#promising
I was a promising child
home as a war zone
I reconciled
grown men around
unknown or known
I remained
as their playground
my soul begrimed
one
stroke
at
a
time.
May 19, 2020
May 19, 2020 at 7:50 AM UTC
I think this is the hardest part
For a mind wired for hardship,
Waiting, loneliness
And pain made much more sense
For a soul structured for survival
Those came more easily to me than this
Than bliss
They say if you can't live without them you know they're the one
How can that ever be the case?
When the God of the universe has so much grace
Promising to be enough in the face of any heartbreak
No matter how great
There's no one I need but Him
And that's what makes sense to me
Jan 6, 2020
Jan 6, 2020 at 12:17 PM UTC
You lied about that el dorado
They got me for the grand theft auto
They took my prints
They took my phone
I shouldn't love you but I still feel alone
I shouldn't love you but I still feel it all
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 9:24 AM UTC
Can I come a little bit closer?
Like this?
That's okay?
I know I'm such a poser.
Feeling more like a loser.
Is it alright if I say this?
Too much?
Too soon?
Can't believe I already miss
your company when I'm supposed to be in his
Arms, strong enough to hold me
but what if I need softness to be
the strength I'm holding on to; she
gives me something more to see
in darkened eyes great honesty
I'll keep your words with great pride
Show yourself to me, don't hide
Let me stay a bit longer by your side.
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 2:46 PM UTC
I am caught
By a net of promising words
Lured in by your luminous character
Convinced by your hollow smile
Your affection like venom
Numbing my senses of right and wrong
Unexpected actions
Turned my world upside down
You've done well...
I've been infected...
Now let me cure these feelings
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 11:38 AM UTC
Every end makes a way to start with something new
Every new start promises something different,
something new,
yet something very much interesting raising the level of expectations with regards to what was set as prior.
Also otherwise expectations have always remained a part of life that has always got good,
if not great results,
despite the different inputs and many different outcomes,
which have been dealt with and faced from time to time,
since prior.
Jan 2, 2017
Jan 2, 2017 at 7:19 AM UTC
I went off my medication,
and went up a few sizes,
sometimes you lose the effort to try,
but when the effort returns,
maybe it will be ignored,
til a more promising day.
Jul 3, 2016
Jul 3, 2016 at 2:19 AM UTC
Entities of Reality stalk haunt humankind
Teasing unmercifully promising in person
A plain brown package; The Mind’s Eye; Pandora’s Box.
Desire disguised as a need, want, or a trophy.
Consciousness trying to escape the emptiness.
It doesn’t matter; How can we rise above, transcend it?
The tears won’t stop? Call them Tears of Joy; Gratitude.
Make promises to get what you want, then wait to see.
Pretend to be Happy; Joyful; Hide the Pain.
Make jokes! Laugh your way through the heartache! Look happy!
Want it? Take it! Don’t look a gift-horse in the mouth!
Feeling guilty about it is unproductive.
Saving Grace; Just Passing Thru; Get Out of Jail Free!
It doesn’t matter; Unconditional Forgiveness.
It doesn’t matter; We’re all going to the same place someday.
It doesn’t matter; We’re all going to Heaven anyway.
Despair, Distress, Hopelessness; An Undeserved Mess!
What’s in it for You? Recognition? Salvation?
Generosity; Curiosity; Doesn’t Pay!
Return it! Get a Refund! Just use it, don’t buy!
Redemption; Reconciliation; Justified;
It doesn’t matter; Give it back: Return To Sender
It doesn’t matter; We’re all going to the same place someday.
It doesn’t matter; We’re all going to Heaven anyway.
Apr 2, 2016
Apr 2, 2016 at 3:13 PM UTC
baggy shirts and folded sleeves
holding hands and acid washed jeans
from clean to stained clothing
we watched yesterday's crooked teeth
hide behind grown smiles from each other's lips, and for once, our futures seemed promising
our skin was pure yet our insides were battered
but bandages and plaster cast arms were just shells and they never mattered
we are both our own places
it's our choice where we choose to stand
and our faces are merely masks and disposable skin and emotions
we let our hearts do the talking, the questioning and the loving
this is what we were made for
not to be thrown around and ripped of our own exterior, but to be planted on the ground with our heads facing the clouds
and our wrists stretching out along with our fingers, grabbing all the opportunities and experiences
we are not carousels of repetition
we are layers of unwritten episodes
we are human beings
n.j.
Aug 8, 2015
Aug 8, 2015 at 9:40 AM UTC