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Make me remember.,
Through your eyes ,not your words.
the love once felt,now lost in the abyss of uncertain words.
Make me feel.,
Through your presence,not your touch.
that Gentle caressing and love,now that you are always in a rush.
Make me walk.,
Coupled with you,not your footprints.
through the Same paths and rendezvous,before they diverged a long time ago.
Make me believe.,
By placing in front of me the plain truth,not twisted lies.
like those days when you still didn't need to sugar-coat the obvious.
Make me dream.,
Through the energy ,not the pain.
the future we envisioned together in the light , whence my nightmares had taken over .
Make me surrender.,
Through love and peace, not turmoil and defeat.
into the embrace of your moonshine,now that it has been a way long overcast night(life).
Make me yours.,
with the depth of your heart,not just woes.
into your protective gaze ,now that it has been a while since I melted under it and yet felt oh! so Strong.
Apr 27, 2019
Apr 27, 2019 at 2:48 PM UTC
I once had someone tell me
That because they knew themself
And their flaws
They could never love themself
And I-
I didn't know quite what to tell them
But I also didn't want to leave it at that
Because we're our own worst judges
We replay everything we've done wrong
And forgive others but not ourselves
Which is just too cruel
And to base the amount of love we accept
From yourself or others
Off the flaws you see in yourself
Is giving up the fight before it's begun
Because you're missing out on so much
You accept the love you think you deserve
But, love, you deserve more than you accept
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 5:01 PM UTC
"Oh no she didn't?"
"Oh yes, she did!"
The cleaning lady said
She went there just last Tuesday
cleaning house, and making beds
"She'll cause a scandal!"
"Only if she's caught!"
Gossiping at their leisure
ears always open and astute
spreading all the rumors
vying to be too cute
"I know her BF knows!"
"How can that be so?"
"He's been sneaking round the windows,
peaking in, while on his toes!"
It doesn't really matter, what the convo's all about
Only that it's overheard, dispelling, any doubts
Real or imagined, the damage real and insane
Wiggle-waggle wonders, with imaginary claims
Apr 20, 2017
Apr 20, 2017 at 8:22 AM UTC
'what do you
want to be when
you grow up?'
'what do you plan
to do with your life?'
'you can't make money
doing
that....'
this age old question
acts as
the intersection
between dreams
and reality
people ask this question
and i am rendered speechless
a voice lost in the
howling wind of promise
their piercing,
expectant gaze
like paparazzi
cameras
i put on a mask
my own shadows
loom in the night
'oh maybe,
i'll be a nurse
or a pharmacist'
i am safe
as warm approving
nods beckon
'oh i want to be
a writer'
nods turn
to disfavor
like a star
falling out of the sky
when has
authentic happiness
become a servant
to dishonest disinterest?
(b.d.s.)
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 2:07 PM UTC
This is to say goodbye
For many reasons, but first,
I want you all to know
That I love you no matter what.
Even if all of you have flaws and trespasses
It is what makes you all beautiful to me
It is what made me smile in glee
It's what made me cry in unison with all of you.
If you are reading this now,
It only means I have surrendered
I cannot endure anymore of this
But remember that it is nobody's fault
It's me, I haven't been strong
Unlike all of you with strong hearts I admire
The will to move forward has long since passed me
I tried fighting 'til the end but it seems that I can't
You all might start to wonder
"How did this happen?"
He seemed very happy and free
Always funny if not annoyingly cheerful
Behind all of it is a lie,
I have been drowning in tears
Of my own pool of sorrows and grief
A turbulence of unheard pleas
I've been in it for too long,
I can't seem to swim back to the shore
The shore of human sanity
Of normalcy and stability
Maybe its because of my personas
The Him who thought everything a joke
Giving hints that nobody noticed
Ever strong outside yet deeply broken inside
The other Half who always hides
Cowering and shivering in the insecurities of life
He who is always careful not to hurt
Though, he has none he can hurt
Or the other one between
The sane and Normal Me
The one you liked with envy
The one who should've been me
I say this last note of goodbye to you
For I am now stained in black and blue
Never to be clean again like pure white
Never to see me again in Morning's Light.
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 4:44 AM UTC
These days there are so many options for sharing our voices. Social media has created an instant audience for all who join. It is a large change for the older generations of the Earth, though social media holds the opportunity of our times! We are all there, together.
I am aware that the awakening that is taking place on Earth is all being played out as it is intended. Social media alone did not bring us to this point. All of our history has brought us to this point. Every light high and grueling low. Each moment moved our lives forward and helped create the next new moments. This is obvious though the power in this reality is what healing looks like to me.
I am using the social media world to share the plant message I have tuned into. Being able to share how my heart loves with humans far outside my physical reach is empowering beyond words. I feel such deep gratitude to be alive today and for having the awareness of this blessing. I never felt comfortable with that word. Though in reality, being a witness to life is truly the blessing.
We live in a society that the mass of us really do not understand. Our world is being created by the humans with the most access to energy (resources). The large part of humanity has committed to economics and actually, capitalism. Workers have very low energy reserves to be creators. Though we all do it anyways. The human is the most powerful being we know of! Our capabilities are truly unbelievable!!!
We are equally as powerful as all other living organisms and yet have a capacity of creation that no others possess. The human has very few basic needs. Though one of those needs is to make stuff... all kinds of stuff... all the time. We will always be advancing and building. Its what we do. The question I think many of us ask is, how can we be happy with all this stuff? There seems to be a general sense of discontent capturing our hearts. How is this affecting the world we are creating?
In the creation of this website and expansion organization, I have thought much about helping people find solutions to their every day challenges. This is how a whole lifestyle is accomplished. We have to dig into the daily habits, change those and create new healthier ones. When we change our mind, we change our world. We literally change the things we create because new thoughts are at the source of the manifestation.
To make sure I was providing the solutions my sphere needed, I created a short survey that explores the major roadblocks people have with maintaining a healthier lifestyle. The results were small, though very powerful and pretty surprising for me. 70% of the responses indicated that what they needed most to adapt to a whole food plant based lifestyle was inspiration and accountability. 60% also noted needing it to work in a busy lifestyle. These are two of the major hindrances of us. Desire and time. Both have been systematically deleted over time. Major lifestyle differences must come about for either to be possible. We spend most of our hours working for stuff that does not fulfill any human needs at all.
Thankfully!!! We are the actual energy that creates everything... we are a manifestation of it! We are energy in motion, tuned to our environment to make changes as we desire. This is an amazing thing to be a part of and I have such a deep faith that we can create a world we desire by aligning with the healing power of plants and by just helping each other out!
Healing is real. And it is fairly simple. When a wound surfaces, the immune system sends the info to heal. Our communities work in similar ways. We respond to the needs of neighbors and friends when tragedy strikes. We feel it is our duty. Though when it comes to our personal self, most of us struggle to uplift ourselves. We have been taught to doubt our hearts, our dreams, our self. As we grow with this person who is fearful of itself, we tend to create situations that are lacking the major and minor touches that nourish us. We are missing the fine details of our world that confirm to us time again that everything is OK.
This does not mean that everything is calm and serene for the everyone all the time. This is not what being is. Being is the movement through different cycles. These cycles exist in the dark and the light for us humans. Our core must move from the dark to the light and back in order to grow and develop the power to continue to create and move. This is what the plants really teach. This is the message that we discover when we align with these healing beings. Death creates new life. New life moves towards death. The moments in between are for our growth. How simple it is...
Our world will continue to experience tragedies. Babies will continue to die. Mother's will continue to weep. The world will also continue to become more aware and grow deeper. Babies will be born and Mother's will continue to have the capacity to love, unconditionally. Our heart beat cannot be tainted. It cannot be stopped. We are the manifestation of the Earth. We are Her children. As a Mother, I can confirm that She will work with her children and never against them. She will provide the lessons they need and will be there to direct them if needed. This is what mamas (and dads) do. We are always being directed towards expansion. This is the desire of our Mother, of time... it seems like of US all. It won't stop. Learning to move with it is where much of our peace and happiness is resting, awaiting our re-discovery. Gratitude is due.
So, today's post is what my heart felt was an inspiring message! I want to be able to help serve the people around me that need healing. I receive the same energy from all of you! My awareness here will make the exchange effective, inspiring and nourishing! Remember, nourishment is a requirement of bonds here. We must nourish each other in our interactions... and definitely in our death. Its a natural law. There is a release here you can feel if you struggle with these feelings. We give and take equally, either in this moment or another. Everything ends up balancing out, coming back to the center/core and creating the dark/light, positive/negative, love/hate experiences again. What if we created new habits that disconnected us from all this back and forth? What if we learned to tune into our inner voice, our core and exercise the desires of this space? What if we encouraged each other to at least think about it? Does worrying about a war that is not fact seem more productive to you? Or continuing to participate in a system that is creating a world we do not desire? Obviously we must make these changes over generations, though what are we prepared to change about ourselves in order to instill these changes in our offspring? Its a reset. And it begins within. It sounds like self acceptance and love. It looks like that love being extended, honestly, from the insides out. It means recognizing the energy you are in all others, honoring that creative force and treating it with compassion and forgiveness. This does not answer all the troubles of the world. This answers the desire within. Once the humans of Earth are tuned to their desires, we will see the troubles look like what we wish too. They help us create the experiences to learn compassion. To learn unconditional love. We are not here to live in the dark. The light is always ahead. Creation is sparked in the dark.
Why not? Why not try? I know it works. It will look different for each of us. Though healing is real, unless its your time. Then you do not have to worry about it anymore. Until that day, we can learn to use our creative energy to develop exactly what our hearts desire. They are universal goals we share and we are intended to encourage each other along the way. We are all just walking each other home. Home is where the heart is.
Thank you for the beautiful humans that participated in the survey! Your responses mean so much to me. I will continue to add in my perspective of inspirational blog posts and podcasts. It is great to know that the fire I feel within can be shared to light another's wick. I promise to do my best for my self, my children, my family ... for us all. These moments of my life matter to me. We all have the ability to know this and to act accordingly. Let's go!!!
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 3:19 AM UTC
*A conversation starts with a smile
connecting the soul altogether.
Not required whether we see each other
but to feel each other through the soul.
And the conversation keeps getting long
never ever ending it may seem
but if the soul shrinks
the conversations empties from the brim!*
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 2:30 AM UTC
"See, I've found that not a lot rattles you"
I can't let it in my surrounding world
From populist risings gaining their roots
To drugs in the school (such as the bus girl)
I've seen school street plays, and blood on hall floors
And news that doesn't care about the truth
I've heard your fights with mom, in and out doors
I've seen infection spread amongst the youth
So call me jaded or darkly funny
But the way I am, you just have to be
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 10:22 PM UTC
*We don't speak often
We don't meet often
That doesn't mean that the care for one another is lost.
Testing times are the ones when
Brotherhood, neighbourhood
And most importantly Friendships
comes to the fore !!
And that is what
humanity
and neighbourhood is all about !!*
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 9:13 PM UTC
I told them to disguise it.
Hide hope in despair,
Wealth in poverty
And beauty in hidiousness.
I told them to stash it away.
Sneak love into a hateful heart,
Oppotunity into the pocket of failure
And tuck intelligence under a fools tounge.
Cover it up
So those who are willing
To lose it all,
Have it all.
My children,
Take the chances that come from losing,
Gnaw on the bones of poverty,
crack them open
And **** on the marrow of a full heart.
Go confidently into the world,
Knowing the value of an ugly old coat.
The warmth and memories it carries
Wrap yourselves up in dreams past,
And realize the brightness of your future.
I told them to disguise it,
Now go find it.
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 8:47 PM UTC
It started with hello
With no where to go.
You then me.
How could this be?
It was great for weeks,
But then came streaks
On my heart.
They hurt like a dart.
Months of nothing
How was it something?
It didn't end in good bye
I just watched it fly
Miscommunication broke it
And I choked on it-
The words and tears,
I would have no fears.
I left because of you,
But who wears the shoe?
Who gets the blame,
And all of that fame?
Has it happened to you?
It doesn't have to..
TALK.. please
Don't let it freeze
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 7:17 PM UTC
People were talking about you
Someone said you were strong
So I said you were beautiful
And I would've kissed you right there if I had the chance
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 7:11 PM UTC
Haven't talked for six days
So long to be cut off from the person you love the most
But even when their around the distance can be felt
The air is coated with awkwardness
What are we doing
All of this is pointless
We're both loners who fell in love just to fall out
We both know but in the communication department we are slow
It's just not working out he let me know
It's too hard
His perseverance is all for show
So conceited
He dropped me like trash
But littering isn't a felony
I over exaggerated
I tried to fix the broken but instead got embarrassed
Asked his best friend about him
He said he was just emo
But I'm the one on my period
How am I taking this better than him
I'm also all for show
Surprised I didn't snap
Oh crap it's really over
Told my "friend" but she says to let go of him
All these voices in my ear
None are his
Put my headphones in
The faucet runs through my eyes
My thoughts always have a twist
My brain is such a pessimist
All of this could've been solved
If communication was our resolve
It's over
That was all that needed to be said
No explanation
Everything we had is dead
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 7:03 PM UTC
We talked for the first time
in forever it seemed.
Actually talked, I mean.
I forgot how nice it was to
trust you with me.
See I lost my way with you.
We're just two battered souls
trying to scrape by.
Come fly with me, girl.
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 12:17 PM UTC
.
Lear wanders in stormy open, bares warring elements,
The heavens blister, crackle, night is balmy shroud,
Wretched monarch babbles in sprinkles of wind cold,
Arguments lost by ones own pouring perturbations
And raining sky said 'nothing will come from nothing.'
Howl, howls into blackness treed in lightning splits,
His outcast soul, reels, fleshed, cut to smithereens,
Tang of salt burns on the bluffs and the sea rages,
So entire and ceremonious is Lear's fall meted out,
Air spoke, 'nothing from nothings ever yet was born.'
Sky proclaimed to man child King, here is a reckoning,
Each mad choice was self infliction, now wind flays
And sweet Cordelia lies in her innocent **** grave,
Sky, in thralls of thundering asks, 'what say thee now,
King of highborn follies, even purple heaths are rags,
Yet black and above you and night shades, whine,
Unworthy King, done in by compounded effects,
The might of maelstroms in low butterflies wings,
How now, bare trees, knifing reeds, skeletal flashes,
To rains of night are ever your lanyards my lord,'
Sad Lear so near oblivion fell mute, sky went on,
'Howl and cry mad King your reaper calls beyond,
The icy brisk heavens await to brusque you away,
Your slipshod kingdom was mere and fools' dream,
Howl, til howls abrupt abate, for nothing now comes.'
Mar 6, 2017
Mar 6, 2017 at 10:39 AM UTC
A: Don't, it'll hurt you!
B: But, explore, I want to...
A: What if, it breaks you?
B: Let it, if it kills me too!
A: The safer route, can't you tread?
B: Safe is boring, a wise soul once said.
A: No, it spells danger ahead.
B: If fate so wishes, go now, make my bed.
A: Fine, have it your way!
B: I will now, you'll have no say!
A: Guard yourself, let emotions be at bay.
B: But experience is rich, no other way.
A: Now, there you are, broken and blue...
B: And aren't you broken too?
A: I heard the toll, this was a call for death...
B: But hey, I'm stronger. I'm not dead yet.
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 2:48 PM UTC
These words are all I have - hear me
talking, talking.
These words are all I am - hear me
talking, talking.
I hear you calling me in the dead of night.
I can hear you crying in the dead of night.
You lean towards despair at any given
opportunity, always tripping
over the fence that way. But maybe, just
maybe, you'll understand some day that
these words are all I have so hear me
talking, talking.
These words are all I am so hear me
talking, talking.
Hear me calling in the dead of night.
Please hear me crying in the dead of night.
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 2:10 PM UTC
She wishes him the best
says her Goodbye
with a warm embrace
but he replies her back
with a nod
and goes away
She waits for him to come back
Many messages everyday
of his day , stay and others
with few to no replies
Hopeful less every next day
messages too decreased later
one and then none
He came after few months , changed
tried to locate her
but never found her again ever
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 1:11 PM UTC