo coo coo..."
Oh there may be tough times ahead
Especially given the lives we've both led
dreams of you shall get me through
Thoughts of life, home, and a loving bed...
Kasey I promise:
Within each other shall we so heal
Ourselves once more, shall we both feel
Free and clear, no more fear my dear
If only for once, we do this fore eral.
Jul 21, 2020
Jul 21, 2020 at 9:44 PM UTC
One heart meets another.
They begin beating together in time
That sense so new
So many things to do
In perfect rhythm... Perfect rhyme...
One mind encounters another.
They begin to search and explore
Thoughts, ideas and proclivity
Perspective, opinion and tendency
Similarities and differences to adore.
One person touches another.
Electrifying each person inside
A feeling for the ages
Defying the wisest sages
Deep within the soul now resides.
Two meet and verily become one.
Never too late... Never too soon
A love is created
In every way related
in this moment, perfect... atune..
Jul 5, 2020
Jul 5, 2020 at 7:38 PM UTC
I find myself looking for you around in other people,
When I walk past that door, Or, through the places unknown,
I see two people exchanging a glance, or kissing good-byes,
And I think of you a little more, and look at myself with a sigh!
I find you in places I thought I could be alone.
Moments that I thought brought me peace,
movies that I saw to clear my head,
All of these now only causes me distress.
But this is the ***** truth of life,
We'll be together forever was just a lie.
I know I'm broken badly,
It's all gonna be okay,
Gradually it is all going to be fine.
You left me in shock by not giving me any time,
I still can listen to your voice in my head,
And the smell of your skin makes me feel sad,
Future you showed to me, it all feels like a dream,
The only thing being it’s her in it now, and not me.
I keep telling myself these days,
Just give yourself some time,
Sit back, relax and sip the juice of the lime.
I too shall find the peace in my life,
The one that I can perfectly call mine,
But for now, I guess I need to move on,
Why cry for someone who's already gone.
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 4:01 AM UTC
I think you might be,
My favourite part of me.
Or the worst, who knows?
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 12:10 PM UTC
happy valentine’s day baby she says in a sleepy whisper
its the kind of whisper that travels through your ears and traces the magnetic pathways that live in your skull making road maps out of memories
and i watch as she rises like the sun from the bed sheets, stretches her naked arms toward a sky that she paints each morning with her smile
and i smile too
happy valentine’s day baby
i got you a hurricane, listen you can hear it in my chest, when your eyes meet mine
is it warm? can you feel it too? there’s a storm brewing inside me and it’s the kind that breaks the sky, sends rain down in torrents to an earth that’s so desperate for a drink
it brings life back to rosebuds and it’s you
and when the rain has passed and the ground is thick with mud you still linger
a wisp in that after rain air all clean and new
happy valentine’s day baby
i got you the sun and i wrapped its honeycomb glow around my hands
do you feel it when they touch you? because you’ve been making glass sculptures and gifting them to me in poems
and when i look into them i see your reflection it’s as if you reside in everything beautiful that my eyes notice, every flower petal is a mirror of your smile
and no i’ve never been astute
but you’d be blind to not see the beauty that lives within you.
May 25, 2018
May 25, 2018 at 7:04 PM UTC
When you're born you have a song,
That others cannot hear.
For music they don't understand,
Falls deaf upon their ear.
So, when you find somebody,
Who can hear you loud and clear,
Keep them close inside your heart,
And hold them very dear.
Mar 12, 2018
Mar 12, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
You
captured my whole world in a coy,
single
simple
smile
A lighthearted grin conveying no meaning
nor intentions, nor yearning,
but the purest of joy
and though that's not an offer
all I want now is to join in that little happy world,
leave mine behind,
so simple, pure, so naive...
how we exchanged nothing else but a simple banter
...
but if you'll let everything unfold,
with me, even if it doesn't work out, with a memory so fond,
I would be contented enough in make believe
Jan 24, 2018
Jan 24, 2018 at 5:19 AM UTC
Hold my hand,
But push me under,
Still my beating heart,
I can't hold my breath,
Don't leave my side,
But **** me quickly,
Just make me drown,
Make your peace today,
The water fills my lungs,
I'll slip into the empty,
And in your hands,
I'll die by them as well.
Dec 8, 2017
Dec 8, 2017 at 1:48 AM UTC
I wear a ring on the fourth finger
I get asked who I'm married too.
I say A ring on any finger is what you make it to be.
A ring on my wedding finger does not mean i am married
Marriage is trust, love, committed to each other, vulnerability, no secrets, friendship and so much moreb. Marriage is promise to always be there no matter what, until death. So why is it that its called the wedding finger when indeed it could possibly be called the promise finger because are we not promising to spend the rest of our lives together. Even if one is not in a relationship with that person does that now make wearing a ring on that finger forbidden?
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 10:05 PM UTC
Where will
that leave us?
Dark room
bed unmade
curtains closed
radio from a far room
Chopin stuff
is this it?
no more us?
Smell of bodies
two cups
with coffee dregs
standing on
the bedside cabinets
did she do
better than I?
that time in Paris
when we first
made love
a moth large and brown
flew in the window
in the night
it was just
the once
*** stains lie
on the bed sheet
this is
the end of us
the Chopin ends
voices speak
in an undertone
I love you
lips touch skin
of a shoulder
a Mozart piece begins
on the radio
in that far room
there can be
no us
birds sing outside
the window
where will
it leave us?
Indentation
on both pillows
fair hairs lay
forget?
forgive?
She draws the curtains
light enters
he stands beside her
again shall we?
A man walks
the pavement
a cyclist rides by
room in light
day has come
goodbye night.
Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 4:05 AM UTC
how the **** am I to write about anything, anyone else
when you're still the only thing that clouds my brain?
I feel fine most nights but when you cross my mind,
I'm paralyzed
Feb 1, 2017
Feb 1, 2017 at 7:57 PM UTC
I’m a cry wolf
wrapped in steel wool.
I fell head over heels
for a part of the whole.
© Matthew Harlovic
Mar 13, 2016
Mar 13, 2016 at 8:43 PM UTC
To my bloomed beauty,
rival roses reach for your
garden, not your heart.
© Matthew Harlovic
Feb 22, 2016
Feb 22, 2016 at 1:58 PM UTC
MAYBE I DESTROY EVERY REALTIONSHIP THAT I HAVE NOW BECAUSE WHEN I WAS YOUNG I WAS TAUGHT THAT YELLING MEANS LOVING
Feb 4, 2016
Feb 4, 2016 at 9:08 PM UTC
You've stacked the deck in your favor,
but if even one card shifts
the entire house comes crashing down.
Hitting as the dealer holds
you've folded, revealing your hand.
What a Joker you've become!
The bluff has fallen on deaf ears.
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 5:00 AM UTC
Perfection
Is the mirror image
Of a soul
The same
But opposite
That reflection
Is who you are
And
Who you are
Meant to be
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 10:31 AM UTC
It is called a crush
Because there is weight
Behind their essence
And it is suffocating
To be in their presence
Apr 1, 2015
Apr 1, 2015 at 8:53 PM UTC
I don't love anyone
But I am
Passionate toward others
I am infatuated or enamored
Maybe I experience
A yearning for others
Perhaps I am devoted
Enchanted
Or hold others
In high regard
Or maybe I am
A little cowboy
Hankering for you
Or perhaps I am
A little Disney
Enchanted by you
Or it could be I am
A little short of will power
And you are my weakness
Maybe its my birthday
And you could be my cake
You could say
You are my delight
But I am never in love
Because really
Why should I only use
A four letter word
To tell others how I feel
Mar 31, 2015
Mar 31, 2015 at 4:17 PM UTC