#ifonly
I miss you like
flames in my chest
I'm trying my best
but I need to see your face
and it seems I cannot wait
I breathe and catch
your scent on the breeze;
see your face in
people on the street
I need you
so I close my eyes
and once again I can see
that soft face in front of me
I hear your voice
in my mind
all of the time
So don't you know?
I miss you
3d ago
May 31, 2026 at 10:44 AM UTC
Summertime
spent
in
silence
Reaching
in
the
dark
Reaching
for
the
stars
Reaching
so
we
don't
fall
apart
Summertime
spent
in
sadness
Holding
tight
to
broken
memories
Holding
onto
me
and
you
Holding
so
I
don't
lose
us
Summertime
spent
in
slow-motion
Don't
let
go
Don't
tell
me
no
I
reach
for
the
stars
To
claim
them
and
your
heart
You
reach
back,
but
I've
been
reaching
from
the
start
May 23
May 23, 2026 at 6:20 PM UTC
So good, so bad
something i will never have
yet something that
bleeds me dry
and makes me never
want to try
So good, so bad
someone i will never have
yet someone that i yearn
to hold and
tell them all the things untold
So good, so bad
something i will never not have
the bloodthirst behind
closed doors
and the sting of metal
since i'll never be yours
Mar 16
Mar 16, 2026 at 9:30 PM UTC
It was October
gold leaves crunch, arms brush, feet touch
what if this is love?
Oct 23, 2025
Oct 23, 2025 at 12:22 PM UTC
Fig at my feet,
I fumble
and fret
Imagining worlds where bubbles don’t burst,
Where the sun doesn’t
burn
away
into nothingness.
Where the ghosts of ex lovers haunt their mothers and the emptiness doesn’t weigh heavy on my boots.
In the distance a white rabbit beckons me forward
To a home where you never leave and she never hurts.
A place to sit and trace the rivers flowing across the heart lines in my palm.
My life mapped out before me like reels and reels of ticker tape.
He will love you like no other.
He will hold onto you like the last leaf of fall.
He will kiss you like a wave to a boat, gently and fiercely, all at once.
I swallow the blue pill and wake to craters in my hands, hollowed out by time.
And in them I’m holding not a fig, but a mulberry fruit.
Thisbe and Pyramus’ lament from the gods.
I take a bite, a bitter taste.
Because in another life, I’d be with you.
Jul 11, 2025
Jul 11, 2025 at 4:27 PM UTC
I have known you as far as my memory goes.
I have observed you, watched you grow—
As I did too.
But I wonder why we never talked,
’Cause we never talked before,
Was all I could think back then.
And even now,
I think it’s still the same—
’Cause we never talked before,
And maybe… we never will.
May 6, 2025
May 6, 2025 at 4:12 AM UTC
"im lonely, so lonely."
the saphire cries.
"the moon is dark, gone frome the skies."
she glistens and sharpens in her hue.
"if only, if only"
the gemstones reply
"you would be moved, we could see your eye"
they believe a change is due
yes only, if only, the change would come
Feb 27, 2025
Feb 27, 2025 at 9:12 PM UTC
i crave to have friends
when i am alone
crave to make amends
for myself but i should've known
i would want to be alone
when i'm next to my 'friends'
so i just scroll on my phone
igoring the loose ends
i'm leaving every single day
Aug 26, 2024
Aug 26, 2024 at 7:23 PM UTC
7/16/2021
If I could speak to you
I’d tell you how special you are
I’d tell you that what makes you cool
Is that I can see the love of Jesus shining
If I could give you counsel
I’d tell you how valuable you are
I’d tell you how infinitely important it is
To wait patiently on God’s will for your life
If I could ask you a question
I’d want an answer from your heart
What is your pressing passion, I’d ask
What drives you, what things do you love?
If I could watch you
I’d want to see you smile
I’d want you to be safe and happy
I’d want to watch you live your dreams
If I weren’t so self-conscious
I’d be confident and encouraging
I’d want to be intentional and inviting
I’d want to be the person I’m meant to be
Mar 12, 2022
Mar 12, 2022 at 10:57 AM UTC
If only I had been
faster
If only I had been
enough
If only you had loved me,
then perhaps I could have loved you,
and then you would have
stayed
If only people were
understanding
If only they had
listened
If only they hadn't broken your trust,
then you could give it to me,
and then you would have
stayed
If only you were still
here
If only I had the guts to tell you
before
If only I had seen what was going on,
then I could have helped,
and then you would have
stayed
Aug 15, 2020
Aug 15, 2020 at 6:08 PM UTC
I find myself dreaming of how life was before
I find myself longing for the ways things once were
I wish I'd of been content instead of always asking for more
I wish I remembered it vividly but now its just a blur
Going out with friends and the time that went by so fast
If only I had known that it wouldn't all last
Now confined within the walls that make up my home
I feel so trapped like I'm quarantined inside a dome
Just a few months ago everything was as it should be
Just a few months ago we had no restrictions and were free
But now because of fear, our freedom has strict borders
We have no other choice than to follow the government's orders
I suppose we'll recall a few months ago as the before
Because It's doubtful that things will ever be like that any more
Jul 15, 2020
Jul 15, 2020 at 8:14 PM UTC
Quit the "if only"s
Say that you want me
Baby we ain't got the time
No more excuses
Baby let's choose us
It could be the time of our lives
I'd rather regret you than regret my alibi
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 1:31 PM UTC
Tear me up
salt my wounds
and I will come back
patched and proofed
Stop my tracks
tie my foot
and by this pavement
I'll starve and stood
Call me in names
of sharp refutes
and I will breathe in
to calm my thoughts
But tell me to change
the one thing I be
and you would break me
into insanity
I have known words
to estrange my mind
and I have heard you
brought back my life
A disfiguration
of what I was
A continuation
of who I am
And I,
I am
A broken
Masterpiece
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 10:55 PM UTC
Wake me up
At the cracks of dawn
Because you had
A nightmare
Wake me up
In the middle of the night
Because you need a hug
And you want some cuddles
Wake me up
When I'm not asleep
From the daily nightmare
That's called me
Wake me up
When you're thirsty
And need someone to walk you down the stairs
Because you're scared alone in the dark
Wake me up
Whenever you need me
4 AM, 6 PM
I'll always be there
Wake me up
And make me
Stand up with tangles in my hair
To dance with you at midnight
Wake me up
Before you leave to work
So I can wake up next to you
Like we've always wanted
Wake me up
To make love
I wish you would want me
To be your passion
May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 8:16 AM UTC
What is love but an exposition,
Of what is otherwise so deeply hidden,
Within the heart of the one who adores,
Living with the fear of when she explores,
I came to you before we had met,
So majestic with pure excellence,
A perfect guy you had taught,
This broken heart's possessor had been,
When durations of speech,
Went from minutes to hours so quick,
I revealed myself not all but a bit,
Though that bit was enough to change your mind,
You saw me fall and reached my hand,
Helping me up, assisting me to stand,
But at the same have your troops leave,
The worthless soil of my hearts land.
A confused man isn't apparently;
in the eyes of a lady attractive
AROODY 2019
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 1:53 PM UTC
If only
I had no problems
Maybe
Then I wouldn't be
So lonely
Stressed out mind
And open heart
Both so lonely
I can't tell
If I'm alright
If only
I wasn't breaking
Slowly
I wouldn't be
So lonely
Walking away
So coldly
If only
I wasn't so
(not) crazy
Then maybe
If only
I'm not lonely
Apr 8, 2019
Apr 8, 2019 at 10:55 AM UTC
If Hillary somehow taken Trump's sauce
Found her ladle before her e-mails loss
Dumped all the macaroni
From the plate of Trump phoney
Our stomachs now would not ache, turn and toss
Logan Robertson
4/04/2019
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 5:43 AM UTC
My ‘if only’
My inconsolable regret,
My struggle and my strength.
Jan 23, 2019
Jan 23, 2019 at 5:48 PM UTC
Are black clouds swirling above my head?
Are birds and butterflies?
Can you tell when I'm angry?
Does smoke spew from my ears?
Wouldn't that be easier?
If we were animations
Alive and fictitious
Right there
Before your eyes
I reflate after every defeat
Arrive safe and clean and unbroken
Back in my bed the next morning
Nothing happened
Wouldn't that be easier?
Nov 12, 2018
Nov 12, 2018 at 10:34 AM UTC
The Catman told a joke
The boy's laughter bounced off the walls
I knew that laugh, so I smiled to myself
I knew before even seeing him
His broad smile lights up the room
His full laugh fills the room
fills me
If only I could be the reason for his smile
If only I could be within his sight
If only it could be as more than a friend
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 2:32 PM UTC
If only I'd said the words
what my heart wants to convey,
I bet we are now both happy
singing our songs together.
If only I have clearly shown
how my feelings are sincere.
Perhaps you're still here
Smiling at me so clear.
If only I had said honestly
that our feelings are mutual
I wouldn't regret that day
and writing this poem.
If I could have the chance
to fall in love again
I wouldn't be the same coward
I'll be one step forward.
Jan 24, 2018
Jan 24, 2018 at 3:41 PM UTC