#leftbehind
people leave me
like wind leaves the gate.
pushed open, unlatched.
shapes altering to blur
as i watch them
dissolve in the distance.
i wish to crown myself
the ice queen i once was—
safe, untouchable,
heart locked behind glass.
then the silence wouldn’t bite.
and i wouldn’t lie awake—
wondering why the hell
their world moved on,
and why mine stayed.
Aug 6, 2025
Aug 6, 2025 at 9:21 AM UTC
I feel stuck.
I am rowing but my boat doesn’t move;
I am trying but it's never enough;
it is two steps back and one to the front;
missing assignments pile above my shoulders
the load is making me bend and fall to the ground
and my face is up against it, looking at everyone else above me,
getting kicked at as they move forwards
without me.
Because I am stuck
and I can't move
or breathe
or barely exist,
How do you expect progress when it is
this hard to live?
Apr 17, 2025
Apr 17, 2025 at 4:29 PM UTC
I remember the way I screamed,
While you walked free, so redeemed.
You left me crawling in the dirt,
But I won’t break, I won’t get hurt.
You played me like a worthless toy,
Just to shatter, just to destroy.
Left me bleeding, torn apart,
Now taste the wrath you chose to start.
You built a throne on my broken bones—
Now watch it crumble under your own stones.
No more mercy, no more cries,
I'll rise while your kingdom dies.
Mar 7, 2025
Mar 7, 2025 at 10:17 PM UTC
Everyone gets tired of me at some point,
Then eventually, they’ll leave. They all do.
Sometimes happy memories hurt the most.
The way you look back and see the hints.
Those little moments that reveal everything.
I constantly feel so ******* unwanted.
Mar 7, 2025
Mar 7, 2025 at 7:26 PM UTC
He walks alone, tracing the places where her footsteps once lingered. The city feels borderless, an empty world where her laughter once echoed. The silence is deafening, the nights long, the pain deep.
He finds himself writing her into his poetry, his art. But she is no longer there to read it.
Time passes, and yet, she stays—an unfinished note in his heart, a whisper in the wind.
Somewhere in another city, she feels it too. But love is cruel, and fate never promises a second chance.
They were never meant to last—only to leave a mark on each other’s soul, an ache in the rains of time.
Feb 25, 2025
Feb 25, 2025 at 3:00 AM UTC
Dust had long settled on that heart,
It barely works and full of rust,
Though it was only used once
After a misery it was
Thrown aside like a trash;
It is an antique with no value
And never would have one
No matter how much time passes—
A piece that would stay on the shelf
Until it crumble into dust.
Nov 25, 2024
Nov 25, 2024 at 11:48 PM UTC
You are a masterpiece
I am a broken piece
I love everything about you
You are very close to my heart
Do you also feel the same?
I hope you also think about me
My feelings are visible
As you read this letter
Even though we love each other
Yet it's not enough for us to live together
So I share my emotions in sentences
And finally closing our chapter in my last words...
I loved you~
Jan 10, 2022
Jan 10, 2022 at 8:49 AM UTC
I want to fade into the walls and hide, like memories or bad dreams or a fleeting look we think we spy among crowded eyes. A pipe dream, to live up to even memories of those who’s been before me, or even left the room before me, even while my heart still pumps that
cold,
black,
Fluid round my veins,
I’ll never be as good as them. Or funny. Or handsome.
The only impressive thing about my legacy is the pain it causes me. Irony.
I’ll never live up to their memory, my life almost ethereal, sounds and smells and sights flow through me, not too me.
Like I walking memory I wander through the streets I call my home, my mind, doomed to tread the prints of those greater, more refined, who’s time was spent with people who would look at them, not through them. Like I am a hazy window into the rest of the world.
Those who came before me, who’s thrones I travel by and through, their legacy, endless in its torment of my opaque existence, became my legacy, of laughter, at my expense, ridden for the brief high it gave.
All I leave this meagre and transparent world, is a shadowed memory, and words.
Oct 29, 2021
Oct 29, 2021 at 5:28 AM UTC
Never fall in love with a poet.
They'll cut you with pretty words
And leave your heart bleeding out like ink on a page.
Jan 24, 2021
Jan 24, 2021 at 6:41 PM UTC
Do or don't?
Just get it done!
Cause I don't wanna be
The only one
Left behind
The task at hand?
It is what God demands
Cause He doesn't want me
To be
The only one
Left behind
Will I succeed?
I am sure indeed
Cause it's the Lord's will
It is what He does need
The assurance for me
That I won't be
Left behind
Halt no more?
Of this I am sure
Cause if I do not
My spirit will rot
Then I will find
Myself
Left behind
Out of time
With no reason or ryhme?
Cause if so,
I'm not worth a dime
If I wind up being
The only one left behind
Spiritual warfare?
There's a battle at hand
To warn all the others
An honor so grand
Cause all of us know
We prefer
Not to be ******
Its time to go
And all of us know
Cause its time to change direction
And don't go with the flow
So take up your paddles
And vigorously row
Row and row
And take part in the grind
And in due time
You will find
Yourselves
Not left behind
Tis my warning
My warning for all of you
Cause the time is coming
I know this to be true
The time for each and every
One of us to find
Which ones will be left
The ones left behind
Dec 11, 2020
Dec 11, 2020 at 3:45 PM UTC
Black hole
Broken heart
You've taken sacred love
and torn it apart
Now I'm left
In utter darkness
Did you ever love me from the start?
Black hole
Broken heart
Love is null
Torn apart
Black hole
Broken Heart
Your love is void
Love did depart
Now I'm trapped
In nothingness
You surely did impart
Love does not just "disappear"
Love conquers all and conquers fears
Love does endure so many tears
Love is victorious the moment it appears
Therefore, I must believe this one fact alone
As my beating, pain filled heart does groan
That you have abandoned me and turned your heart to stone
Along with the absolute apathy you have surely shown
Now, in a black hole
With a broken heart
Love did die
Love torn apart
I've made mistakes
Can I restart?
Nov 4, 2020
Nov 4, 2020 at 1:42 AM UTC
"As long as I
don't lose you
I am ok"
Those words will forever
be embedded in my brain,
because you still left me
what a shame.
Sep 14, 2020
Sep 14, 2020 at 8:05 AM UTC
you said you'd never go
you said you'd always stay
you said you had loved me
you said I'd never be alone
you said you'd never
l
e
a
v
e
but where are you now?
Aug 2, 2020
Aug 2, 2020 at 3:18 PM UTC
when you fall
if he doesn't catch you
if he takes his time or he isn't bothered
do not question your worth
question him
May 5, 2020
May 5, 2020 at 8:54 PM UTC
The petals of spring sank beautifully in the puddles of rain as she traded her sneakers for heels, entered the back of the black car and drove away for the last time.
Apr 16, 2020
Apr 16, 2020 at 9:49 PM UTC
If my feelings were written in words
The lines would never end
A never ending story
Of pages filled with nothing
And everything at once
As if my life was nothing more
And without wouldn't be at all
Now everything that is
Sits quietly in your hand
And without a single glance
I am put back
In just another ones dusty shelf
Again
Mar 11, 2020
Mar 11, 2020 at 9:07 AM UTC
Hunters come back to haunt
who doesn't exist,
his ghost is still penetrating
through her shallow mind,
for a thousand years of playing knives,
she left there, undesired.
She thought "that would be enough"
it would be his revenge or punishment,
her vial was empty but he was a bloodlust,
words could cut and anguish could be unbearable, but tears will run dry.
The days turn into dust;
those memories she recollect
if he is seem to love again
maybe, she will find her faith
and her place.
She lost in darkness with broken dreams
she knew, it will only leads her to death;
Why do people keep coming back
on those things they left behind?
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 10:07 PM UTC
You don’t know how I felt
How you felt
How I felt
How we both felt the same
All the anger and pain
From your sick little game
You called love
You don’t know how I loved
How I yearned
How I craved
To be something I wasn’t
Someone who doesn’t
Get lost in the present
With you
You don’t get how I felt
How I was
How I am
You made me something else
Changing ourselves
Something I never wanted
To be
You don’t know how I hated
How I loved
How I hated
Your bittersweet words
That were more of a curse
Than a blessing for someone
Like me
You don’t know how I cried
How I sobbed in the night
How I lost all the light
All of it trapped inside of your hands
I cried from the pain
How my soul is forever stained
By the darkness you seeped into
My heart
These tears aren’t for you
They never will be
They are mine for only me and myself
For the hatred you left
Behind on that cliff
As the wind swept you farther away
I cry for myself
How I caused you to leave
How I made you feel how you did
How I didn’t understand
How I couldn’t understand
What you were always telling me
“I love you”
You saved me, then hurt me
Loved me, deserted me
Left me behind to rot
I loved you for how you were
You loved me for what you saw
And for what I only showed and wanted you
to see
You don’t know I felt
And now, you never shall
I don’t know how you felt all the same
It’s not fair how you left and now I have to
live without you
You ruined my life
Committed suicide
Destroyed my pride
Left me behind to die
alone in this world without you
You don’t know how I felt
How I hoped to tell
“I love you” to you someday
I’m the cause of your hate
You just couldn’t wait
long enough for me to say
Those three words
You don’t know how I felt
And these tears aren’t for you
They’re for me and all of my failures
Abandoned here in this world
I can’t be myself
ever again
You were the disease
I wanted to catch
The only cure for me
Jan 2, 2020
Jan 2, 2020 at 6:43 PM UTC
Everyone leaves
And i wondered
Why wasn't i enough
Then i realised
I was too much
For them to handle
I was more than enough
Dec 23, 2019
Dec 23, 2019 at 10:47 PM UTC
I'm lying here, my thoughts are scary
The lessons had I want to bury
Not one but two the same mistakes
I dove in deep, now what a mess
I do not wish to change the past
The things I said, I feel embarrassed
Layed out my feelings out to you
Rejection stabbed my heart right through
You said you care, that's ******** really
The way you let me go so freely
Embrasing love you have for her
Until the day she'll want you gone
When that day comes, I'll be no more
I won't know what she has done
Plans don't work out the way we want
I hope that you just don't get hurt
Because of fear of leaving her
You tell yourself you love her more
That things'll get better, she'll keep a job
If not, you'll move to another land
And that's your life plan, baby her
So stick with that, I've shut my door
I can't escape, we work together
I'm sure that I won't last in there forever
The beauty is, I'll learn to cope
You've pulled away, there is no hope
The lies you told, that shattered me
I do not trust you, stay away from me
Maybe one day she'll know what happened
But you'll tell her, I never mattered
She'll never know you loved me once
And saw our future in advance
I told you how compatible we are
But I was wrong, we're not by far
Don't call me friend, we're way past that
Damage control you're trying won't last
I do forgive you but all you'll see now
Is a fake smile on me, in my eyes you fell down
Got myself into this mess and now I'm stuck
Farewell my dear friend, we really ****** up
Oct 26, 2019
Oct 26, 2019 at 5:39 AM UTC
The sky over peach hill
Was dulcet last I looked,
Without a hint of clammy March
In the middle of a bright July
The sky over peach hill
Had clouds surrounding the kites,
My girl and I would stare for hours
As hot-air balloons passed by
That sky over peach hill
Ever soft, ever sweet.
That was the place where I found
That life passes in a sigh
The peaches fell,
And august came.
My girl went away,
I was left behind.
The sky over peach hill
Looks a little darker now.
But I know once winter ends
The kites will fly again
Oct 3, 2019
Oct 3, 2019 at 11:32 PM UTC