#payback
3 years deep at least
hiding from yourself more than me
honesty is healing, your honestly killing me
why would you
say that, i need payback
say that, when you knew that
it was lies, projecting all the time
i let your into my house, into my life
Dec 27, 2022
Dec 27, 2022 at 12:40 PM UTC
You made me swallow down these words
Only for them to come back up when spurred
At the tip of my tongue, my thoughts
Shout out angrily to be heard
You think it all as meaningless
When you wash away my sound
Now you're gurgling your excuses
And maybe I'll let you drown
I smile through your babbling
And grant you my silence as you prompt me
I know what you want to hear but oops,
I guess I choked again
Sep 13, 2021
Sep 13, 2021 at 3:17 PM UTC
May your heavens part ways
Blasted in the atomic weight
And drops a hell's worth of hell
Upon your crooked leaning crown
Nov 8, 2019
Nov 8, 2019 at 7:45 PM UTC
You must think you're so tough
Well let me tell you
Since you're my ex-love
I never want you back in my life
Don't come crying to me anymore
I don't wanna hear your lies
So I'll just stand back and watch your tears pour
Think you can cheat on me with her
Come crying to me once you left her
You tore my heart in pieces
Then you left me, baby
I couldn't believe it
Now that I'm over you
Meeting people new
May even be ******* your ex best friend too
Never always liked how you treated me
But I dealt with it, baby
I can't even believe me
Rose tinted glasses must've blinded me
Like you said
Can't you see?
Go run away from all your issues
I'll sit back
Maybe I'll ship you a box of tissues
Apr 25, 2019
Apr 25, 2019 at 8:53 PM UTC
It’s PAYBACK!
I dearly did everything for you,
Your days deliciously I made blue;
My monthly money made you new
Then madly made you test beef stew!
You always turned me off!
Despite how hard I would chaff;
On this devilish day you will be my staff,
I will break bones! You will be my beef.
The walls in seduction,
The brain as lost its function,
Building up to an eruption,
Of pure ****** distraction!
I gladly gave you flowers and a dove!
I gladly gave you my love.
On my precious presents you did hove
You I took in my caring car then we drove.
It’s time to payback
Payback time is here! Scratch my back
My back yearns and craves for your back
Your back must mercilessly payback!
It’s PAYBACK
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 12:52 AM UTC
Who, I am, is just the following of what,
What, I am, is just a stone away from where,
Where, I am, is just sails away from why,
Why, we are, is a planet away of who.
Who I am is just a person wearing a pretence,
What I am is just a character of what I try to commence.
Where I am, is this visage, carrying the drama in this scene,
Why we are, is where I merely am playing my part, as my actions are already set in the figurine.
It’s not adequately unexpected for the viciousness that is presented in human forms,
Its pretentious validity, in various forms, in vivid and foolproof flaws, as veteran as victim it withholds.
He desert, hides, cloaks or flees. He screams, breaks, vanish, retreats. He hides, shields, masquerade and juggles. All of these patterns that run in circles and hobbles.
We are not disarmed as much by the sword or bullet but rather by our past,
The whispers, the memories, the mistreat that is amassed.
For I too will have vengeance for myself,
For I plan a vendetta that will never be forgotten, and will haunt thyself.
To effectively grow I have to push past the point of my comfort zone and experience inhumane situations,
No expectations of thoughts and feelings, no blank lines or allowance of consultations because I will lose myself and make my own insinuation.
So please let your anger, hate, ********** intimidation,
Your screams, betrayal, pain, instigation
Thy emotions, force, projections and manipulation,
Be my entertainment that only helps my dissimulation.
For who, I am, is just the following of what,
What, I am, is just a stone away from where,
Where, I am, is just sails away from why,
Why, we are, is the vendetta that’s been bought.
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 1:27 AM UTC
Look at me go
Look at me shine
I'll leave you in the back line
Just like you did to me
I'll walk away with a smile
So bright it'll be hard for you to see
I don't deserve you
I deserve better
Give me a little credit
For putting up with you for too **** long
They should've bet on it
That you would leave
Now look at me
Look at who I am now
Do your eyes deceive?
I'm so much better off without you
Dec 26, 2018
Dec 26, 2018 at 2:54 AM UTC
a honey bee stung me
not because I disturbed the remnants of his hive
or stepped on the flower he sat upon
I watched puzzled as he struggled on the ground
after burying his sword in my arm
thus sacrificing himself
in honor of his brothers and his queen
you see
he was the last
he had no voice to tell me of their fate
the destruction we'd wrought
on this docile creature
this creator of sweet nectar
the sting was brief and I brushed it away
and continued on
as we all do when only temporarily impeded
unaware
the sting about to come
Jul 6, 2018
Jul 6, 2018 at 3:50 PM UTC
Squeamish much?
Did he really think he could call my bluff?
By the way his shoulders fold out to hide his face I assume he sought
Now he's cleaning his mess from the floor, shattered like red rubies
Because he was referring to God but only saw himself in my shades as he accused me
And morality falters with every exhale he can muster
The thought of ripping his spine out, God knows would satisfy my interest in watching him suffer
He stood before me and spat how I was a waste of a woman
Because I prefer soft hands and collarbones, with love as passionate as a dressing room kiss
I said it's perpetually misunderstood in all of its bliss, my preference doesn't hold you liable
Neither, your ignorance
Something about the power invested in the moan of a woman, the throb in my heart causes my blood to flow hotter and brighter
He said its blasphemy, frowned upon in the Bible
So I took his girlfriend for a joyride and taught her how to really smile
Mar 17, 2018
Mar 17, 2018 at 6:22 PM UTC
Another huge wave will hit you
Since my pleas won't spark you
Let your heart show some mercy
One hell of a backlash, awaits you
No tongue can describe the ache
I endured once you slapped back
It was more than arrows sprinkled
Showered, shoved, turned to awake
It still bleeds, if you ever witnessed
I was drowning, you enjoyed popcorns
Watched the fatigue throw me on thorns
You howled at me till my eyes turned red
Apr 10, 2017
Apr 10, 2017 at 1:27 AM UTC
The lines you roared
The people you urged
The crimes you saw
Crimson tridents on the road
So close to unleash the beast
Tempt me again, then regret
Or put complete blame on me
Ever felt wisdom with pride?
Difference between me and you
I reckon violence will boomerang
Naturally or artificially, you don't
Count the debts you'll face in hell
Dec 7, 2016
Dec 7, 2016 at 6:53 AM UTC
Life is just full of paybacks.
When you do something you expect something in return.
Even when you don't, you still get something in return.
Whether good or bad.
So be careful what you do out there.
It might happen to you one day.
Apr 10, 2016
Apr 10, 2016 at 9:25 PM UTC
I see you sleeping
but I hear you weeping, do you think you can fool me?
cuz I no what lurks in your heart, your everlasting heart.
I see confusion you deceived my heart.
Don't you run away, don't you know what you do to me
you broke my heart in two, you put my heart in to a glass jar.
I feel the fear sweating out of you, the end is near
I AM COMING FOR YOU!!!
Heart in a jar, you've gone too far.
My new solitary home has not even a soul, you put me down, down in to the ground.
I am bound, I am bound, I can't hear a sound., I am bound, I'm in the ground,
I AM BOUND!!!
Oct 4, 2015
Oct 4, 2015 at 11:59 AM UTC
Today I bought a square plate
it's not for me, but for an enemy
that I could do worse things to, if I was a less noble person
as the things they've done I will not speak.
The plate is porcelain and quite finely made
elegant and excellently finished for how not so pricey it was
hints of history seems to hide in it's shell--
as seams are weaved into
what has probably lived a long and unused existence
this handcrafted masterpiece.
Separately painted by some fancy artist
to whom I do not recognize the name of,
although it is said he may have done something wrought with his ear
or did this man's uncle make this plate, oh well, I am unsure.
It is these very details to why,
I am now in possession of this piece of the past
that will be priceless to those who know more craftsmanship,
at least more knowledgeable than the man who sold it to me.
From the gleaming in your eyes
I can tell this plate may even mean a great deal to you
is this true my good friend?
oh well, I guess I can give the plate to you
instead of the devil I spoke of before.
*As I handed my prize to them
it began to feel heavier than any ordinary plate should,
gravity granted the greatest reprise I've ever sought
as the demon's face whelmed with depression
and mine satisfaction--
for being such a convincing storyteller.
Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 5:33 AM UTC
Hello there great friend, boo.
I didn't mean to leave you, to shoo.
But i just didn't know what to do.
One fine day i was scrolling through,
Then bo ding, you messaged me dude,
You mocked me laughed at me,you cut through,
Cut through my heart, i just had to subdue,
***** you replaced me,
I can replace you too,
you didn't mean it, but ***** I do.
You happy? What your drama caused you?
That's it you committed the taboo,
You just had to,
You messed with Kelvin, he messes with you too.
****** don't come crying back, go back to your idiotic crew,
**I got my friends now, ***** hope you got your's too.**
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 6:49 AM UTC
Make me laugh, and I will laugh with you
Make me cry, and I will tear you
Do me a favor, and I will be a savior
Take rest of mine, and I will devastate your mind
Do your thing, and I will let you in peace
Don't let me do a thing, and I will strip you in piece
Be my batman, and I will be your robin
Poker my life, and I will be your joker
Sprinkle on me, and I will shower at you
Through dirt at me, and I will spit on thou
Be my friend, and I will watch your back
Hold a knife, and I will kick your ***
|AB|
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 10, 2014 at 1:08 AM UTC
It's acquiescent,
to grieve for what you don't have,
your losses will pay.
© Matthew Harlovic
Feb 13, 2015
Feb 13, 2015 at 1:52 PM UTC
Since I was born I couldn't feel
what others feel
I never had anything that was real
Actually it doesn't matter...
It was real enough to me
They told me it would be fine
but they locked me up, took what's mine
What they did turned my life into dirt
Actually it doesn't matter...
I don't feel and I can't be hurt
But one day I will myself on them avenge
****** revenge
Dec 12, 2014
Dec 12, 2014 at 3:18 PM UTC
I want to move on.
But how can I move on when I owe you so much?
Pain
Tears.
Sleepless nights.
Heartaches.
Time.
Wouldnt it be selfish of me to not give it back?
I owe you that, payback.
-InTheWorldOfCyn
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 4:03 PM UTC
I beg inside my soul to have you.
I don't love you.
I want to feel passion, desire, and the warmth of another body pressing against me
I could grab any man I wanted, but I want you.
I see your brown hair
let me run my fingers through, just once
Your eyes
soft earth
Your lips
pink lilacs
And all I want is your body
Which is very saddening.
To only want to use someone, then toss them aside like trash
How can you?
And still fall asleep at night without thinking about a face wet with tears
your fault
I simply want to do to you
What you have done
To All the women before me,
The same song as a trickery
I want you to fall in love with me
an instrument meets the music
I want you to hold me close and kiss me, as you share your fears and truths.
a melody plays softly
I want you to believe in love because of me
Think of me, breathe me, and miss me when we are not together
accelerato tempo
Until one day you meet me in a corner booth at our favorite restaurant, and I rip your heart to shreds
*Look, I never loved you. I lied.
I used you to get what I want.
You are a pathetic, self-serving dung heap that only thinks about himself. You wooed me, I pretended to like you, so I could dig under your thick facade of masculinity, and discover your sensitive side. I know what you are--man whore--and I enjoyed using you. You can lie to everyone, every woman from this point on, but ten years from now, when you are married to wife number four and you are waiting for her to come home and she never does, I want you to crawl into the bed you made and bawl like the whining, sniveling baby you truly become at night when no one else is around you. I hope 'lonely' presses you down so hard it hurts to breathe. And maybe then you might turn into a different man or at least your miniscule brain will have an inkling of true heartbreak. Doubtful though--I win. You lose*
Then I get up and walk away from you, ignoring any pleas and ****** slurs.
Caesura
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 12:39 AM UTC
In our tine of war
You seized your chance
Left me in the hands
Of our enemies
Treachery against your comrade
Turning my own on me
Leaving me for dead
I never saw it coming
When you left me
At the gates of hell
But I'll return
You can not
Simply lock me away
I'll crawl back to hunt you down
I'll find you
Rob you of your joy
Leaving my misery on your shoulders
You know I'm coming
We'll meet again
At the gates of hell
You're in ruin
Not worth a dime
Or anybody's time
No longer in power
After twenty-five years
I've paid you back
With what you deserve
I'll leave you
Just as you left me
At the gates of hell
Oct 31, 2014
Oct 31, 2014 at 8:01 PM UTC