There is no controlling life.
Try corralling a lightning bolt,
containing a tornado. Dam a
stream and it will create a new
channel. Resist, and the tide
will sweep you off your feet.
Allow, and grace will carry
you to higher ground. The only
safety lies in letting it all in –
the wild and the weak; fear,
fantasies, failures and success.
When loss rips off the doors of
the heart, or sadness veils your
vision with despair, practice
becomes simply bearing the truth.
In the choice to let go of your
known way of being, the whole
world is revealed to your new eyes.
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018 at 10:11 AM UTC
Every time your eyes touch me
my skin flushes hot and my heart tears open
making room for the love you pour into me
Every time you gift me affection
my energy reaches through miles
holding your pain until it heals in the depth of my truth
Every time you bare more of yourself to me
you fill my essence with your light
making me strive to be better than I thought I could be
Every moment you love me more intensely than the one before
it surprises me anew
proving minutes of pure love are stronger than a lifetime of tepid affection
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 5:45 PM UTC
4X6 inches
*of perfection on a screen
a hint of tortured possibilities
carried in the pocket
of a life built
through blinders and
the most beautiful denial*
4X6 inches
*of hope undeniable
the foundation of dreams
dragging rough
through cascading walls
of a substandard fairytale
that twisted joy unhappy*
4X6 inches
*of a smile through a hurricane
bleeding pain through evaporating tears
a reality forged through time uncountable
landing in the rays truth created
when love proved
the existence of fate*
4X6 inches
*of peace over pain
a wand in magical medicinals
crashing through solitary anguish
with eyes piercing armor
weaved in passive aggression
leading the lost home*
May 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 7:16 PM UTC
***Falling into you I found myself
For with you I was never lost
Blinded by an unkind past
The present, tinged with shame
Became my only truth
Then... I saw you
You gazed upon me
Open and trusting
And I could no longer hide from myself
Your eyes peel me naked
And I stand bare before you
awaiting a judgment that will never come
You see what I thought I lost
What felt like it died long ago
You see who I used to be
Who I always have been
And because it's you
I believe it's true
Your smile is my hope
Your heart carries my heartbeat
Your eyes, so full of love
Prove that I am all I ever wished to be
All I was supposed to be
Before life beat the joy out of me
You found me and I knew
I knew you were mine
I knew you before I met you
I dreamed you alive so long ago,
And here in my heart, I fell in love
In your love, in loving you...
I can learn to love me***
May 8, 2017
May 8, 2017 at 10:09 AM UTC
**a limp body
carried in broken arms
to a funeral pyre
hidden in the woods
tinder, salt-saturated
won't catch
drowning in the perception
of failure
life flows out
and seeps in
healing in unfettered
emotion
exhaustion bleeds thought
cracks fuse invisibly strong
still feeling both less
yet more, somehow
pyre lays unlit
as the heart dreams ablaze
in lost memories
of a life not yet lived
one without the other
cannot exhale
breathing in all the nothing
looking for the only thing
not knowing what or where
but the when is now
as wood sits on the ashes
of what came before
in the jolt of drowning
on overflowed tears
it flows out of each
and into the other
cracks fade
accidental truth is never an accident
too tired to continue
it was found where it lay sleeping
patient and blind
sprouts into the best
of unseen possibilities
the day you carried me in silence**
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 12:44 PM UTC
*My soul laid dormant
in the desolation
of the walls loneliness built
Awakened by the slow exhale
of hope that you breathed upon me
Never realizing the magic
in your very existence
Molting from transparency
to beautifully tangible
in the gaze of faith
found in a dream thought lost
You believed
and I became...me*
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 12:44 PM UTC
Peaceful pools of liquid love
glide over me from across the room
as I fall deeper into you each passing second
You beckon me with a throaty exhale
that permeates the air with passion
Drawn to you
I'm there without a word
Lost, ensconced in the warmth of you
in the ravenous joy
that consumes us equally
forcing a smile to shine through past tears
It's a joy found only in the union of us
In the truth that we have always been one
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 12:04 PM UTC
tossed in waves
looking to the promontory
It says:
read swells
keep your sight
find harmony in the stir
understand how and when to climb
for this is an abrupt hardness
to fall broken
nearer hope
is a mercy
a trough
to reveal clear footing
and hands still strong
shake in lifting
regain sight upon upon the high ledge
the froth below and turmoil ebb
my heart
still beating
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 2:47 PM UTC
My love
My life
Blissful truths sustain me
Our time is just beginning
Tests and trials abound
tearing flesh open over scars
It changes nothing
My love for you grows
with each passing second
My heart is overjoyed in tactile memories
The smell of your skin soothes me
The sound of your laughter begs a smile
Your pewter eyes shimmer in love's reflection
The essence of you resides in me
as the truth of who I am resides in you
Unmasked and laid bare
I am at your feet
offering you all that I am
For it has always been yours
And you have always been mine
Our eternity is united, entwined
Through the flames that burn away
a world we were never meant to fight through,
we will emerge a sphere of light
a cosmic bubble of peace
Love seems too small of a word
though it is all there is
We.. are
We are love
We are truth
We are both reality and the dream
We cure the disease of distance
with a spirit that defines us
Meet me through the miles
where this plane cannot reach us
where time is eternal
And the blissful truth of us
remains pure
Untainted by an unkind world
which is nothing
But tomorrow's past
Dec 27, 2016
Dec 27, 2016 at 8:14 PM UTC
Fearless dreaming has brought me here
The warmth of spent flesh
asleep in the tides of a fickle moon
a cool breeze in a windowless room
I pull back the sheet slowly
and watch as tiny bumps form in the chill
Peaches and cream perfection
Dare I touch
Dare I risk awakening
The warmth reaches me before I reach the truth
Hesitation and a slow exhale
I have dreamed this dream before
The dream where there is no time, no rules, no distance
I have dreamed of joy and love
I have dreamed this very dream
and as I touch you... I cry
In those moments lost in the union
of love and passion
right and wrong are a blur
on the edges of souls bound in time
Until...
I touch you and
for a moment
you are my truth, my reality, my dream, my life
Gone in the gasp of a waking sun
Dare I risk losing you once more
My heart breaks anew as the new day dawns
But how do I yearn and not sate
Yes, I touch
I love so that I may live in that moment a lifetime
The warmth of your skin greets mine
as you turn to me in your slumber
embracing all I could hope to be
Your comfort with me melts doubt
And I pray that the sun never shines
I pray that this moment is my ever after
That you and I are where we once were
where we should always be
I open my eyes at daybreak
and still feel the warmth of you
I bask before the tears come
I love you more with each moment of perfect slumber
I dream
That you will keep me with you
so I shall ne'er again wake
to a world where you no longer reside
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 10:26 AM UTC