#openheart
I did not board the train this time
its whistle soft as a wish I once made
before learning the cost of arrival
There were other hands to hold,
small rooms to fill with quiet work,
a garden of dreams still waiting to bloom
in the soil I help tend each day
The map stretched wide with longing,
but I folded it neatly beside the bills,
between the unopened letters
and the list of things love asks us to carry
Not all journeys begin when the door opens.
Some begin when we choose to stay—
when we say: not yet,
with a voice that still believes in someday
Let the wind have its turn
Let the stars wait a little longer
What is meant for me
will find me walking—
with full hands,
and an open heart
Jul 4, 2025
Jul 4, 2025 at 7:19 AM UTC
I never lost faith in love, I was just scared
All around me I felt the loss in the air
The spring always baffled me;
For the winter was never there
In the basket of life, I felt the dread drawing near
The anticipation was vexing for a simple guy lying bare
I lost touch with my hobbies
I lost touch with my buddies
I lost being that funny guy
Who spoke so angelic; Truly Euphoric with a good sense of that comedic relief
I lost….
Lost the confidence, lost being the player
Lost my patience and a head full of loose screws
Time healed the wound but what about the ruse?
What about those sentiments? What about the bruise?
What about those promises? What about the cruise?
I was a little negligent but, what about you?
You talk about promises but all you do is ruse.
You talk about sentiments but all you do is refuse.
You talk about amendments but all you do is bruise.
You took away the sobriety and let it all loose
You took away the honesty and you took me for a fool
All I ever wanted I was to fall in love, thought you were the muse
I never lost faith in love, I just got used like a tool
-Asher Graves
Apr 27, 2025
Apr 27, 2025 at 10:44 PM UTC
I remember sitting on the floor,
Arms wrapped around me.
Bawling my eyes out
Wondering why I'm crying,
Thinking what's wrong with me?
This isn't reality.
Now I look back and realize,
It was real.
It was abuse.
Nothing was wrong with me,
Except for being used.
A telltale sign,
I now see.
The problem wasn't even me.
Angry with what has happened
But elated because...
Now I'm free,
Effortlessly,
Drifting on a breeze,
Of such sweet release.
I have to say
God bless me
And everything that tried to break me
That in itself amazes me
💙
Written,
by me...
Rebecca
Mar 18, 2020
Mar 18, 2020 at 8:29 PM UTC
My hand was open
But you,
You chose her
Closed fist and everything.
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 10, 2019 at 5:19 PM UTC
Which church corner should I go to
which is safe with green lights?
It seems every one has glue and goo
rays of sun and dark of night.
Being a follower - not my big skill
not comfy on the disciple ship
but I’m hungry and want my fill
trying to get God in my grip.
But I keep finding him all over the place
can’t capture and save him just for me
see him in a cat’s and a child’s face
he won’t be my prisoner. He is free
like his forgiveness and open heart.
So this ship is one I might board
the ship of joy about to depart
the cost of this trip I can afford.
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 11:34 AM UTC
I held your hand as you disentangled from her
you did not move closer to me
I assuaged your worst fears
you fueled mine
I was fully present and attentive
you took calls that came in . . . and didn’t call back
I asked questions
you answered different ones
I made you a playlist
you never acknowledged
I made plans and reservations
you did not show
I gave you the benefit of every doubt
you did not reassure me
I made myself vulnerable
you remained ensconced
I created space in my life
you did not explore
I dared to dream about us
you dreamed about . . . I don’t know
I gave you my body
you reached for your phone
I gave you my heart
you did not reciprocate
I get it now
you are just not that into me
Only wish I knew sooner.
Goodbye.
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 10:58 AM UTC
What if your walls let someone in
Instead of keeping them out.
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 8:17 PM UTC
Impervious.
The defense of age.
Our hearts become small.
We’re loathe to engage.
We put up a wall.
Impervious.
In an armored suit.
Seeking protection.
To be resolute.
Avoid connection.
Impervious.
To one more heartbreak.
We like to think so.
But that’s our mistake.
Our hurt makes us grow.
Impervious.
I have tried to be.
It was just pretense.
For your love found me.
It pierced my defense.
Impervious.
Was never a thing.
I was closed off to
Almost everything—
Everything but you.
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 6:08 PM UTC
Feelings has so much emotional
So much feelings to hold
Which feelings are the best
How could I let go
My heart gave so many feelings
But not so much my soul
I love you with so much feelings
Why can't I let go
My first feelings was with you
The best feelings in the whole world
This feelings I've never felt before
Is what I appreciate the most
I still have this feeling
Even though your gone
This feelings will never go
Even though we're apart
This feelings is love
Love from above
To my heart to the universe to the star
This feelings I've ever loved by far
It's time to let go our love
So we can both move on
You said you wanted space
So here you go, goodbye my love
Sep 14, 2016
Sep 14, 2016 at 7:24 PM UTC
In truth
In waiting
Through blue
Wide open
Heart sky
As you are
Expansively
Intimately
Always
Loved
Grounded free
Feb 15, 2016
Feb 15, 2016 at 11:05 AM UTC
would have been an honor
to have my heart broken by you
yet without being yours
you managed it anyway
how could this happen
loved too hard, too fast.
maybe it's stupidity
maybe I'm naive
a fool with a open heard
is all I claim to be
Jul 14, 2015
Jul 14, 2015 at 1:33 AM UTC
Keeping the door of your heart open
Means letting people come and go
Letting them get in and out of your life
So I need to learn how to close mine somehow
So that I can keep you
and won't get you out of my life. :)
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 2:48 AM UTC
Express with me
Breathe less with me
Undress with me
Make a mess of me
Break me
Make me
Take from me
Do anything but ache for me
Leave me
Deceive me
Free me
Do anything but be with me
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 3:52 AM UTC