And tell me how polluted it’s been
Do you ever take a second
To look under your own skin
And wonder if your veins are throbbing
With every pulse
Pretty pink, scarred up muscles
That pull taut with the curse
Of being alive, my love,
When you don’t dare to speak
Because I think I know the truth
And the truth would make you weak
So I spin ‘til I unravel
And when you find me in a heap
I grew with love all of the fungus,
All the toxins that I bleed
And in the ground I am a gardener
Who never had done wrong
And in the ground I am a martyr
Who never had done wrong
And in the ground I am a flower
Who needs not to be strong
In the ground I find myself
Exactly where I belong
Dec 5, 2025
Dec 5, 2025 at 12:53 PM UTC
Mother, I said something I shouldn't today
I wavered like water
One drop out of place
As I learned, I looked around 'til I knew every face
And all of the right things to say
I must be your daughter
Father, cold hands just keeping dragging me down
Collecting my anger
Like puddles of mud on the ground
Later, at least I can say that I'm proud
Though it feels like a vice – to cool down like ice
I must be your daughter
Aug 5, 2025
Aug 5, 2025 at 9:42 AM UTC
Encased in gold resin,
The world we create
Older than you or I could ever say
It knows better than me of sure pain
Demanding your beauty
Still shadow the shame
When I wrote you –
I wrote you a letter today
I was lost in the infinite stretch of your gaze
And I wonder if it ever entered your air
Ever tasted your tongue, ever tousled your hair
Were they were words you would treasure?
Words you would share?
Like a picture, I'm taken
Because I am still there
Encased in your resin,
In the grip of your glare
It is a moment remembered
And I am still there
Jul 27, 2025
Jul 27, 2025 at 4:13 PM UTC
Because I loved you
I fancied myself kind
To bow at your fingertips
Because I loved you
I felt myself strong
Enough to break
Your care,
Ever changing,
Floods me inside out
The dam bursts just
from the pinprick of a fracture
And I shatter
Because I loved you
Jun 2, 2025
Jun 2, 2025 at 8:44 PM UTC
Today another part of me found weeping
Froze rigid by a fragile touch
Sat beneath a sobbing willow
And didn't ask for much
But to languish in your steady shadows
To huddle where you hide
And when I sigh, it's hope surmising
That you are by my side
May 8, 2025
May 8, 2025 at 10:14 PM UTC
Here's the limit
Stopping short such careless ease
It reaches in and grips and I
just hope that I don't leave
it all exposed, the brick & mortar
to the humidifying heat
I know to take it out on you is petty,
childish, and mean
And I am so mature, I'm quiet
as the words begin to freeze
The screaming, small injustices
that bitterness loves to keep
Tonight in bed, a mantra
Is the devil on repeat
Running laps inside my head
Until I can finally sleep
Then tomorrow I'll forgive you
My walls crumbling like leaves
A day of autumn in the summer
For another day of peace
May 7, 2025
May 7, 2025 at 7:24 PM UTC
Even today,
with callouses on my fingertips
I still reach out to touch you
and feel pain
And even today,
with lips thinned to shallow line
I still recite your verses
And though I change,
It's what you've made of me
It's what you've made of me
That lives forever
All the same
Mar 12, 2025
Mar 12, 2025 at 8:29 PM UTC
Unravel me
Loosen up the bow, feel the needle pull
Out words I never did mean
Well, you know me
After the bliss, a liar
Gets tired of this
It feels like the truth’s a fire
They play with for kicks
Mar 1, 2025
Mar 1, 2025 at 10:47 AM UTC
Woven between nerves and tendons
You travel like a piece of thread
Delicate and soft, the needle pierces
out through the epidermal and I finally see
The bright gleam of your teeth
Grinning as you bite down into me
Like your clothing, I am still and pliant
Only shifting to wrap around you once more
Only speaking to soothingly whisper
Against your skin, I am a blanket of secrets
You've woven into me once again
Come tomorrow, I will show your colors
And live the world by your design
Dyed in deep pigmented jasmine
Brightened emerald and sublime
Come tomorrow, I'm a painter,
A weaver, intertwined
Today, tomorrow, I will love you
And leave the monochrome behind
Jan 23, 2025
Jan 23, 2025 at 6:45 PM UTC
In the grave there is a whisper
I thought I’d finally speak aloud
For the sake of one sole listener
Who never made me proud
Underneath the stiff church seats
Someone beats a heavy drum
I was silent when you stomped your feet
And left me feeling numb
I took every shot I thought I deserved
And tried my best to be
The water that you walked on
The poison that you bleed
Like a starved man, I'd chew
The harsh regret between my teeth
Until the belly fills with rue
And really, I’m still hungry
And at the end of it all I’m still afraid
That living souls will speak my name
That I will meet my maker when
The last of love inside me ends
And then there is the lingering fear
That I was never worth your tears
You’ll cry and bellow out my name
And never know I cry the same
Jan 3, 2025
Jan 3, 2025 at 2:14 PM UTC