#innerdemon
Why do I even stay
When all you bring is pain
may be because you don't cast me away
but love me even when it's inhumane
You always keep my feelings at bay
it's something I can never explain
you never let me stray
even when you're a demon I try to contain
Nov 24, 2019
Nov 24, 2019 at 12:40 PM UTC
I grant you to gently peek
Careful, for there demons creep
I wish you not to blindly seek
For I've gotten them to peacefully sleep
You may think you can handle
My mistake to reflect
For you'll never again be stable
Your qualities will deflect
I've been falsely honest
Inside lies Diablo himself
You have not yet earnest
your way to the shelf
Her hands perfectly followed my seams
and ripped it apart with my screams
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 3:08 PM UTC
Darling,
It wasn't my mistake,
You trusted me.
I was your only friend in the dark,
Your little secret,
Your little demon,
You were so beautiful before you broke.
Nobody could ever love some one like you.
Now you're worthless.
Without your looks you're nothing,
Without my voice you're lost,
Can't you see darling,
Your mind is broken,
But I'll take care of you darling,
Just do what I say and you will be beautiful again.
I love you darling.
Jul 15, 2018
Jul 15, 2018 at 3:01 AM UTC
Can it be?
Those selfish eyes still hold my desire.
They capture my need, and quench my thirst.
How can that be?
As I linger in the shadows,
I capture the sense of her presence, taunting me.
She's beside me.
Knowing I can't escape her longing stare.
I flinch as I sense a tug.
I notice I'm moving away from those deep, dark eyes.
I reach for her, knowing what she holds is the key to my Pandora's box.
I'm awake.
I see nothing more than my own heart upon my sleeve.
I feel no more, as I get up and look in the mirror.
She's right there, looking right at me.
Her crooked smile gives it away, and I realize what is real.
The true demon... Is me.
Apr 15, 2018
Apr 15, 2018 at 2:20 AM UTC
What do I do?!?!?
Answer me!!!!
Don't leave me alone.
A nod of the head will suffice.
Should I smash the mirror?
The face that stares back in dissatisfaction?!
Do I blind the eyes,
So they can't look into my own?!
Do I take the lit candle,
place it beneath my face?
Burn my skin, shave my face,
Change my look entirely?
Hello?!
Why can't you answer...
You don't have the time, or is the answer too painful?
It doesn't matter.
I have braved many storms.
Faced the sea in defiance,
Bound my wounds in gauze,
and counted the time it takes the sun to set.
I can handle you.
You who ridicules, charms, then throws my smile away.
You can never run!
I know your secrets!
I know your name!
And someday, your taunts,
Will fall on deaf ears.
I'll look into the mirror,
And stare back,
At my own lustrous eyes!
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 5:41 AM UTC
It feels like a thousand needles piercing through your heart,
while you are slowly sinking into a bottomless dark hole,
fighting your way out gasping for air.
Countless thoughts going through your head,
struggling to fight your inner demon.
Sleepless nights, endless nightmares,
tears and heartbreaks,
everything seems normal to you.
Sep 20, 2017
Sep 20, 2017 at 11:02 PM UTC
"I want take another direction, but no road" I said to a friend
"why do you want to do such" she inquired.
If only she knew the demons within
If only she knew how it all began
The troubles, the wars beneath,
everyday I come alive sore
The pain in my heart, the curse given to it
The soul is not within anymore - a living corpse -
Something different I want to be
Not to bear offsprings, they won't agree
Not to be with the opposite 'cos nothing loves
Not to shed a tear 'cos I've gone dry
Not to eat 'cos there's no flesh to feed
To feel my pain, its his only gain
The demon within..
Do as you wish but hurt none within reach
Anyone who knows me, see for your self
My heart and soul hangs at his window pane.
Mar 25, 2017
Mar 25, 2017 at 1:21 PM UTC
He used to walk with life in his stride
He used to strut with a heart full of pride
These days see him stumbling every so often
These days see his eyes vacant and sullen
So I asked if there was anything bothering him
So I asked what is it that made his light so dim
He tarried, then answered with conviction true
He tarried before he finally answered, "You..."
Nov 21, 2016
Nov 21, 2016 at 7:14 PM UTC
I've heard angels sing but when
you let your voice be heard
I swear it's like all of heaven's angels singing about letting a soul be reborn
Souls.
Two souls.
We met two years ago on a whim, and
we were unseperable
Momma said it was because we were
twins once before
I didn't believe it until I noticed everything we did was similar
Then I pushed you away, and the demon
came out again, and again until you ran
But I know one day we will be okay
I just have to forgive myself someday.
Jan 30, 2016
Jan 30, 2016 at 9:48 AM UTC
Doctor please,
Crack open my rib cage
and let the light seep in.
Take this monster out of me.
Scrape it off my bones
and tear it out,
I can feel it growing larger
with every breath I take.
Doctor please,
this is killing me.
Oct 14, 2015
Oct 14, 2015 at 8:57 AM UTC
Can you hear the cry
of my inner self sentenced to die?
I'm shouting your name
I'm was glad you came
Save me from my own hell
It's taking me, can't you tell!
I can't keep doing this
I can no longer swing my fist
I feel weak
a constant losing streak
I need to see you darling
Your love so startling
But you have walked away
Leaving with no words to say
I think it's time to take
The demons hand, and never awake
Jun 10, 2015
Jun 10, 2015 at 1:59 AM UTC
Every time i hear the word soulmate i hear her name every time the wind whistles in my face it reminds me of the way her hair melted across my cheeks i clutch my eyes shut thinking im dreaming to open and see its a dream come true, her love makes me forget how it feels to want my life to be through forget how it feels to feel alone even now she is away i still feel her i still smell her i still crave her the way she makes me feel beats any drug i dont want anything but her love
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 6:34 AM UTC
I got mad,
made suicidal tweets on twitter,
then I get a notification.
You, a friend who I haven't talk to for a long time,
direct messaged me,
and ask me if I was alright.
I felt happy in that moment,
that someone cared.
And that someone was you.
You called me after,
assured that I do not harm myself.
We talked for an hour and i never felt so happy.
Thank you,
for calling me,
Thank you for listening.
If you hadn't,
I would have scars and,
My demon would have been dancing in happiness tonight.
May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 12:10 PM UTC
my inner demon tells me,
that if doesn't want me to die.
my inner demon is not a friend,
it enjoys seeing me suffer.
my inner demon laughs in joy,
at the cuts and scars I have.
my inner demon pulls me back and forth,
the cliff of misery.
my inner demon smiles in amusement,
when the people I know leave me.
my inner demon pour alcohol on my wounds,
when I'm crying.
my inner demon consumes me entirely,
and I to surrender to it.
my inner demon holds me captive,
and I to to be inflicted of pain for it's happiness.
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 6:00 PM UTC
little devil,
when will you leave me?
consume me,
fully.
eat me entirely.
I don't want to suffer anymore.
May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 5:52 AM UTC