The road less trAveled is the one unspoken toll of a madman searching for his soul
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 2:12 AM UTC
The thing, he said, would come in the night at three
From the old churchyard on the hill below;
But crouching by an oak fire's wholesome glow,
I tried to tell myself it could not be.
Surely, I mused, it was pleasantry
Devised by one who did not truly know
The Elder Sign, bequeathed from long ago,
That sets the fumbling forms of darkness free.
He had not meant it - no - but still I lit
Another lamp as starry Leo climbed
Out of the Seekonk, and a steeple chimed
Three - and the firelight faded, bit by bit.
Then at the door that cautious rattling came -
And the mad truth devoured me like a flame!
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 2:08 AM UTC
The things that follow me pushes away my friends so I will always be alone in the end. Those eyes .... I tip my head to the sky my knees to the ground I pray to you but nothing ...not a sound. Only the sound of the laughs and scraps on the walls, the popping floors, the slamming doors, I pretend I'm just crazy that I just need meds it's to the point I can't have a elevated bed, it shakes , I think it's me dreaming I wake up screaming but through the years the memories i have surpressed come back to me it's been following me since I was old enough to speak I would tell them my friends in the walls don't like me , those **** dolls would walk around the house while I'm frozen cold as ice house I wish I had one friend that wouldn't be afraid to help me battle this demonic desiese but no I'm alone for him to do as he pleases the smile he gives those blue eyes makes me feel like a child ...if you think this just a story come hang out for a while ..
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 1:36 AM UTC
My body feels empty , I can't feel, after it all my heart surprises me, sometimes....it begins to pound it ...pounds but what is it I feel , I can never begin to believe love is truley real. I view love as a weakness for as long as I don't love my shield is up right? Regardless my shield will have its cracks for the ones that made it exsistant I thought I hade it right .... guess I missed it.... the thumping that sometimes beats in my chest creates hate I see the words flash ....mistake... waste.... run.. heartbreak....fake...your love trial is done..
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 1:06 AM UTC
I do not weep for you.
I do not weep for us.
I weep for what we could have become.
I weep because I feel myself falling apart and somehow believe you’re the tailor who can sew me back together.
I weep because I saw you, holding him, kissing him as if my role in your life was the battleground to prepare you for your saviour.
I weep because we had that.
I weep hard, ridding myself of every drop of sorrow only for it to be replenished again, feeding from the source of beautiful memories where our minds were as intertwined as our fingers and our eyes were a grey blur of my blue and your magnificent green.
I weep fearing I will never stop weeping. Until my body is dry and decrepit.
I weep until I’m raw. Leaving only my devastated soul vulnerable to the reality of living one more day without you.
I weep because I allowed your happiness to become my water. I weep because I fought for you, lied for you and ultimately was willing to forget myself for you.
I weep because I miss me.
I weep because you have stolen that piece of my soul that allows me to function.
I weep because that piece of me that you have, once held me together.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 7:20 AM UTC
Was it dark in there in the trench from wich you came
Was it hard to step outside and feel the rain
Did the empty shells trip you as you stumble to your feet
Thousands of bodies innocent bodies
Fill the street
Like a **** growing threw the concreate, you stand tall
For a nation that rises just to fall
The lies ......
The lies flood the street like the aftermath of a natural disaster
Im not a christian
I haveo master
You call this the land of the free
Where is the freedom
Where is the dream
Where are the answers
Open your eyes
Your enemies claim to be on your team
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 7:07 AM UTC
You killed me
You loved me
You betrayed me
You changed me
You stressed me
You laughed at my cries
You mocked me with humble words
You burned me with your cold kiss
If you where to ever try to do any of these things that just scratch the surface i would whip it out and say **** on this lol
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 6:51 AM UTC
Every time i hear the word soulmate i hear her name every time the wind whistles in my face it reminds me of the way her hair melted across my cheeks i clutch my eyes shut thinking im dreaming to open and see its a dream come true, her love makes me forget how it feels to want my life to be through forget how it feels to feel alone even now she is away i still feel her i still smell her i still crave her the way she makes me feel beats any drug i dont want anything but her love
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 6:34 AM UTC