#misshim
I forget that my palms
are not your arched back,
as I continue to dig
deep ruby crescents
into thick skin
late in the night.
Dec 23, 2018
Dec 23, 2018 at 1:01 PM UTC
I write because I have nothing else to do
And now your missing feels deeper than before
I need to bring you back somehow
I miss you more each day and more
I still can't believe that you're gone
And I feel more and more alone
Whatever others say you were my little brother
And my heart aches so much..
always blaming my Self
What could I have done more?
What will I do without you to adore?
You were the best thing that ever happened to me
7 I was when we met.
Atleast you're in a better place now baby, I miss you endlessly
I wish I could bring you back
But I promise we'll meet again in heaven,
Because that's where you belong.
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 11:46 AM UTC
I always thought you would come back to me
Like you always did
After every girl would break your heart, or you theirs
You'd call me up
And I'd welcome you with open arms
I always thought you would come back to me
Once you broke up
But when 6 months past and I never got a call
I realized it wasn't coming
But I still hoped for that call every night and every day
I always thought that you'd come back to me
But apparently
You aren't coming back this time
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 10:42 AM UTC
how do i
tell him
i miss him
so much
more than he
will ever
know.
how do i
hold him
in my arms
so that
he knows.
how do i
not scream
from not being
able to
love
the one person
i spent
7 months
loving.
how do i
feel this
when i am
the one
who broke his
used to be
piece of my
heart.
Sep 12, 2018
Sep 12, 2018 at 11:10 PM UTC
I don't think he will ever think of me ever again.
I don't think he ever did.
And I should be okay with that,
but I'm not.
I hate him.
I hate to miss him.
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 11:34 AM UTC
what is love?
is it a feeling?
is it a decision?
is it a prescribed death?
I have a problem; I have fallen in love.
it is believed to be the 'most beautiful thing',
but if it is
if this is true,
why am I torn between devotion and distress?
is it because he owns my heart,
or is it because he is too far away from me?
is it because I'm mad at myself for craving him so deeply,
or am I mad that I don't have him beside me?
to kiss me. to hug me.
so please, do tell...
how is this 'a beautiful thing'?
if I can't be with him, but I can't live without him?
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 10:14 PM UTC
I turned sixteen yesterday,
And the day filled me with dread.
From my father and my mother,
I wished that I was dead.
I turned sixteen yesterday,
And my parents made a fuss.
Although I was sad,
I gave them my trust.
I turned sixteen yesterday,
And they tried to give me everything.
Grateful I am, hateful I won't be,
But the only thing I wished for was his arms around me.
I turned sixteen yesterday,
And I breathe a new breath.
The life that once engulfed me
Has now become death.
I turned sixteen yesterday,
And I miss him so much.
Happy as I tried to be,
I still longed for his touch.
And I am sixteen today,
He would have been, too,
But death came and took him,
Too many years, too soon.
You should have been sixteen,
But young you will stay.
My love for you will never die,
We'll meet again one day.
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 9:41 AM UTC
I don't think you can stop me,
but I'd like to see you give a try,
before I'm done my baby,
you'll be the one to kneel down and cry,
I'll be the one who's walking away,
& you'll be the one who's left with goodbye.
Cherie Nolan © 2016
Jan 7, 2017
Jan 7, 2017 at 8:08 PM UTC
If only you could see yourself through my eyes,
Then you'll be able to see what you mean to me.
You'll see that I love you dearly, I cherish everything about you.
I love your smile,
The sound of your laughter,
The way your eyes sparkle with happiness,
All your little dumb jokes.
It drives me crazy when I'm away from you,
It drives me crazy when I'm with you,
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
I love everything about you.
Oct 8, 2015
Oct 8, 2015 at 10:00 PM UTC
Somewhere through the night you stopped loving me. I wish I could change that last moment with you, I wish I could've said I love you more and held you closer to me. Took in the smell of your skin. Ran my fingertips across your every inch. You said you loved me that night but something went wrong because your feelings left just like that. Suddenly you were gone and I was left to pick up the pieces of my own shattered heart. I was left to miss the smell of your skin and the feel of your fingertips tracing my sides, I was left to wonder if you really ever loved me. Because how could you just end it so abruptly, if you did? I've been reliving my memories trying to figure out where I went wrong. But I don't know if I'll ever figure it out. All that matters is your gone and I'm left behind, only a memory that you choose to ignore. My love, I would die for you every day if I could. If in three years you walked back into my life I would welcome you back with open arms. My love for you has become infinite, I wish I could scrawl your name in the stars. I wish I could write your words all over my skin. I wish you didn't leave me, I wish you had stayed. You left a ghost in the place that I used to be. All I have left is the desire to haunt places that used to be ours, if you ever come back you'll know where to find me.
Aug 2, 2015
Aug 2, 2015 at 1:25 AM UTC
I miss you so fucken much its not even funny anymore!!! :(
As soon as your back
and I get to see you
prepare yourself
because imma run up to you
and almost bowl you over with my hug
okay?
okay
:D :) <3
x
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 6:17 AM UTC
I miss mine homie,
Who in the world's name is homie? One mayeth ask.....
Well homie
Is mine old German Shepherd.....
Dad named him that
Funny yes I know.... Long story ....
And though I haveth many Angel's here on earth......
Homie,
Was mine true pet angel....
He always watched out for me when I was around nine years old.
And when one day,
At mine birthday party...
Mine friends tried to be OK with homie,
As me and homie were soulmates friend and being wise...
So mine friend's tried to feed homie through his fence hotdogs,
Like I did with no problem...
And mine old buddy Danny found out.
Homie didn't eat hot dog's
Unless I Gaveth them to him ....
Me, his best friend and soulmate!
Fed them to him....
As I saw homie ready to rip Danny's hand off...
I just chuckled and told homie...
Down boy down...
Homie always listened...
He was mine soulmate....
My do I miss mine homie...
As I remembered one day coming home from school...
Mum picking me up from that young learning center,
She said son I got something to tell thee,
On the way home...
(Yes mum)
I said...
Well,
Homie died
I found him whilst thou was at school son...
( said mum)
I couldn't say nothing
I think I just said really?
As mum told me
He was found in his doghouse
Curled up
Dead.....
I questioned her?
Where is he mother?
Wherein did thou layeth his body mum?
I asked....
She told me she had taken him to some place about fifteen minutes away,
And buried him in some wood's....
I wasn't angry with her.
Nor even father,
I was hurt because I didint get to see his body...
I was hurt because I told mother and father all the time...
Bring him INSIDE!!!!!!
When it got cold...
As I remember it was cold
And snowing when he died........
Yes I understood homie was a big dog
And couldst be a little wild at times....
Though we had a basement
With rooms in that basement
And couldst haveth put a cage down there....
So I felt horrible I didint just bring him in
Even though they thought it was fine to stay outside
During winter......
Mum thought he was poisoned
By someone putting something in his food....
My opinion is he died alone,
When I was gone,
And froze to death....
Don't like thinking of it...
I just miss him to mine soul!!!!!!!!!
I forgive mum and dad not angry,
Just canst waiteth to see mine angel again...
R.I.P homie baby boy...
See you in heaven (:
Jul 7, 2015
Jul 7, 2015 at 3:06 PM UTC
Everything's still the same,
Nothing seems to have changed
But one...
You're gone.
And, without you,
Even though everything's still the same,
Nothing seems to be the same.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 5:40 AM UTC
Maybe it was the way fate intertwined our lives together on that warm summer day, or maybe it was the way he looked at me as if I was the most beautiful flower he'd seen amongst all the others in the garden. Whatever it was that caused my heart to fall for his, I am blessed.
The beauty of one's love for another is equivalent to every breathtaking sunset I have laid my eyes on and every single star that I have made a wish upon.
I found beauty within our hushed whispers and deafening silences, along with the moments of laughter and smiles reaching from ear to ear.
He was the most beautiful shades of color I had ever seen. Not a single rainbow could compare to the warmth and radiance he emitted.
Maybe it was the way he kissed my nose when I was angry- such a simple gesture, but it wasn't simple to me. It was the world and all the universes combined into a single second of complete compassion.
I cherished every single kiss of his, I savored the taste of his tongue, I basked in the warmth of his embrace- time didn't exist when I was enveloped in his arms.
Months down the road, and I still reminisce on every single detail of all of our memories together; hoping that one day maybe fate will be ever so kind and have our paths cross once more-
Apr 8, 2015
Apr 8, 2015 at 1:18 AM UTC
When she met him
for the very first time
a crown of daisies
laid perfectly on her head
and a smile was splayed across her lips
the radiant sun taken from the sky
and placed all around her
illuminating her silhouette
against the setting horizon
He looked at her with those piercing eyes
immediately creating flowers in her lungs
and growing
She tried to breathe
but was unable,
for his flawless self
took her breath away
replacing them with wild flowers
of beauty
and awestruck
The Christmas roses in the pit of her stomach
held graceful butterflies on their stems
fluttering about
and spreading their beautiful,
wonderfully delicate wings,
flying up into her entire being.
He made her this way,
a beautiful mess
because who wouldn’t
if they met you?
A perfect work of nature
created from the prettiest of flowers
a Primrose to behold,
and a Camelia to hold.
Nov 6, 2014
Nov 6, 2014 at 1:36 PM UTC
Maybe she's pretty,
But she'll never know why you can't go out later in the night.
Maybe she's smart,
But she'll never understand what you mean when you say 'fine'.
Maybe she's loving,
But she'll never see you cry uncontrollably.
Maybe you have a future with her,
But you'll always have a history with me.
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 6:36 PM UTC
i waited, so patiently
for that kiss
one brush against my lips
and feel yours softly
for a moment
just an instant
i needed it awfully
it was a promise
that our rings
and those vows
wouldn't lay to remiss
through burdens
by struggles
we will get through this
oh, how i miss
your comfort
in just one kiss...
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 4:11 AM UTC