#newchapter
When I finally let you go,
know that it comes with forgiveness—
quiet, honest, real.
I’m letting the memories fade,
even if your presence still lingers
in the corners of my world.
What happens to you now
is no longer mine to carry.
If I hold on, even a little,
we’ll only fall back into the old rhythm
of hurting and blaming each other.
So I release it…
I release us.
Breathe, darling.
You’ve survived storms before—
you will again,
with me or without me.
And when you miss me,
you don’t need to call or text.
Two years we tried
to hold our pieces together;
there is no need
to carry this pain any further.
Try to move on from me,
the way I’m learning to move on from you.
I may still feel something
when our friends speak your name,
but I won’t step back into your path.
My chapter is closed,
and so is the story we wrote together.
Nov 17, 2025
Nov 17, 2025 at 4:53 AM UTC
Your voice fading
Your touch leaving
Your smile disappeared
Your smell
Your eyes
You.
My smile fading
My mind leaving
My emotions disappeared
My love
My heart
Gone.
Our path ended in a fork
We walked on
Never looking back
I wasn't glowing
You were in the rain
Walking as blood trickled down our legs
Slowly stitching our holes
As we walk...
Further
And further
Away.
I looked back once
To only see your silhouette disappear
But when I looked ahead
I saw the light
I didn't miss you
I missed the moment
I look down to see a puddle of blood
To see the holes in me
You created them
I created yours
The end of the road is where our future began
Our own future.
Jul 3, 2023
Jul 3, 2023 at 8:31 AM UTC
I always wake during the strangest of hours. Time is supposed to be a foundation—something in which to measure and organize our existence. For me, it slips through the fingers of an outstretched hand and dissipates into vapor. There is no comfort in its passing, only a fleeting shadow of an old friend. I recently drove through the worst fog imaginable; every moment was a struggle to remain between the worn-out lines. I squinted even harder and my singular headlight tried its best to help illuminate a path. Its efforts were valiant, yet meager. This is how it is for me now. This is how the days flicker by; in fog, in a haze, no true distinction from one to the next. I squint. It is in vain.
3:00am. I abruptly sit up and my eyes dart around the room that has become mine for but a little while. My conscious mind is still unscrambling data—separating dream from reality from memory. It all comes into focus and my chest heaves as I remember that my children are 539 miles away. They are in their own temporary rooms. My fingers touch the place on my bed where my son recently lay and told me how much he loved me during our last night together before the Five Week Separation. I cognitively continue to process the situation while simultaneously repressing it into deeper and more distant caverns.
My feet touch the floor and I find something to eat. I watch a movie to distract myself, but only feel all the more hollow. I shake my body into movement. I dress myself and head outside. An introspective playlist accompanies me as I walk along the Rock River. I drink in the breaking morning light until I become intoxicated by the sheer beauty of every single moment: the couple walking quickly by; the glow from a nearby kitchen window; the fishy smell of river water. This is the town of my youth, and in a few short weeks, I am leaving it far behind—yet again.
I walk the familiar streets and enter a café that is filled with countless memories of old friends, love, and laughter. The tables are now bare and the chairs empty, but I can still see the ghosts of memories projected throughout the room. The owner asks me how I am doing and how many kids I have now. I respond in as few words as necessary without being crass. I pay for my latte and scone, then turn away and wonder if I will ever buy coffee here again as the door’s abrasive dinging announces my exit. I slip my headphones back on and turn the volume down on the world around me. Everything seems more cinematic when I am orchestrating the score. Cars rush by and my scarf flutters in the breeze as a violin crescendos and a banjo jangles.
I trek back to the place of transient residence. Enough self-reflection for today. It’s time for some productivity. Everything is so very different now. Strange and painful, yet beautiful and mysterious. I am still me. My children are still my children. I think of them as I breathe in the damp morning air and slowly look around one more time, trying to record every detail in my memory. Everything is calm. I exhale deeply. As the breath escapes from my mouth it leaves a vapor that dances upward and disappears in a second. In that moment, time seems tangible again.
Aug 22, 2022
Aug 22, 2022 at 12:12 PM UTC
My demons and I
We go way back
When I was utterly alone
They were there
To criticise me
To torture me
To feed my insecurities
And my worst impulses
But they also protected me
Consoled and soothed me
And accepted me at my worst
For most of my life
They were my only companion
And they stuck with me
When things got tough
That is why it is hard
To leave them behind
And make room
For a new chapter in my life
For a chance at something better
Mar 20, 2021
Mar 20, 2021 at 11:05 PM UTC
I'll reinvent myself
Doesn't mean I'm trying to be someone else
Just because you haven't seen
This side of me
It feels good, it feels clean
Even if it feels a little foreign to me
Your fingerprints aren’t all over everything
Jul 25, 2020
Jul 25, 2020 at 4:11 PM UTC
As the dawn comes
The new life begins
Waking up
For the new chapter
Welcoming with positivity
Sound of wind
Whispers a hymn
When sunlight touches
Good vibe injects
As time runs
Can't expect
Things may fall out
That accords to the plan
Feels agitating
Causes to ruin
A happy day
You've made
But things fall
In a certain situation
Makes you realize
And understand
Someone's worth
As the twilight comes
Moon started to show
The sparkling stars
Brights during night
Brings hope
For those in the dark.
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 3:21 AM UTC
My mind can't remember
the colour of her eyes
and my heart is okay with it.
I guess that's closure.
-Paras Bajaj #PoetrybyParas
Instagram : @mr.parasbajaj
Apr 12, 2019
Apr 12, 2019 at 1:01 PM UTC
I can't take this anymore
I might have a mental break
All the thoughts clouding my mind
Are getting too hard to take
"I feel no emotion"
Yeah that persona's fake
All the bottled emotions
Are about to leave destruction in their wake
The end of a chapter
Beginning anew
But the change hurts so much
Oh I wish I knew
Walking down a dimly lit street
Called 'Life Avenue'
To an unknown destination
But what else can I do?
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 9:58 AM UTC
The last day
With my family
It’s sad
After tonight
We will go our separate ways
It will be days
Till I see then again
Once I go I will be on my own
But soon we will reunite
And be whole again
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 9:46 AM UTC
“I signed the papers”
You said
And the next day
I finally
Missed you
Funny how that works
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 2:02 AM UTC
It’s our final year,
Of high school here,
Then soon we’ll leave our mark,
To make a world of our own.
Though we are just a speck,
Drifting through time.
It seems through all these years,
Gone in just a flash of light,
That moved way too fast.
We’ve made it through the stress,
And moments of being depressed.
Now we are waiting for our moment,
Where we will be best dressed.
Some will apply to move forward,
And others prefer to stay,
But we all will make decisions,
To make our own way.
Ordering our gowns,
Removing our frowns,
Planning for prom,
Not realizing,
How much we might miss mom.
But until that day,
Here we’ll stay,
Waiting for our taste of freedom.
But until that day,
Here we’ll stay,
To a new chapter,
To a story that has just begun.
Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 1:57 PM UTC
The road looks bumpy from down here
I'm sorry that sleepwalking me loves jackhammers
And wondering what else she can mess up
Without a concept to time to tell her when to stop
I'm sorry about my gasoline decisions and my flaming attitude
I burn everything I touch
Nothing near me goes undamaged
Nothing near me stays
I can no longer tell if I'm setting these fires while I'm awake or not
Though I doubt it even makes a difference
Somethings crept it's way under my skin
I haven't been myself for weeks
Every word seems to roll off your tongue in just the wrong way
I'm not saying it your fault
I swear i see a slyness in your eyes
I'm not saying its your fault
My pens have run dry and so I have I
I have said all I can say
I must now be on my way
I wish nothing but the best of you
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 8:03 PM UTC
I am now
starting new chapters
with new
pretty
protagonists.
Nov 14, 2016
Nov 14, 2016 at 8:19 PM UTC
Friends,
They laugh in your face,
Then go ahead and stab you in the back
Friends,
They pretend to like you,
Then go ahead and talk bad about you
Friends,
I've never gotten to know what real friends are like
But maybe I learn today,
Because friends don't wish harm on other friends
You learn that the hard way.
Feb 14, 2016
Feb 14, 2016 at 10:47 PM UTC
This however is unfortunate
I lost the love of my life
But I haven't lost my life
Although I might of lost a piece of me that made me smile for no reason at all
And I also might've lost a little special Part of my soul..
But I haven't lost my life
Because the only person I cared about isn't in my life anymore
I have all the more time to take care of myself
This is not the end of the world
But the beginning of something beautiful strong intelligent and a kick *** journey
I want to make myself proud
I want to make you proud
I wish you the best and I know all you want is for me to be successful
Its my time to shine now baby.
This is my new chapter .
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 8:45 AM UTC
I feel like I'm starting a new chapter in my life
I don't know what it entails
But I have a good feeling about it
I hope it brings joy, love, and something to do
I've been offered an opportunity soon
So I hope that goes well
I'm ready to start this new chapter
And I'm happy
Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 5:04 AM UTC
You've made your future
Now it's my turn to choose
Mine.
Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 9:17 AM UTC